lalalalalalalala~(^_^)~

great ;)

alhamdulilah...
i hopes dat things btween us gona gud...
iALLAH....

i luv u ;)

no matter wat....
juz sory 4 bein me....
d bad me....

n all d rascals outhre....
sriously i dun like u....

jz keep ur pathetic to othrs
dn need dat....

i hve her..
enough 4 me ;)

DND!!!!!!

iALLAH...WE'L B GUD ;)

"killing jar"

death notes....

build it up..the wall...

trying hard to bring back d memory...

bt notink...

refusal....
anger.....
sorrow...

tkes cntrol....

YA ALLAH...
all is in YOUR hands...
im juz a weak person...
im notink..


i noe i cant fix bck...
but dn feel lke ur nothing to me..
ur someone in my life's
part of my life's.....

learning to live half alive...
running out leaving scars...

am i a sinner....
im gettin weak day by day...
punishment...

aches....
d stomach + head....
~~,

i juz miss d old gud times -_-"
missed evrything bck in d past...

i noe dt im not alone...cz frens aways thr...
but...
i'am
LONELY insde....

YA ALLH,
show me d real path +
blessed me frm harm...

great!!!!!!

my presntation slide cannot b open!!!!!!

CORRUPTED!!!

darn!!!!!

have to re-do D SLIDES!!!!!

AIYOOO!!!!

so dem regret din presnt it earlier!!!!!!!

dang...dang...dang...bout nobody eeeee~~,

its an anthem from auburn..

lalalalalala~

son of d dark!!! =P

im goin to melaka....

ds comin 25th-26th february.....

haaaaa....

it's grup trip ok!!!!

LOL....

hopes evrytink goin to b juz fine....

and goes smoothly...

amin!!!!
(^-^)

makcik bulat haaaaa~ (^-^)

friends in neeD!!!

shud i yell...
o dey wil come...

ppl said...
true friends wil undrstnds
our silent...

i need dat nw....

i really need a shoulder
to cry on...
really need a hand to rub my back...
really need a friend to keep me warm....
really need smone to wipes my tears....

i juz cant...
its getin harder evryday....


im nt alone...
but im lonely....
im torn apart inside...

b in my shoes....
yess!!!!
i cn create smiles to others
but....
my heart begging 4 hepyness too....

sumtimes i bein rude to others...
im so really sorry....
im waiting outside d line...

juz b ready to b kick out at any time....

running away..wasnt d solution...
i juz need to b ready 4 any
crcumstnces....
n i pray 4 d strength to aways b w me...

too much pain dt i caused...
its srprised me so much...
(-_-)

yess...
its reminds n aways b in my "headline" dat
IM NO GUD!!!!

it wasnt n
its nt a call
juz a "warm rminder"
i tink....
i tink soo....

loves grew evryday in my heart...

juz im sory it's ds way....

at d end of d day..
i realised dat im notink
but an empty seat...

keep smiles all d way girl....
smiles...
smilessss....

i had enough....i tink...

well...i dunoe juz lately...
my heart really cant bear wth my emotions..
haaa....easily gt hurt...bodo kn..
but tahla...
im easily hurt apprently....

evrytink seems so wrong...
but things hppend kn....
i cant mke forcemnt for them
to b juz in my way,,,

im not alone...
but im lonely,..
inside....
d more often i laugh...
d more often i'll cry...

i aways wnted all to b in my way...
to b juz in my way...

naaaa~
im so stubborn...
all seems useless...

no matter wat i do...
wat i said....
everything..
all bout me...
seems useless....

(-_-")
(o-O)

d panda bck to d town....

iALLAH if gven chnces...
if ad rezeki....
i'll b leaving...heee.... ;)

wen i only have u.......

seems unchnged....
tings stil d same....
bt getin worst....

im d human w fragile heart...
easily hurt
even wth simple words....

yes im a coward....
scared of losing a "u"
i've face too many
hypocrite ppl....
all been covered of
d pretty looks,,,
innocent looks,,,
cute n smiley face.....

BUT!!!!
i can see more than that....
i noe i dn hve d rite in judging but....
i keep in nicely inside...
neve to trusts a'more......

i barely mad,,,,
barely shout o yell....
but imma crier.....
bg fans of it ;P

dats d only way i cn soothe myslf...
need a shoulder to cry on..
bt hve no one 4me...

toilet bowl..
shower room...
blnket....

but neve to let go...

i try to keep it as long as i could...
;)

smiles all t way....
im alright...juz ok...

im nt a heartless...
i hve d heart...
juz dunoe to mke use of its yet....

bt do blieves me wen i say I LOVE U....
it's from my heart...

but to u...u...n u....
dat tke me 4 grnted...
im nt a hllabck girl...
enough is enough....

wen i dcided to let go sumone o sumtink...
dats mean...
i do really gve up...
n no more trusts to put...

but if one day,,,
u really dun need me...
tel me..
i'll cmfrt my own heart....
i'll psuades its to leave....

i wont leave until d stuation o d person itself
really forced me to do so n mke me to
draw d enD!!!

listen to unspoken...

barely..barely...
hates wen it hs to b ds way...

i hate ds felink actually....
no more warm n friendly talks....

i noe its hard....
yep it does hurt...

but my weakness
my bad...

i dunoe hw to express my real felink...
my real thought...
my real care...

juz not me..
i dunoe....

all i keep inside...
nicely inside....

but i wont shout o yell it out..
juz let it be....

i only pray to HIM ;)
smiles =)

dun hve to say netink...
smiles all t way ;)

d housemates ;) tree steak house...february 14...

well....freak..freak...to d beat...

such a freak...
i cant focus...
haaaa....
i barely do things rite...
careless.....
clumsy....

d worst STUBBORN...
haaaa...

i easily piss off wen tings goes wrong...
i only wanted all to b happens just in my way...
imma freak...ergh...

freak...freaken..freakest...
watever...~~,
watever happend to me..
i blamed myself...
im nt blaming d others...

its just me..
myself n i....

HOMETOWN... ;)

music of my life....

i cant even hear my self.....
its empty inside....
people comes n go....
mybe i tried too hard...
d heart speeding...
i close my eyes....
raise my both hands up...
im nodded down...
i ask from HIM...

"But i know there's sunshine behind that rain, I know there's good times behind that pain Can you tell me how i can make a change? I close my eyes, and i can see a better day, I close my eyes and pray. "

can anyone guess whos' d singer? lalalala~~,

"You'll never make me leave I wear this on my sleeve Give me a reason to believe So give me all your poison And give me all your pills And give me all your hopeless thoughts That make me ill"

this another song...i listend to ds band since
i was in secondary skool...
my mom nt really like ds band bcause of their
musics arrngemnt...."memekak" dats wat she said =P
heee....(^_^)....here..my honey G *blushing* ngeeeee ;)
more time passes by...
im a bit grown up...but
mcr stil in my heart....
dey are d songs of my life....
i lstened to them evrytime im in pain...
dey like "undrstnding" me
d songs really in me... (^-^)
dun really care wat ppl gona say..

"Dear God, the only thing I ask of You Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed 'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again"

here is another song...
i col it dungun anthem ngeh3....
reasons?
a frens of mine..bltooth ds song to me...
n more it's soothe me evrytime i listend to ds song...
it's very soft n kinda healing d emo heee...


"You can count on me like one, two, three I'll be there and I know when I need it I can count on you like four, three, two And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep I'll sing a song beside you And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me Everyday I will remind you"

i tink u noe ds song blongs to whom rite.. ;)


n more other songs dat reminds me of sumone...

*bg girls dun cry by fergie.....
reminds me of sumone dat used to b in my heart in t past 5 yrs..
(^-^) in memory suda...


*hapus aku by nidji
reminds me of my sumone dat really touched my heart during dt time haaaa
n its oso rminds me d frst ever guy dt mke me cry ;(

*unintended bt muse
reminds me of my bff...haahaha...she gave me ds song as a lullaby LOL~

lots more songs dat in my heart...
*waka-waka~rminds me of her...hr fav alarm...
*single ladies~rminds me of him lalaalalalala
*poco-poco anthem~rminds me of my crazy bestie...

i do blieves dat evry humans bein on d earth hve their own
songs reminder....
a song dat can soothe our heart...
sumtimes there were some words o actions dat we cant o
dare to say it aloud o do it...
d songs lyrics might help...
anger..hate...loves..loneliness..alone...~~,
wtever ur emotions are...
dun let its tkes cntrol of ur body....
it might hurt n caused u trouble..
gastronominal attack...
crdiovscular attck...
nausea..diarrhea...
n lots more...
(i do some reading apprently due to my health heee)

d best tings to do is...
sit on d prayer mat n pray to HIM...
HE know wat's d best 4 us...
for u n me...
we cant keep on blaming d fate o cry over it...
ALMIGHTY ALLAH always noe wats bettr...


*************END************

moment to recall......je suis...

GRENADE bruno mars

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?


Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same
No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/grenade-lyrics-bruno-mars.html ]


I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby

But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same
No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no

xpreSSion heeee ;)

cute2...kawaiii... ;)

fuyooo,,,,dpt cuti!!! MC ^-^

i've been stnding infront of d clinic for 1/2 hour...
staring at d door for few times...

ergh...
imma freak huuuu....

i hate clinic + hospitals o anytinks
rlates to medic~~,

such a freak...
but at last...

i mnge to ovrcome t fear heee....
bt my heart was bout to pumping out hahahah =P

haaaa...while waiting 4 my turn...
i suddnly realize dat im all alone thre....
haaaa we used to b tghter evrywhre...

"well i tried to live wthout u...
the tear fall from my eyes....
i'm alone and i feel empty...
GOD.. im torn apart inside"

i hve to learn dis....
things chnged...
haaaa...im so not ready 4 ds bg chnged...

even it sucks..
iALLAH i'll keep it wth me..

bck to MC ting...heee....
alhmdulilah...notink srious...
notink to do wth death too ;)

all i need is to rest!!!
rest + rest....
need to cheer up...
smone cheer me ;)

i commit too many sins...
ds is how GOD punished me bck...
losing smone i loves....
...............

all i hopes juz u to b fine ;)
sory 4 hates me...
..................

handle wth care!!! im fragile...

speaks only nice things to me....

dun say harsh things to me....

dont scream o speaks loud to me...

dun cursed others infrnt me...

im nt belong to d harsh world...

those things scared me....

more~sad me.....

i feel uncmfrtable wth those type of ppl....

i juz cant mingle w them...

i'm in my own world....

i neve learn to curse o speaks harsh to others...

FRAGILE!!!!

i am....

halus je ;')

those harsh words go drectly to my heart....

it tkes time 4 me to let go....

i'll 4gves ppl...

easily 4gt....

but....

SCARs..remnds me...

sumtimes....

;)

it does hurt evrytime look at d scar....

but thre's slver lining bhind each them dat

kinda ease n mke me smiles smtimes....

keep on prayin to ALMIGHTY ALLAH s.w.t

for d best things in my life.... ;)

insyaALLAH...

ROUGE!!!!!

Red

For the ancient Romans, a red flag was a signal for battle.

Because of its visibility, stop signs, stoplights, brake lights, and fire equipment are all painted red.

The ancient Egyptians considered themselves a red race and painted their bodies with red dye for emphasis.

In Russia, red means beautiful. The Bolsheviks used a red flag as their symbol when they overthrew the tsar in 1917. That is howred became the color of communism.

In India, red is the symbol for a soldier.

In South Africa, red is the color of mourning.

It's considered good luck to tie a red bow on a new car.

In China, red is the color of good luck and is used as a holiday and wedding color. Chinese babies are given their names at ared-egg ceremony.

Superstitious people think red frightens the devil.

A “red-letter day” is one of special importance and good fortune.

In Greece, eggs are dyed red for good luck at Easter time.

To “paint the town red” is to celebrate.

Red is the color most commonly found in national flags.

In the English War of the Roses, red was the color of the House of Lancaster, which defeated the House of York, symbolized by the color white.

The “Redshirts” were the soldiers of the Italian leader Garibaldi, who unified modern Italy in the nineteenth century.

To “see red” is to be angry.

A “red herring” is a distraction, something that takes attention away from the real issue.

A “red eye” is an overnight airplane flight.

If a business is “in the red,” it is losing money.

ASTHMA

Asthma is an inflammatory disorder of the airways, which causes attacks of wheezing, shortness of breath, chest tightness, and coughing.

You can reduce asthma symptoms by avoiding known triggers and substances that irritate the airways.

• Cover bedding with "allergy-proof" casings to reduce exposure to dust mites.

• Remove carpets from bedrooms and vacuum regularly.

• Use only unscented detergents and cleaning materials in the home.

• Keep humidity levels low and fix leaks to reduce the growth of organisms such as mold.

• Keep the house clean and keep food in containers and out of bedrooms -- this helps reduce the possibility of cockroaches, which can trigger asthma attacks in some people.

• If a person is allergic to an animal that cannot be removed from the home, the animal should be kept out of the bedroom. Place filtering material over the heating outlets to trap animal dander.

• Eliminate tobacco smoke from the home. This is the single most important thing a family can do to help a child with asthma. Smoking outside the house is not enough. Family members and visitors who smoke outside carry smoke residue inside on their clothes and hair -- this can trigger asthma symptoms.

Persons with asthma should also avoid air pollution, industrial dusts, and other irritating fumes as much as possible.

las week my bff...

gt asthma attck....

i knew dats gona hppens since her cough gettin worst....

but im juz nt ready lookin at her sick face..

duhh its hurt me...

she gt my nerves dat time...

i tried act cool but innerly

my heart like pumping out!!!

darn!!i really dowan netink bad hppens to her...

she was so cool n rilex je...

haaaa...im d one yg xsenag duduk...

she said due to d water dat she drnk...

but i blieves there is other reasons...

dunoe whter is truth o not...

she've been too actives...

climb d stairs to class...

im nt lazy to climb w her

but ad reason y i rfused to do so,,,

dowan her to gt too exhausted...

stubborn!!!dat she is... (speaks bout myself too)

n more..

wat i noticed...

evrytime she hs done wth her training

she wil nt felink well....

ouh please...

just b fine n healthy...

u gt my nerves bout the attck dat day ;(

SAHABAT SEJATI MENURUT IMAM AL-GHAZALI

* JIKA ENGKAU BERBAKTI KEPADANYA, DIA AKAN MELINDUNGI KAMU

* JIKA ENGKAU MEMERLUKAN PERTOLONGAN NESCAYA DIA AKAN MEMBANTU KAMU

* JIKA ENGKAU MENGHULURKAN SESUATU KEBAIKAN KEPADANYA, NESCAYA DIA AKAN MENERIMANYA DENGAN BAIK

*JIKA ENGKAU RAPATKAN PERSAHABATAN DENGANNYA, NESCAYA DIA AKAN MEMBALAS BAIK PERSAHABATAN KAMU

*JIKA ENGKAU MERANCANGKAN SESUATU, NESCAYA DIA AKAN MEMBANTU KAMU

*JIKA DIA MELIHAT SESUATU YANG TIDAK BAIK DARIPADA KAMU, NESCAYA DIA AKAN MENUTUPNYA

*JIKA DIA MENDAPAT SESUATU KEBAIKAN DARI KAMU,DIA AKAN MENYEBUT ATAU MENGHARGAI KAMU

*JIKA ENGKAU MEMINTA BANTUAN DARINYA, DIA AKAN MENGUSAHAKANNYA

*JIKA ENGKAU BERDIAM DIRI (KERANA MALU HENDAK MEMINTA), DIA AKAN MENANYAKAN KESUSAHAN KAMU

*JIKA KAMU BERDUA BESELISIH FAHAM, NESCAYA DIA LEBIH SENANG MENGALAH UNTUK MENJAGA KEPENTINGAN PERSAHABATAN

*DIA MEMBANTUMU MENUNAIKAN TGGNGJAWAB SERTA MELARANG MELAKUKAN PERKARA BURUK DN MAKSIAT

* JIKA DATANG SESUATU BENCANA MENIMPA KAMU, DIA AKAN MERINGANKAN BEBANMU

*JIKA ENGKAU BERKATA KEPADANYA, NESCAYA DIA AKAN MEMBENARKAN KAMU

*DIA MENDORONGMU MENCAPAI KEJAYAAN DI DUNIA DAN AKHIRAT

IM LOKIN 4WARD TO FULFIL AL D CRITERIA....

INSYAALLAH ;)

DEAR frens....dun dstroyed our FRIENDSHIP!!!

1 do not smply insults

1 jgn lmparkan pghinaan

2 do not cut her/hs words

2 jgn mympuk apbila brckp

3 do not dstroyed her/his hpyness

3 jgn rosakkn kbhagiaannya

4 control ur anger well

4 kawal kmarahn dengan baik

5 do not dizz d personal stuffs/snstve issues

5 jgn cmpur urusan pribadi

6 DO NOT COMPARING!!!!

6 jagn buat perbandingan

7 do not brings up d past

7 jgn ungkit kisah lalu

8 do not laughs at ur frens

8 jgn ktawakan sahabat...

REMINDER!!!!

FRIENDSHIP IS AN EXPLOSIVE STUFF!!!

HNDLE WTH CARE + RESPECT...

PAMPER WTH TRUSTS N LOVES......

10 AMALAN PENGHAPUS DOSA......

EVRY HUMANs BEING
WIL NEVER GT ESCAPED FROM DOIN MSTAKES
N SINs.....
BUT IT WIL NEVER B LATE 4 REPENT....
ALMIGHTY ALLAH IS FULL WTH
FORGVNESS TO ALL HIS slaves.....
insyaALLAH.....


1,
MENYEMPURNAKAN WUDHUK DAN BERJALAN KE MASJID

2,
SOLAT TERAWIH DLM BULAN RAMADHAN

3,
BERTAUBAT

4,
KELUAR MENUNTUT ILMU

5,
MELAKUKAN AMAL KEBAJIKAN

6,
BERJIHAD PADA JALAN ALLAH
(amar makruf nahi mungkar)

7,
MEMBERI SALAM DAN BERKATA BAIK

8,
MEMPERBANYAKKN SOLAT

9,
SOLAT KETIKA WAKTU MALAM

10,
MENDIRIKAN SOLAT....

the time....

im sorry....

really sorry....

it was so sudden.....

im so not yet ready......

sorry...

i juz dunoe my heart....

u were so nice n kind..

u respect me as a woman...

we shared too many things...

n u aways thre wen i need an ears

i do like u.....

but as a friend.....

juz a friend...

at ds moment of truth....

im not ready 4 a rlationship....

im sory....

really mean it....

thnks 4 being so nice to me...

myb one day....

insyaALLAH i wil open my heart 4 u....

who knew....

but 4 nw....

i need my bff n fams more....

hops u understnd.....

i dn hates u....

i do like u....

juz its nt d time yet....

*loves sick*

keep that!!!!

Every relationship has its problems. But what makes it perfect is if you still wanna be together, when things really suck ♥

running out of words~speechless

RAINY DAYS~~.

d weather not so fine these days...

i've spent my 3 days in malacca......

visting my grndparents......

sumtink to do thre....

soon dey both gona leaves 4 UMRAH....

those pics blow showed me "busy-ing"

doin d task...ngeh3....



its not dat all....

then my frst nite in mlacca begin...

my mission....heeee.....

lokin for accmdation 4 my class trip soon....

d pic above....

haaaa....

went thre,,,,

OMG!!!!

sriusly....im kinda shocked wth dat place condtion...

i went thre wth my aunt 4 sure...

she's d drver...n more she noe n master bout mlacca routes heeee....

she said to me...

"u're so nt goin to suvive hre (refrrd to l'armada)

so i leave dat building....

hve to climb d stairs to meet d "sales person"

ergh,,,,

l'armada is a NO NO......~~

my mission cont....

we went surround jonker streets dat nite...

guess wat??!!!!

wearing d kenduri unifrm "bju kurung"

we went surround d area....

hahahaha....

bla3.....

im so tired.....

felin so restless....

2nd day...

went to my aunt house plak...

then went to my uncle place....

here n thre....

im soooo restless....

day3.....

haaaa...

wokeup early moning....

went to a place wth my atok + nenek....

duh....

later....went to mITC....WNDERLAND...

bla..bla..bla....

jnker streets....MP....DP.....

huh.....

im so sicks....

so dem tired....~~

then at nite.....

rushing back to KL....~~~

haaaa....~~

very d very penat ok.....

4gt to tel dat on day3....

i met iznur.ija n kelly.....

heeee....

rturned their repot....

gomen2.. ;)

those pics below....were taken during my mlacca trip wth d sibs heee

thnks to my lil sis apek....

4 bein so dem patient wth me....hahahaha

n thnks 4 bein my driver these 3 days heee....