need fren...

sumone is trustworth
dat can cut aways my tears
dat can creates laugh on me
dat do really care bout me
dat can share stories n listens to my
dat aways mke me cmfrtable
dat noe how to read me
dat accpt me d way i am
dat can rite me from wrong
dat can b honest wth me
dat i can hopes for
dat aways treat me nice
dat is not hypocrite
dat is not show off
dat is humble
dat can really b my enemy at a time
dat can hugs me wen im sad
dat can calm me wen im nves
dat can laugh n cry wth me...

wel dats enough kot...
im too demanding....
maybe i hve to rite maself frst
:)

OVERCOME my fear

wel dis myb sounds weird
but snce i was kiddo huhu
i dun really like hospy...
i hates it...
really....snce my chin kene jahit
i pomis to maself dat im not comin back
to hospy no matter wat huhu..
alrite...
franly speakin i am a coward :P
sriously..
bt today wat goin on wth me
i dunnoe but
i mnged to ovrcme my fear
i wen to hospy hehe...
queing.waitin,all alone....
haha...
frstly really wana go home...
cuz stution thre crowded wth ppl
really scared me huhu
wat eve d results is
im juz fine...
hehe :)
alhamdulilah....notink srious...
soonn i came out from dat hospy
im drects to 7e for a drinks...
snce d weather too hots
yeah my fveret haha..
but surely bought d mineral water too..
actc d doc askin whter i need mc o wt eve
'YES REALLY WANTS IT'
but i aready bought d tckets...
so thanks huhu
later tex ain...
she stil facin sme issues wth her h.mates..
dis weeknd she's goin to JB...
thought of goin meet her but again failed..
she said 'c u in my dream'
haha...

Laughter is d bes mdcine

dun u tink so? erm...actually it's all bout our own self rite... ok... back to bsness (poyo bsnes pe tah:P) my olidae begin sucks... view my old post... actually dun really hve d mood of outing o lepaking out.. then tika sent mssge for a muvee erm juz like ok..i'll go... told mom bout dat she gve d prmission :) thnks mom.. i took quite a moment to gt ready herm suddnly d worriedness srround.. H1N1?d weather? hell dn gve a damn :P took a rapid to Star LRT.... a guy thre try to flirt but sory i din hear any of ur words cuz im wth my MP3 but thanks 4 d smiles :) eeeeeeeee STOP IT!!! met tika then walks to TS... can see her bored face waitin fo me haha sory... 7E wTHdraw some money.. n surely lookng 4 my fveret drinks haha nt to mntioned hre :P d pics blow juz to shre d latest RM 50 hehe..wel its not d exactly amnt i brgng out frm d machine hehe... later moves to finds D-san... jux tex him said goin to meet at 3rd floor... i wen to KRU frst... so much memories kot :') left d sfety shoes 4 abg snchan hugs n kisses wth k.elly n juz waving to abg epul cuz he's busy takin order dat time...

GSC.... 3 of us jz standin thre n laugh hehe dunnoe whch muvee to choose :P erm afta quite a moment here d tckets ICE AGE3... till today i dun really noe hw to buys d tckets :P (shame..shame..) act.im not into crtoon but juz gve a try kn...

Eating LUNch... Snce its stil early so lets go get sumtink to eat.. hehe...im eatin kuewtiaw wut so eva la its nme tika eatin blck pper rice D-san eatin chick.rce our drinks? not to mntioned again for sfety reason haha:P


ok amost d time 4 muvees... met along at KRU.. gRabbed his blund tgehter for muvee haha ICE AGE3.... erm totally out of mind la... so damn funny... laughing all d time myb i was too xcited cuz its been a while din get d mood to laugh... bt my two frens thre juz rilek je... c'mon guys soo funny la... freezng cold..frgot to brng d sweater grrrr.. d peaches soooo kiut :)

nw back in KRU...
lepaking thre...
n eatin 4 sure :)
mis d kari so much so i've ordered
'LAKSA KARI'
hehe..k.elly rfused at frst
yela along Pon sme
bt at last i got it :D
my two frens dowan to eats
they juz eat cendol
mis d cendol too

then wen to LOWYAT...
maxs cntre n later go looking for my lappy
cooler pad..haha
poor D-san hve to carry our begs hehe..
arigatoo ne...
later we sprates...
D-san wen to home by pUTra LRT..
me WTh tika by star...
so not leaving her alone hehe
b4 dat went to return n gves sumtink to along
n ja ne along :)
walks to Star tgethr...
d memories return...
feel lke im walkin home from work
ok..ok..things chnged haha...
whle on d train
my bsfren tex reminds bout h1n1 ting
aiyakkk...
huhu...
ok farewell time hug n kisses wth tika...
she wen to tke KTM home
im direct to TTwangsa
goin home wth rapid...
wat an exhausted day..but hvin so much fun la...
THANKS TO...
tika
D-san
Along
K.elly
Pk din
aBG shah
abg amir
abg lan(thnks 4 d beg ye :P)
kak sari
n oso
all d ICE AGE3 chrcters haha....
but i stil feel a bit empty sumtink
is missing...
but cant fgure it out maself..
erm i was like macam
haha
wateve..
chow!!!

faces..

turn back time haha (i wish)

hell not goin to hppens rite....
wat is past is aready bcame hstory...
but hstory affects my life..
n most of them changed me...
even not totally but i did feel
d changed hehe
act. dis olidae i dun really hve d idea of
posting new post ...
well lack of idea i guess...
juz dis olidae mke me wondering too much...
aiyaa....
need some excitement...
but it wasnt necessary at all
cuz i got my lappy nw...
my lappy my bsfren nw
snce i left my strwberry diary at dungun...
frens?
all been busy dis olidae...
along?works....
tika?family stuffs
ain?exam madness hehe
bam?bf myb...
angah?she kept silent once reached home
manje?busy auntie hoho

thought of goin out lepaking
like i used to do...
i dun mind to go out alone juz..
stil fnding my real mood la...
nw im facing my moody time
so let me stay at home je
btter for me rather than wasting my times
outthre doin notin hehe..
bt really mis d white coffee at kopitiam C.M
i'll go visits soon hehe :P
ain said goin to skips klas..but i
stopped her frm doin dat snce
her exam jz around d corner rite
ain dun b noty ye...

stil tinking bout dsgning d banner haha..
out of idea la..
stil waitin 4 julya-chan to say yes
hopes to b success soon...

turn back time please hehe :)

WISH DAT CAN TURN BACK TIMES....
here are some of my hepy moments...
s.alam trip
13-15 march 2009
in memory..here, i learnt
about frenship,patient n cares.
during mise-en-place
for ESN nite...
hehe

some hepy moment..

MY H1N1 OLIDAE...

wel dun really feel d olidae la...
comin back to KL wth bam n zul...
n oso wth zana n liza...
we're in d same bus haha...
a day b4 leave dungun..damn
caught a fever...afta comin back from KT...
my body was so damn hot n did vomit
really dstroyed my plan of packing up...
so i was juz slepink d whole nite...
then tika sent me a mssage tellin dat she's sory
cuz xsmpat jumpa hehe...
she said 'xsmp ati nk wke me up'
sokay tika...
at d bus stand met ami,pp,khai,sara,bio-nab,shah,
aiyoo too many la...
reached KL...col my mom then she said
ayah kat surau plak...
n my mom said balik sndri cuz jammed...
damn dowan2...
i bring one luggage kot..hell no im goin to go home by rapid
haha...
then i told mom dat im taking star LRT til ttwangsa
n asked dad to pick me from thre...
yes mom said ok..
now im at home aready...

my mood nt so really ok..
snce one of my 6 bestie suddenly kept silent...
yeah silence is easy but it does hurt cuz
i only hve 6 of them
n if anytink happened to them
im so not forgving maself...
i xprienced twice bfore...
losing my own bsfren... n i took
quite a moment 4 recovering..
damn dowan dat to b happens again...
loves my frens damn much...
b gud to them o u guys will faces d bad side of me...
i mean it...

its been two days
snce i reached KL...
ma life now only in my room..
wth my lappy n oso my bed..
mom did realized dat i've locked maself in room
but mom dun wory...
even my lil ssters..
kak in xmarh la...
sory 4 brings poblem home...
haha..
i'll finds my spirits back to recover...

SORRY FOR BEING ME

beautiful LENKA ...

u guys ever heard d latest song by LENKA?
im really into her songs entitled 'TROUBLE IS a FRIENDS'

'trouble he will find u no matter whre u go o..oh..
no matter if u fast,no matter if u slow o..oh..
the eye of d storm or the cry in the morn o..oh
you're fine for a while but u starts to lose control...'
he's thre in d dark
he's thre in my heart
he waits in the wings
he's gotta play a part
trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mine...

thanks to bam for gving me dis song ya..
its a nice song dear...

show me d meaning....

wen we sad but we hold d tears from falls
wen we mad but we cntrol our anger
wen we really wanna shout but kept silent
wen we need sumone to shre but we forgot
dat we dun hve any trustworth prson..
wen we wan our besfren to hugs to calm ourself
but only d blanket hugged our body
wen we need sumone to b our listener
but there is no one sncerely willing.
wen we need sumtink to cheer up but
tears accmpany us....
wen we try hard to understand others but
they far from ourself
wen we try to b close but they put a gap
wen we aways thinks bout others but we forgot bout ourself
wen we trying to creates smiles for others but
deep inside we're crying
wen we hopes dat ebrytink going to b fine but
its not goin to b fine...
wen we hopes others to gve us a hand but they let us drowning
wen we did gve our damn bes to satssfy othrs but they keep
on condemn us...
it is d time for us to bcomes

Mr/ms FAKING

p/s:juz for fun...

MODEL WANNABE!!!

hey guys check dis out...
wen hazami got notink else to do..
he's acting like a model...
credit given to manje for her red bag :P

H1N1 holidae!!!!! 24th july-1st August

aready been cnfirmed bout dis
h1n1 holidae...
afta penang n perak nw
dis virus nw hre in Dungun...
yeah dis is so accdentally happened
wen im in my bad condition...
really need to rest my self
afta got stressed too much..
bout d event surely...
n bout some ppl outhre...
it's a pleased for me cuz
dun hve to faces them for dis
comin 10 days ahead...
dowan to be mean...juz.....

GUYS OUTHRE..
SPENT UR HOLIDAE WISELY OK...
DO TKE GUD CRE OF URSELF....
:)

my board!!!

hehe...
dis is only i can do
for my board for my final year...
dun feel like drawing o'decorates
any others stuffs...
its enough kot...
wth my bg doraemon pics...
my pics...
my fav.actor n oso
pics of my parents... :)

some pics to shre...

tiredness

been so busy lately...
ermmm last day went again to setiu
ds time met wth d bg bos tn hji din...
and oso few of d felda slasih residents...
notink much i can say hre...
ebrytink..so far so gud
ALHAMDULILAH...
did met d lect,she juz said ok..
n right few mstkes in d poposal..
sokay...part of learning rite :P

3g wth my sis echa..aiyoo
miss so much...
all my frens like
'hey ain wanna talk to ur sister'hehe
dey r funny...
later hve a cnversation wth my mom..
again d stuation in d car
bcame crazy...
they like calling 'mkcik,mkcik'
my mom heard d voices of d guys...
bt i xplained to her dat im not alone :)
she was juz fnished doin solat hajat..
she told dat my grndparents are now in KL..
she was askin
am i nt comin back to KL?
ermm no ma,
not yet...cuz lots of assgnment
n stuffs to sttle hre...
hung up later cuz she's goin to
eat dinner :)
heard my ma voices kind of release la...
i noe she's ok n ebrytink goes fine
at home:')
loves my ma so much....

reached uitm amost 11pm...
wargh too exhausted...
tke a bath n sleep..
nt really sleep la..
stay up 4 a while
for editing tentative progrm...
afta dat only lying on my bed
wth all d blue creatures hehe...
d axe oilment n vicks is nex to me..
again d headache came...
myb too tired...
drink up 100+ then listen to
mp3... :)

... found them here in DUNGUN

begging for forgveness..

dear '-----'
so really sorry for dat
incident....
din mean to do it..
hve no idea
how precious dat bangle to u
juz wan u to noe dat
im really sorry..
again im d cause of ur tears..
sorry 4 being so mean to u...
its hurt me too la
wen see u crying...
sorry...
gomen ne...
je suis desole....

dis is me....

woke up quite late....
tehn while in d shower
suddenly hve d thought of goin out...
hehe..
so afta takin bath...
go gurl c'mon..
i juz get ready then go out ALONE!!!
b4 dat go to washed my cloths frst
using machine 4 sure :P
then went to ATM to bring out some
money hehe..
im getting used going out alone...
but my mp3 must b wth me...
cuz dowan to hears strangers voices hehe..
go to DUNGUN by kunyit,it's took quite
a moment for d kunyit to b full...
as i walks alone in DUNGUN town
i wondering....
am i goin to b all alone....
then suddenly dis words across my mind
'LIKE I CARE'
hehe cuz i like to b alone...
its juz me n myself...
dats mean im free to go anywhre i like...
but smtimes do feel
quite lonely...
oh GOD i love my frens so damn much...
please dun tke them from me...
i pomis to b nice to them but...
i aways hurt them in d way
dat i din realize..SORRY IM NOTY!!

i walks around dungun walk...
frst place to go
is Pstaka Sri intan...
views some books thre n newspaper oso...
stil waitin for KAOURU latest comics...
then moves to Smart CC hunting for gifts
actually but...notink caught my eyes...
borink...
later go to SWEDEN...
bought some breads...
thought of buying nescafe but
cancelled it...
afta dat goin to ten-ten...
i bought one big doraemon sticker..
so kiut la...
then snaps few pics of doraemon water bottle..
thought of buying d bottle but
it's too small la..quite a waste la...
then moves to aneka...
juz go surround then walk away...
notink intrest me..
then went into mydin...
ermmm hre...
a guys try to hve cnverstion wth me..
bt i juz ignore him...
hell no,im not talking wth strngers
sorry...
finally end of journey...
took bus back to uitm...

a day in K.T hunting for sponsors...

went thre by viva...zul d driver hehe..another car is drove by hazami....










see dis pics both... how hepy are they wth d durians hehe... c'mon ami u can do it...juz break d durian hehe...






















see,d view of stadium sultan zainal abidin k.T....nex one is d beatiful views of FELDA SELASIH setiu Terengganu..

bout d sponsorship
we did tried our best
juz wait for they to approves
hopes dat our grup event will success...
dis sunday have to faced d lecturer alone..
snce d project mnager nw in KL wth others
exco...
juz left me d vice prjct mnager here in DUNGUN
sooo by hook o crook stil hve to meet her..
hopes dat ebrytink goin to b juz fine...
i'll defends our grup project..
guys juz wish me luck hehe

some pics to share with...

wat can i say dis pic looked like we're goin for a trip rite..
geng bas skola:Pdis pics at K.T wth jenny
again at K.T dis time wth apai n jenny...
front of d DUNGUN watson...
wth manje and bam...
two 'sblings' hehe...
manje n am....

wat's on earth im thinking....

lots to say here... but snce my blog no longer owned its privacy..i really have to be careful n more cautious in my every post in future hehe :P.... thought ebrytink going to b juz fine... aiyooo... too much tense la.. wel it's juz d beginning... hve to face it till d enD... bout event subject.. our grup have dcided to organize a team building smewhre in terengganu... ermm quite tensed la... spcially bout d budget... really die hard to finds d sponsor hopes dat we b able to orgnze dat event sucessfully wargh really wooried bout d budget.. hopes dat we mange to gets as much spnsors as we could... bcame d vice precdent 4 d event... really hard... try to fit urself in my shoes... erm... i do admits dat sumtimes i do taking too sriously bout dis tink.. n sumtimes too emotional in handling d stuation guys im sory.. i juz wan d best for our projct.. hopes dat we can unites till d event done... fren.. they're juz fine... juz ok... notink much can say bout them cuz most of my time i've spent in my room.. so juz meet them while in d class..erm sumtimes did talks wth them but our cnvrsation juz for fun tings..ermmm i did feel dat im being too emotionally in dis frenship matter
manje,she aways asked me to learn how to b hypocrite..
dunnoe la,,,myb others realized bout dis but truth is i really dunnoe hw im gonna mke it back wth'....' i really need to learn hw to hide my emotion n oso need to b more secretive maybe....