hadoiiii

its time 4 class..

class n class

n class (^^~)

beautiful mess

im wrong..im d one to blame...

im not aware...

i aways condemn others

but truth is

my attitude oso doesnt

so prfect..

shame on me...

wel im no good...

but please dun leave me

i aways said dat i dun need u

but dat so untruth...

sorry 4 my chnged...

i cant say dat im not hepy...

im hepy but deep inside

no one really understnds

its btween me n ALLH s.w.t....

wel im gud in making faces

n creating laughs

hah juz 4 hiding my real emotion

but do admits sumtimes

im moody al d time...

blame me....

my emotion so unprdctable guys..

sory cuz u guys to faced it...

oh ok...

u hopes me to b hepy wthout u....

easy 4 u to say....

it goin to b d death end 4 me..

im so not dat strong...

hepy wthout my bestie...

wat d fish!!!

im so not doin it....

wel if u saw me laughing o joking around...

doesnt mean dat im hepy wth dat...

im lil mis faking...

after read ur mssage.....

yeah d tears burst...

hurt,,,so damnly hurt...

but u wont noe o realise it...

evry words u say

tmes wll cure d pain

but d scar wll last frever...

dowan to gves up in frenship...

cuz its goin to turn me back

into my dark life

lke my past.....

really dowan dat..

guide me...

dun leave me wth all d mstakes

reminds me...

testing..

MISTAKES...

people aways mke mstakes rite....
stil rmember my teacher quote
'once u err ur human'
but y doin a mstakes dat u uself
can avoids...
u shud tink thousnd times bout
it fdback...
but u lose ur rational cuz
of ur impatient self...
but smtime...
as a human...
we did forget n creless we only tinks bout having fun...
enjoy n enjoying ourself...
juz b aware wth every steps we tke
n each words we goin to say
o evrytink we goin to do
tinks bout the crcumstnces...
tink bout d pain o cure...
dun simply blame others...
look at ourself frst
then only we can begin
condemng others...
but do trust me he
''NO ONE'S BORN PRFECTLY''
me maself oso got my own dark secrets
im no good...
but from times to times
im trying to b gud..
try to gves respects n we will gain it back...
b snstve to other condition...
finds suit stuation before
making fun on sumtink...
TINKS B4 ACT!!!!!

wanna get free kick?

aiyaaa..
feel lke kicking sumones ass rite now...
why la aways bothering me...
damn!!!!
go away..go away..
shoo..shoo..shoo...

in d middle of assignments n seeking 4.....

day 8 in fasting month..
alhmdulilah :)
im hre stil in dungun...
most of my bestie going home...
manje,nely,bam.....
act.dun really cre snce i hve my rummtes huhu....
but did miss them la...
n tikah thanks 4 compny me most of d times :)
my other bestie,dunnoe la...
she's gettin so bz lately....
thought of vsitting her room but
dun hve d strngths huhu...
hard to xplained why la...
so its btter if im stayin in my room...
feel lke going out ALONE....
but whre to go
wel im in DUNGUN....
lmited places to go :P

assignmnts waitin...
etr....dun hve d moods to continuing doing it...
etr assgnmnet SUSPENDED 4 a while :P
gomen ne CEO...
hah like i care hehe....
juz need to finds my mood back then i'll cont back...
nex EVENT report....
lost d rquirements la...
so i juz makin it fllowed my instinct haha
mke it into my own frmat
surely Pn Ai going to fire me hehe...
i'll check wth others soon
b4 i submits it la...

wel one of my bestie keep on forcing me to
go home...
but please..
i hates being forced ok...
i'll go home if i feel lke to...
so until dat it's btter
for u keep silent before
i losing my patient level
cuz u goin to b sorry n hurts
n i'll hates myself cuz hurting ur feelink...
juz let me wth my decsions k..
im not a lil kiddo dat needs u to tellin
me wat to do..
i can mke up my own dcisions...
sory but..let me b me...
i luv u juz stops forcing me...
its mkes me uncmfrtable...

hepy o else....

i dunnoe why im being so nice to her...
wel i din hates her its juz dat
i dunnoe why i cant b mean to her...
even sumtimes her attitudes n words did hurts me
but i juz act lke 'like i care'
but act i do care n sumtimes
mkn dlm gak huhu....
myb she's juz a lil girl dat need prtction o
seeking 4 major attntion...
juz hopes she'll tke gud cre of my bg sis
snce she's d one dat really closed to her...
not dat i dun cre juz...
it feel a bit awkward lately....
myb im d one dat not snstve wth her felink o myb
sumtink else bothering her maybe....
lots of ppl askin
'lme xnpak u guys hang toghter'
juz smiles cuz i dnnoe d rite words...
lil miss faking back here in town haha..
yeah i miss her :')
my lil sis kol las day....
dey were xpcting im goin home dis week...
bt sory sis..kak in got lot stuffs
to b sttle here...
i'll coming home soon....
my bsfren nw in KL aready...
4 her sem break...
wanna spent my whole day on d bed
dowan to tink bout anytink..
wanna free my mind...

wondering...shud i ignore...

tests n surrounding area.....

alhamdulilah..juz done wth few tests
suprvision,law and Mkt....
two more to go..
cust.service n event mgt...
wel a bit unsatssfied la...
4 suprvsion ppr damn...i was too focused on othr chap...
LAW,even it an open notes test stil
i cant anwers them...aiyooo..'my notes miserable
MKT....i noe d key points but wen come to ellaboration
i failed....
TAWAKAL suda....
for CS n oso event..
i'll try harder....
too many chapter to covered la...
hopes i can....
im studying wth manje....
aiyaaa snce wen i can study wth others oso i dn realise
hehe....
classes?so far so gud la....
now d assgnment bothering me...
etr,event and spervision
aiyooo
hopes can sttle them dis weekend
since most of my frens
goin back to their hmetown...
wel wana go home too...
but few poblems occured la...
bia la...
i'll b home soon mom...
wel i neve felt like dis before...
but syesly lately...
i often feel down n sad...
n sumtimes gettin too snstve...
thres sum people dat makin n showing faces
to me...
stop it please....
i couldnt bear it....
n truth i dun like it...please...
feelin lke GOD takin away my hepyness...
juz wana live in peace...
dun hates me...
1234....
thre's only one ting to do three words 4 u.....
i love u...
wel i did feel hw cold u treated me lately...
i'll b patient dowan to burst into tears...
cuz im prfct cryer n i dn showed my pain
obviously...
stops hurting me in silent......
sokay..snce dis is my final sem in Dungun...
so it wll be 'done' wth them soon...

i wanna say dis.......

wel fasting month here again in DUNGUN.....
ermmmm...notink special la....
as usual...get up 4 sahur,break d fast n traweh :)
i used to do jogging afta traweh las year...
but dis year...
quite bz la...
dunnoe why but i've no spirits 4 study...
ermmmm juz mish my mom, dad n siblings....
aiyaaa mish my bestie toooo....
even all of them front of me but
i do feel dat we're far....
i prefferd spent my time in my room
wth all my doraemon,mp3 n my lappy...
dun really care bout others
(bt actually i do care:P)
juz a few days back la..
one of my bestie called n cried...
damn...i felt guilty...
i cant helped her...
sorry but i hate to see my bestie tears cuz it sad me too...
feel lke smashing d ppl dat hurts my bestie...
i'll b patient here...
cuz i noe if im using violence it won settle anytink...
i'll pray 4 her hepyness...
aiyaa juz miss her...
wanna be back lke we used to be....
sms-ing n joking around....
I LOVE MY BESTIE!!!
dey r my pain n oso my cure...
b nice to them....
its fine if u guys wanna hurts me but
stay away from my bestie!!!!

and oso bout prctical ting...
i dun gve a damn anymore...
one word now TAWAKAL....
n hoping i'll get d best place...

motour/uitm jelajah selasih by HMD5HC/D

here are some pics snapped
from felda selasih.....
alhamdulilah our event run smoothly
14th august-16th august 2009
wll b in memory ...
pics d kaki gunung tebu...

pics kat ldg klapa sawit
below,me wth mnje on d lorry
dats was our frst tme ever nek lori hehe

pics above wth my mek(mak angkat)
puan ZAINAB BT JUSOH...
she's single mother...
manje wth ami...haha
looks at ami face... funny rite..
manje.me wth wani
before goin to mosque 4
malm keinsafan...
im wearing mek tudung hehe :P
looked at them both
very funny kan...
bt thnks to them...
really appreciate it..

sumtink to say..

wel all viewers..
really sorry...
dun hve d leisures time for
new post...
gettin so really bz lately...
assgnmnt,prctkal tings,tests n lot more..
aiyooo...
need an PA here...
anyone?hehe :D
WEL JUZ TO INFORMS DAT
our grup event at FELDA SELASIH end up aready..
really had fun thre....
n most of us really enjoyed d momnt...
but stil thre were some poblems occurs durng d event
but we managed to overcome...
go to gunung tebu,selasih waterfalls,
ladg klpa sawit...
for d frst tme ever in my life
dapt naik lori...
so much fun la......
i'll post d pics soon ok...
nw waiting 4 a frens for lunch aiyooo
so damn hungry... :P

stressed too much!!

im at cc now..
do blogging from here...
dunnoe why but sumtinks bothering me...
no ones really care...
kol mom...
told bout prctal tings...
CRIED...
so damn sad...
dunnoe why...
but dis prctcal tings really bothering me...
and d QUITTING word
came across my mind...
but it my final sem huhu..
wargh!!!
dun really d heart or d spirits now..
feel lke im all alone...
feel lke slepink whole life...
really cant tink now cant really
focus in class nw and at d sme time
sumtink else occurs whch sad me..but
wat it is...cant really express it rite hre...
let me faced it..ALONE...

induction pat5-pat1(d'hoteliers dungun)

here are some snaps...
d induction were juz fine...
having so much fun i guess...
yeah...
wel bob did mntiones bout dis sem
dinner theme is MAsquerade nite(am i spel it rite?huhu)
wat am i goin to wearing heh..

OHHH!!flashback wt hppened on 5th august 09

last wensday...wen out
wth tika,mnje n nely to dungun town..
frs ting woke up in d mornin...
went up to along room..
wel she's stil slepink...
her body stil hot...
spent a few hours in her room a nite before
she rfused to eat ubat...very stubborn...
n creates chaos a little la...
sory but she lied to me..tellin me dat she's fine...
wat d fish la lying...
im wth manje dat time...
thnks to nas 4 tellin me bout her cndition...
afta eat d ubat...
wipes her body wth wet towels...
hoping to rduces d tmprature...
thanks manje cuz accmpny me...
we stayed thre util 2am....
wen down but cant sleep at all...
stil worried!!!
arnd 10.30am again go to her room b4 goin out...
her body was stil hot...
told her to go to clinic bt she's rfused cuz
she having law quiz on dat day...
told her to go afta class...
feel lke cncelling my plan of goin out to Dungun
but aready mke pomised wth nely,manje n tika..
frst goin to meet hazami to sttle bout d trnsportation 4 our event...
later we moves on to Dungun by kunyit...
frst place to reached is Tabung haji..
tika goin to brings out some money...
later walks to bank islam..
i cncelled my plan for c.up at hospy..
trying rduces d time so i cn go back early
to accmpny along to klinik...
ati told me dat she's aready went to klinik...
felt a bit guilt cuz dun tman her...
i thought ebrytink goin to b juz fine...
then we walked to bsstand
bought d raye tckets..
goin back on 18thseptmber....
ok done wth tckets..

eating time...
SURA GATE PANTAI CAFE...
i've ordered fried ktiaw n white coffee....
three of them havin hakka chicken rice...
quite nice la...
then afta eats moves to Dungun walks..
we did shops sumtink...
i bought sumtink 4 ain....
but dunnoe wen goin to gve it to her
hehe...
she got d gud instincts la
she noe wat i bought 4 her...not a
surprise anymre.....

ok then moves around dgun walks...
alhamdulilah d weather wasnt too hot la...
while at d PSI...
d-san kol me bout d trnsportation matter
aiyaa...
for one day please release me huhu
amost dstroyed my mood la...
ok stops thre...
later arnd 3pm
get into kunyit....
nak balik huhu
aiyaa vry exhausted....
juz about to lay back then received kol from along..
she told dat she hve to go back...
i noe she's crying...
damn felt totally bad..
asks her wen?
she wanted to go hme tonite...
i was juz gt out from d kunyit iurn back to
bsstand...
i was bout to cry dat time....
bt manged to hold up d tears huhu..
manje accmpany me to bsstand...
thnks manje...
really worried dat time...
is dat too srious until she hve to go back...
ermm
cant tink any..
tex to her to calm down
but actually at dat time im d one dat neves d most
n shocked as well...
ok got d tckets..
turn back to gt d kunyit...
once reached uitm..
meet dhiya askin him bout d trnsportation...
stil din sttle yet...
leave him at d cafe 4 a while..
then directs to along room...
yup her body was damn hot....
paste her a koolfever on her forehead...
then leave her
cuz i hve to go to HEP wth dhya
goin to sttle bout d evnt trnsportation...
bout a staff asked us to cme back tmrw..
then moves to dining hall
tapau foods for along...
n oso 100+
wait until she's done eating
n later wait for her eats all d mdcines
dat gven by d nurse...
have a lil cnvrsations..
then leave her for rest....

THANKS 4 CARE...

wel dis is baba car...
can see d lil guy HAIKAL through d mirror
wearing white bju mlayu..
along sent dis pic to me...
she snapped dis wen baba cme vsits her at her house...
wel baba thanks a lot..
do really appreciates it...
thnks 4 care...
cant tel more hre cuz its psonal matter
hehe :)
really hopes dat along wll b back hre safely...
hopes dat she'll b fine...
AMIN!!

i am me...

a cup of milo before starts blogging :)
frankly speakin since i noe dat i hve dat wat we called
mgrain..im a bit cautious la...
most of d time i drinks milo bt sumtimes did drnk nescafe huhu..
cant barely stop la...
last weeks went to SUra gate pntai cafe wth manje,nely n tika
i ordred white coffee n fried ktiaw...
d white coffeE erm..totally out...
i preferred at kopitiam(CM)
ok wel im not goin to talks bout fnb hre :P
erm miss my along haha :D
ok...
hre im goin to xpress out my felink la...
bout my grup assgnmnt...
wel im getting really used do all d jobs in d last minute time...
but i manged to sttle ebrytink..
n i dun like others to be very pushy ok..
wel i noe myb i was too focused on other tings...
but please dun msundrtood me...
i care too bout d assgnment
cuz its carrying my marks too...
moreover...they preffred makin o doin d jobs in silent
n it mkes me feel lke a dumber n useless...
hey..c'mon guys...
we're in one grup rite...
myb i was too snstve...
but i dn really like dat stles of workin ok...
i faced it last sem..
n its damn hurt!!!
lately im gettin too snstve
n easily cry
huhu shame on me...
bt afta dat i do feel relieved a bit...
wel bck to my asgn juz now...
i can do my work alone...
juz please dun b too pushy ok...
i used to do all tings in las mnute time..
sory if dat burdening u guys :')

HOPES!!!

my bestie stil nt recover yet...
her temprtre up n down..
really worried la...
hopes dat she'll b fine soon...
k.teha said dat she's amost ok
her body tmprature back to nrmal again...
syukur alhamdulilah...
then my another fren nw is
having fever...
hopes dat all of them wll b fine soon...
so dat i'll get my mood back...
i do admits dat lately...
i bcame moody n easily piss off over sumtink...
its juz bcuz
worriedness surround me...

event madness...
it amost d dates...
d tense is here n thre..
wel thre's a minor num of ppl
in our grup dat seem like
not satssfied wth wat we had planned....
hopes dat they're not goin to creates
any chaos...
dowan dis event to faced any poblem...
hopes dat ebrytink goin o b juz fine...
some of them said goin to
complaint to d lect...
but guys please steps back ok...
dis wont sttle any...
i faced it b4 during dinner...
juz proceed wth wat we had planned
ignore them frst,
afta event only we decides ok...
really wan dis event to b success...
HOPING!!!

i want it!! is it possible huhu

found dis big doraemon
at smart cc dungun
aiyaa
wanna hold it cuz it quite xpnsive
fo me (RM199.90)huhu
but too hgh la they placed it..
so juz a few snaps huhu :D

check it out!!!

h1n1 madness... chaos... all students were compulsory for check up... wel im a bit piss off... cuz d managemnt were to slow manage d stuation... and its begin late.. wel dey supposed to b mre aware bout dis ting... a guy from mnstry of health i guess standing n mke an anncement.... for those who are feeling nt wel please stay.. the others can go back... oooohooo... as smple as dat... so wat d purposed of d words 'COMPULSORY' i rather staying in my room but snce all my bestie out so i fllwed them.. wel one my bestie nw in KL...she's having fever n cough... her tmperature was 39'c hopes she'll b okay... n juz now another fren... were packing up n go back due to her body tmprture 39'c juz pray dat both them wll b fine soon... n bcuz of dis oso i did hurt my bestie wth my harsh words... sory bam,i din mean it... really sory... now stat busy preparing event stuffs aiyaaa... wel d event is on 14-16 AUGUST 2009 at felda selasih tganu...
some pics..

words.....

i cant rmmber snce wen i do blogging
but from time to time...
im kind of addicted to it...
wat bes is..
dis is juz like my diary hehe...
i posts any tings dat hppened to me..
hepy,sorrow o anytink dat i feel lke to
wel its my blog so i dun hve to asks frm other pmissions..
wnever i feel lke posting...
i'll do it...
wel im not a person dat drectly
express my emotion
to ppl...
n more i dun trusts any hehe...
sort of la..wel do trusts my bestie:)
more wat can i say hre are...
-im hepy wth my blogging life
-im doin juz gud wth it
-dn gve a damn in wat others goin to say
-i did enjoyed read d older posts,lots of memories

hehe...

rouge P said....

wel im goin to say dis....
im lazy..im stubborn..im selpish...
im hypocrite...i am wat i am...

wel back to few days past
while im stil in KL
on 1st August...
wel its along bufday...
did create a card for her
wel cant rmmber wen did i stopped
creating card for others hee
juz get back d mood kot for creatin
but stil lack of ideas..
cant really came out wth any else
idea
so i juz mke it d bes i could :P
wel hopes she likes it.wel her real
presents kan actually...
bought it early but left at dungun hehe
..



wel on d same dat...
im goin out alone as usual la...
dcided wana go to C.M
really wana go thre...
BANGLE...
really wanna buy dat bangle...
for my two bestie....
but sory couldn mke it la
sory tika n along..
but i did gve u guys other brecelet kn2:P
wel guess wat i've been faced dat time...

i was so hepy while on tren..
then while stepping out from d tren...
can heard loud sounds from down then
station,juz gve a peeps la...
lot of polices...
and oso lots of people
wearing reds....
in my mind...
YA ALLAH...
wats hppenink down thre...
saw a few girls were crying...
i was like hey wats goin on...
then i was juz keep on looking at d crowd
down thre...
later d polices starts spreading 'gas pemedih mate'
all d ppl down thre was running like crazy...
saw a fews old folks n oso kids
running n try to save them self
feel really soory for them...
the gas was spreading in the air...
damn!!!

later d star making announcemnt
asks all d pssengers
to leave dat station immediately...
i tink it was come to end so...
wanna leave...
once i steps out from d station...
dunnoe frm whre la they cme out...
a lots of 'reds people' rush near the station...
ooohhooo...
dis is so nt kewl...
turned into d station back...
n for safety reasons dey locked us in d station...
ok..
i was siiting at d stairs...
cant tink of anytink...
text to ain.tika n along...
stil cant calm...
saw all d girls crying...
im trying to acts kewl(wel im kewl:P)
but im alone!!!
im scared too (!_!)
only left few peoples thre...
then again d polices spreads the damn gas...
the gas was filled the whole
edge of d station...
i was stuck at d stairs...
damn cant breathe...
my tears drops
n my throat was so saket la...
an uncle grabbed me to upstairs..
then only can breathe...
thanks....
but can really see his face...
juz thanks a lot...

saw two kids crying looking for their parents...
thank GOD that im alone..
wat if i brings along my ssters dat day...
i might b sory for being me...
later emergncy tren came...
all were rushed in...
got into the tren
but tears stil dropping...
(shame on me crying front d publics:P)
stop at H.tuah station...
sit at d seat for quite a moment...
for calming maself...
my head was totally dizzy dat time...
then walks a dstances to Times...
direct to 7eleven..
looking for mineral water...
i do admits dat really need my besties dat time
(!_!)
wished dat if i lstened to ain for staying at hme
rather than goin out huhu..
but it's too late kan..
things happend...

goin to posts d pics soon
but i'll reminds me dat scary date..
huhu..

P/s:guys dont walk alone ok!!!
hehe :P