RANDOM,,,,,

orite....im an aduLT....

ouhhhh.....
28th of june 2010.....

im an adult nw.....
ALHAMDULILAH...
hops i can b more matured afte dis...
juz wana b hepy...

hops all d ngatves elemnts
fades away from my life
i noe life's tooo short 4 it...
hates?grudge?
let them go
buried them....

erghhh...
i juz wana b hepy wth all...
please...
in btween....
hate it...so really dmn hte it...

Lets 4gve n 4get.....

i noe its hard to 4get...
bt learn to 4gve....
ermm...
wteve....
b hepy all of u k ;)

28th of june 1989~~~

hepy bufday to meeeeee ;)

im bg girl

*sigh*
i am big ehehehehe.....
LOL....
ok wel dis is nt my real point hre...
juz to hglight hre dat
wat huh?
wuteve....

at one time ur fine
then ur not...
wth...
tel me wats hppning?

im thnking bout my regstrstion
on 2nd july 2010...
shud i asks my parent to send me?
o shud i go by my own...
buses o ktm...
im used wth d publc trnsport..
i'll think bout it la...

my bff said go by ktm je...
orite,,,,
my another fren cant apply offday plak...

im a degree student...
shud i stil dpnds on my parent...
ds is shah alam...
nt dngun ermm...
more my lil sisters skola
my dad sent pck up them...

myb i go by ktm laaaa.....
ermmm...
anyone willing to teman hehe....

o orite...
d house o room to rent stil xsttle....
ermmmm thnking...
~~
i dowan to shre wth stngers...
is enough wth my bff je...

i dowan hypocrite prson to join us...
i dowannn.....
ouh...
im over paranoid =P

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je deteste......

wel i gt ds unwell thought...

ermm...

dunoe la y...

bt i tink im goin to b a bitch soOn....

im sicks of being nice to others....

grrrr..

im piss off

bt i cant yell it out..

i hate me...

aways say im ok...

but actually..

IM NOT!!!!!

no one's really care pon...

erghhh...

sicks of being me...

uruseiii!!!!!

je deteste moi...

@#$%^&*&&%

peace ouT!!!

im waitin...
sriously....too many things to b sttle
in one short time
WAT D FISHHH!!!!
emmm...

so dmn misery....
adess...~~

feeLInk....

ALHAMDULILAH....
i pass my plea....
SARJANA MUDA SAINS(KEPUJIAN) PENGURUSAN HOTEL.....

i gt cmpus B...
which mean SHAH ALAM....

with my bff.....
bt not all of them la...
bt dis time
i'll b close bck wth my fams...

hops i'll be doin juz fine n gud thre....
insyaALLAH......

ok bck to delifrance....
i aredy submtted my resgn letter...
n dey said my slary wil b cut off
for a weeks...
ermmm
pasrah je la...

hah...
now hve to find rent house/room...
since hostel dnt provided...
adoi...
all is now bout money...

duhhh....

THINGS NEVE CHNGED!!!

no matter wat goin to b hppn nex..
i hve to gt ready...
distnce wil apart us...
bt not in my heart....
siyesly i loves all my frens...

its not my reason to escape
i gt my own reasons y...

i've made up my mind...
i dd t plea stuffs...
n i applied 4 cme bck to DNGUN...

deep insde ...
i upset....cuz thre wll no more
study life wth her...

bt i juz dowan to b selfish...
i noe she wanted s.alam so bad....
n more she wana b closed wth her fams ;)
she hve lots frens thre...
so ds is d times 4 hr to b hepy
n enjoy hr life thre..
*hoping*

siyesly...
i feel not rite..
bt i dunoe...

i really wan dngun bck...
i cant really adapt nw place..
im freak...
i hate chnges...

one of my bff said...
she wana b sucessful women...
n exprienced chnged her....
s long she noe d bats2 nemind la...
i jux rminds her...

back to d stuffs.....
siyesly im sad too...
cuz goin to b apart...
we've been closed for omos 2 yrs....
huhu....
i juz hopes dat she goin to b fine thre....
hops dat smone wll aways rminds her bout her
"pstol"
tc of her wen she sicks...
study wth her...
listens to her...
talks wth her...
bright her day...
really hops she goin to b juz fine ;)

naaaaa.....
im mourning nw.....
but i'll try to b kewl...

hehe....
im losing my grip....

out of line..weeeeuhhh.....

anyone..otthre...
b my man?
support my study haha..
o myb PTPTN again....

living wth hutang all around....
hehe....

YA ALLAH...
please....
bless our fenships til d end of my breathe,,,

~~~

$#!+

bla.bla.bla...
im sory 4 d harsh title...

dats al wat i can say,,,
three day passsed
d pain stil here...

i dunoe...
juz i cant accept it...

wth!!!!

my cgpa was gud....
pass....

n i noe i dserved a place.....

im getin tired wth wokin life....
i wana study...

but wen d result cm out....
ouh!!!SNAP!!!!

tears all over me....
im saD...
totally dpressed!!!

even a 4flt student
dint get d ofer...
wth!!!
i dunoe wat ssytem dey're usin....
o dey juz random pick

snap!!!!!
hate it!!!
at ds momnt i really wana study....

i dserved a place...
i cant accpt d result!!!

erghhh!!!!!
im saD!!!!
deeply said....

watttttt???

hermmm...
my 2nd days
cryin depan lappy...
wel im juz sad n stil shcked....
i dunoe whre my mstake...
y i dn get it?

fb...
all d felllows keep wshin
cngrats n wat so eva....

i did said pviously dat i dowan to cont...
but....
i stil hoping dat i'll get d offer....
but nil...
wel im juz....
pathetic.....

las day...
cryin alone at borders TS...
mybe dey think im nuts...
soo wat...
im sad.....
juz sad....

leave me.....
i read a book...
"I AM MUSLIM"
i dun really care bout d content
juz opened it n act lke
im reading it...
sory..
wet d pages wth tears...
malu3....
huh....

bt xsalah kn.....
im a girl....
so ppl wont really care if
seiing a grl cryin in public ;P

bla..bla..
tot of leavin by monorel....
but i stop thre about 1hr tex-ing my dude...
then....
i walked to BB takin bus frm thre je....

ermmm.....
home...
sleeP.....
sad.......
pathetic i am.......

FOR REaLLLLL!!!

less than a week je....
i gt anther surprsed....
yup...
im shocked!!!!!

fin~~~

CLUELESSSSS......

ouh...crap....
nw d hot topic....
ermmmm
CONTINUING DEGREE???
all keep askin d sme que to me...
bla bla bla.....

to join d indstry....
hve to stat frm bottm...
erghhhh.....
dats mean..
a degree o diploma holder...
ermmm...~~

in ds indstry....
xperience is power...

huhu...
how a?
4 nw...
at ds moment...
i really wana work n gain money.....
ermmm....

guys tlong think???
hahaha~~~

if i cont wokin....
i wil nt gt my cuti raye....
ouhhh.....
my mom n dad knfm wll b mad
totally....
arghhh...

ape mcm ni?
(my grndpa fvorite quote)
hahaha.....

if given chnces.....

i wish i cn turn back time....

ouh i wish i can...

really wish for dat.....

my life would b much btter...

*sigh*

i luv my bff....

she aways there 4 me...

thnks a lots....

bloody tired wokin s a server....

fufu....

thnking of quitting...

in mean time im trying

searching 4 bettr opprtunities otthre....

jobsstreets....

really dun hve d heart to study ....

bt i do miss student life so dmn much...

miss all d frens instead ....

bt people keep telin me...

in ds indstry...

hosptality....

experience is power...

wel....

i dunoe la....

hops i can btahan in ds indstry la...

tiring...

feelin lke i hve no life...

syukur im nt married yet....

if not...

haha...

bt my tiredness faded away wen

my bff wth me...

life is soooooooo soooooo la.....

mis our old gud times...

lepaking al tghther....

hah....

wokin....

penattttlaaaaaa.....

bt no pain no gain....

i wan my lappy so damn bad......

..............

~off to work~

listens......

erm...
dis is life....
dun tel me lies o dun try
to cmfort me by telling lies....
b honest to me...
dun act like ur prfect...
i hate it....
i heard too many things....
juz wana hear d real one
from u...
bt u neve tel me....

u aways wth ur innocent looks dear..
ouhhh...
ur looks blind me...
i dn see ur throughly....
ur base over evrtyink....

u owe me a story...
a long xplanation....
i'll wait....
hops i hve d strngth
for dat day la....

server life.....

tiring.....
so really tired..
stnding n wlkin here n thre....
erm talking wt guests....
(hypo)
im nt a frenly pson...

=.="
wuteva it is...
it's a job...
have tooooo....

faced mcm2 prangai guests...
nice....
fussy....
gatal....
gedik....
wth!!!!

i miss to lepak2...
bt hve to work...
penatt...

i wana cllect money...
tke license....
=D
iALLAH....

uruseiii!!!

mmmm done wth it!!!
my final sem....
erm...
jz nice....
PASS!!!!!

ok....~~~
-.-'
notink much wana say...
juz "thnks' to d panel......

orite....
wokin...
im bloody tired....
so damn bz...
wen all d d guestts sddnly ambush
huh...
evryone
wana curse...

n i dd it fw times too....
sory...juz
sumtimes
i cant stand wth too fussy guests...
ouh...
feel lke slapin n kick their ass
tros...
grrrr...

my ksabarn gettin nipis plakkk...
ermm...
sumtimes wana cry gak...
bt i hve to b strong...
siyesly...
afta dat 10th june...
my felink 4 degree seems
like faded away....

wokin =earn money....
malu3....
at ds age stil ask money from parent...
(hve tooooo =P)

more i go to work pon..
only bring d fare je...
for rapid n mnorel...
i dn eat at wrkplace........

huh...~~~

atok, gettin shat la...
bt nyanyok bese la....
olguy kan....~~~
bt he's funnny....
like an old baby....
at least he's d reason
for me to laugh....
it ease me...
bloody tired wokin
wen cme home
see hs tlatah....
im hepy =D

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rougeP freakin bad...

am i ??
ermmm...
am i chnged??
huh...
thnking....

wat i wana be....
grrr...
i cant mke up my mind...
at all...

wokin...
server...
penatttt....
walkin ->bs stnd -> tke mnorel.....
weeeeuhhh....
feel lke im a school kids...
evryday ask for tambng from
my mom hehe...
malu3.... =P

work under pressure....
hve to besekan la...
ermmm....
tryin...will do...

half an hour break??
surau,solat...

i spare mentos in my pocket...
so dat i wont b too hungry...
hehe....

arghh....
siyesly...
miss to lepak-ing wth kwn2....
emmm....
miss "u" tooo...

hehe...

my atok...
ermm...nw he can walks
n can sit....alhmdulilah....
he's getin bttr....
=D

~out~

bonjour.....bienvenue de delifrance....au revoir..

fufufu.....
im a part of delifrance nw....
sg wang...
so demn bz....
tired of stnding n walkng here n thre...
melecet kaki...

huhu~~
ermmm....
manager...
my frst day i met Kak GEE....
frst imprssion...grangnyerrr....
aftr slow talk wth her..
pass!!!
she's ok...

d other one...
nmed nana....
erghh....
kinda gngster....
yup!!!

i hve to gt used wth
'languages' dat dey used....
ermmm im nt soo into laa...
bt i'll try...
kak GEE said...

try adapt delifrnce culture...
iALLAH....

ermm....
bt im thnking gak..til wen wana jdi server...
penat...

i noe...wokin kn...mzty penat....
bt ds is nt wat i really wan...
i hate seving~~
im a freak...
tkot nk srve hots bverages....
hehe....
n more..i hate being frenly...
n smiling all day....
im a freak.....

~i dont want to miss a thing~

bt i hve to....
at least im earning sumtink kan....
hehe
btter than notink...
=)

bt i hates d part wen all buzy
n mgr starts using harsh words....
i jz dn like it...
ermmm....
myb in fture i'll gt used kot...
bt i juz dn like it!!!


~out mndi~

lost~~

dunoe...
lately....
i cant cntrol my emo....
gettin stressed....
erghhh....

tmrw stat wokin....
hops evrytink gona b jz fine....
i'll b gud ds time...
wont runaway...
(iALLAH)

thnks along...
soon i'll pay u bck
wen i gt my gaji heee....

my lil sisters
is on schol olidae nw...
dey wnted me to brng them
4 mv...
sory...
kak in hve to work....
so sory...

nx time;)
o wait til ANgah plak cuti k...

ermm...
wokin alone...
i hve to b strong n brave....
iALLAH =)

n more kn...
ds 10th june....
result wl b announcd.....
fufufu....

='(
hops wil gt d ltter LULUS laaa....
amin;)

its like S***............

wen u facing ur hard times....
u aways hops
sumone wil lstens to ur tears....
n b thre by ur side.....

ppl....
stop jdgig me.....
i hate it so freakin bad!!!!!
dun judge me.....
if u dun really noe me....
WTH!!!

i am me...
my fams is my prior....
no doubt!!!!

wteve.....
i said sory.....
stop cndmning me...
who r u?
to jdge me.....

me either dun really noe my self.....
y u act like u really noe me....
bck off!!!!
i dn need u.....

hell no!!
thnks...
ur exstence in my life is a mstakes...

dats y..
i aways said to my sef dat....
i love my fams n my besties...

dey mke me hepy...
dey ease my day....

ur num is dleted!!!!
i try to gves respects....
bt useless....
fine...

no more........

i hate him!!!!!!

i had enough wth hs attitude.....
dmn it...
he's rude....
soooo dsrespectful.....
he's insane....
he's totally out of hs mind,,,,
wat's on earth is he thnking....
hw can he b rude to hs own sibs....
YA ALLAH.....

i really had enough wth him....
i've tried to chnge him
failed....
my mom n dad....
toooo....

he only thinks bout hs own sake..
hs frens n hs gf....
i hate himmmm so much now...
he mke my mom cried.....
i dowan hm as my bro....
NO!!!!!

only if i hve t strngth....
i really wana slam hs face....
bt i noe....
he's much tougher...
he omos slap my sis....
thnk God....
i was thre....
i push my sis aside....

he rude to my mom....
he was possesed by sumtink i think...
my dad nt around...
so do my along....

i tex to my along...
ask hm to cme home....
he's wokin sumwhre at hulu s'ngor i guess....
while on t phone wth my along
i omos cry....
i can see my mom face...
her sad look...

he was influenced by hs peers n rascals frens....
he used to b very obedient boy....
nve leave solat...
bt now....
he's totally chnged...
me either dunoe hm a'more...

i hve no lil bro...
he rude to my mom n my dad...
i'll neve b soft to hm...
no more...
enough is enough...

i pomise....
if he hits any of my sibs...
o b rude again wth my parents...
i wont thnk twice to fght back!!!
no one cn hurts my sibs n my parent....
including HIM!!!

he'll b sory!!!
i wont care bout him a'more....

deep inside my heart
really wan him to chnge....

all i ever wanted~~

a song by kelly clarkson hee~~
ds monday 7th june 2010...
new life's begin at DElifrance sg wang....
weeeuhh~~

its been a while jugak la...
im nt wokin....
ermmm.....
back to serving~~
LOL.....
i hate seving huhu~~
bt wateve it is kn...
i hae too....

cuz my own mstakes....
i escaped from pgkor....
n oso i dn attend d interbiu
at jln gurney...
ermm...
regretting no use a'more....

so i hve to face d present....
wat it is...not wat was~~
ermm....

sg wang....
server....
lorh...guys as u noe me kan...
im not a frenly prson...
n im not a 'smiles'
heee....

more kan....
im getin neves wen heard bout
my bff said bout
d mnger....so poyo...
wah....
cmne...
erkkk...
n more....
lots of guys there....

wel mybe im over paranoid kot...
hops gona b fine...
ds is my only chnces to heps out my fams
go go rougeP...

so degree...
hve to b extend laaa~~

iALLAH....
in fture i'll cont =)

huahahaha~~

ouh i wish my purse has unlimited cash **

hehe....

ermmm...

im hired...

ds time at dlifrnce sg wang...

basic 4oo wth 2 svce poin....

ouh..

sg wang....

my "walking life" begin soon..

u33...a.panas rapid...

wont stop o go nearby sg wang...

so i hve to walk to gntg klang...

tke bus frm thre drect to sg wang....

bus fare...costs RM4 kot la pegy balik...

then from gntg klang...

walking bck home.....

hve to cntact my along..

to bnk in sum money...

if ma tau 4 sure kne pncung huhu~~

sory la long...

hve tooo...

snce u hve no gf nk tggung..

so p salhnye tggung adik sndri hihihi =P

sory so strong~~~

n hops i can stnd working s a server~~

hee~

ouh ok nw i gt it!!!

evrytink seems so clear to me nw...
ermmm..
kinda cn read the reasons ~~
lalalala~~
im a statue....
gt no felink kot....
wutsoeva...ermmm....
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im so useless

wel gt notink to do...
feel lke im useless...
im useless nw..
erkkk~~
jobless n useless.....
sory mom....
sory ayah..

n more my lappy...
again icu....
ds time my nurse tlg jge....
hops bley rcover heee~~
so much mmories dlm tu....
lots of pics.....

nw on9 using my sis ntbook jela...
its too lttle tiny aiyooo....
fenink2...~~
bt sokayla..
bttr than notink kan =)

huhu~~
lalalalalalala~~~

my grndpa getin bttr...
Alhamdulilah....

bt he's funny la....
heee~~
jaht kn glakkn orh sakit;P
bt i bet if u guys
here wth me...
korg pon glak jugak~~
hehe~~

my nurse ad induksi...
sumwhre at sg buloh la kot...
she said
t jupe her x-bf kt sne...
all d besh laaaa~~~hehe

apek on sem breaks nw..
fr 3weeks je....
i hve my drver nw hehe~~

my bff said....
nty lsen nek hrge
btter amek cepat...
cett...
only if i hve d money~~~
i told her xpe...
its fine if u j ad lsen....
we stil cn go jln tgther2
she said tggu kete kua haha~~
ain..
i'll count on ur words hehe

ok....
nw wat...
bout my prvious post kn...
we're fine nw...
ALHAMDULILAH....

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