my childhood fren 'NIKAH'(bedd n nizam)

wahahahaha....
wen she told me dat she'goin to get married...
hehehe...
shocked me ;p
erm met her husband few times...
kind a cute guy...
now two of my bsfren aready married....
i went to her house wth iera...
she pick me up by bike we go mrempit
to see d 'nikah' ceremony....
a day before my bsfren nikah...
my other bsfren dad nikah....
she called me n cried...
wah i dunnoe wat to do...
i felt sorry for her...
juz i dunnoe d rite words to say..
cuz im not in her cndition (!_!)
back to my bsfren nikah....
wa met some old frens thre wahahaha....
mish them....
juz mish.... ;P
we were making soo much noise in d surau haha...
suddenly an uncle said...
'SHHHH...DLM NI XBLEH CKAP'
hehe...then only we kept silent...
then we eat togther n hve a lil conversation haha...
laugh n laughs...
then time to farewell...
pomise to keep in touch....
yeah juz a pomise...
hehe....
ok here are some of d pictures...
d others stil in iera cmera dun hve time to copy yet...

HUNTING FOR JOBS!!(PICS)

dowan to tell stories hehe.. juz view all d pictures ok.

HUNTING FOR JOB!!!

woke up quite early la today...
felt a bit guilt...
felt like dowan to go out...
but dey both sent me sms
asking whre am i n
wat tme shud we go out...
shud i say no?
dun hve d courage...
so i juz go out even at dat tme
stil thnkng bout along feeling....
later i dcides not to tinks bout them
it's juz me hunting for jobs n sddnley meet frens thre
how silly i am...silly ain...
ok2...
met adik n angah at times square sharp on 11am...
then we begin our mission...
haha...
at frst all of us were jz like fool
dunnoe whre to go frst...
then we go up ytil reach 10th floor ..
suddenly trun balik ;D
(crazy frens)
then we dcided to try our luck at
FEDERAL HOTEL near d sg wang...
no vacancies..
then we went to MELIA HOTEL
they're gving us sme answer huhu...
later to ROYALE BINTANG...
aiyaa no vacancies again...
then we stopped at MCD sg wang for lunch...
afta dat wen to LOT10...
erm wat a bored envrnmnet...
then proceed to pavilion KL...
go surround LGF then go out...
then we try our luck at RESIDENCE HOTEL,
MARRIOT,RITZ CARLTON...
oso same answer...
NO VACANCIES...
lter we proceed to kind of low pofile otel
(neve heard bout dat otel bfore)
DORSELL HOTEL..
we managed to reach until d HR department...
bt they're not hiring part time...
FAILED!!!

Later...we try our luck at F&B servce plak...
hehe...
byk gak restoran kiterg singgah hehe...
WENDY'S....
REst.THai....
Rest.mLAYU....
kDAI roti.....
kdAI eskim...
sume x hire pat time...
dey juz 'fill d forms n we'll call'
oooo DAMN!!!!
felt xhausted bt i dun mind as long dpt kje ngan kwan2...
hehe....
penatttt wei...
but we did promised to work tgethr...
(bt sumone did broke d pomis)

me,myself,aku,diriku,

this is the tenth days afta i came back from DUNGUN....
dunnoe wat to do...
got a job but suddenly quit...
ermmm...
how stupid i am...
wargh now busy looking for jobs...
this noon went out to meet along at times...
erm juz hangout jerk n eat toghtr...
later angah messge informed that she's here in KL....
wooooohoooo...
then adik ajk kua sok...
to looks for a job....
tmorow...
wargh...
told along bout dat...
she said juz go...
ermmmm...
noe she hurted...
cuz she got sumtink to do tmrw'family bsnes'...
dunnoe la...
if i din go tmrow..
angah n adik will get mad cuz i did asked them
to ajak me wen looking for job...
but at d same time..
need to considered bout along feelings...
wat shud i do...
wat shud i do...
ermmm cant tink la...

McD........

long time din eat McD...

yesterday went out n ate McD at KLcc wth my sis...

we were about to shops a shoe then suddenly

stopped at d McD Hehehe...

later we go around dat place but din buy anytink...

later we took putra lrt to Pasar seni...

then walked to Times Square....

hahaha...

d weather was quite good...

we go to finds shoe....

my sis said shes goin to wear heels...

and im like watever..haha

heels?

not for me ok...

so we go pusng2 lg....

afta done shopping at Times...

we took Star Lrt to Bandaraya...

dis time sogo...

bcuz it's monday so.....

can see bored promoter faces

haha...poor them...

bored working life...

they're juz goin to b busy during sales time...

i bought a shirt thre at GOGGLES...

red in colour.....

was about to buy d black one but my sis

said d red is nicer...

ermmm....

i'll post d picture later ya....

then we go home by Metrobus hehe...

too late too regret....

wargh...
dis is how d 'kereta lembu' looked
afta im comin back from study week leave.....
soooo sad....
but no use regretting cuz it's happened...
cant blame anyone huhuhu...
Dungun having heavy rain during dat time...
dis is how it's happened...
i hve d thought earlier goin to snaps pictures wth dat 'kereta lembu' durin exam week wearing' white baju' but...
argh (!_!)

Lost.....

now sitting here front of my laptop...

but notink much to do....

after repairing my lptop...

i lost all of d data.....

it sad me...

i did cried....

all of my pictures collection

dat i've been saved since pat 1

all gone...

all of them....

(!_!)

goin to miss all d collections...

all my songs....

all my videos....

all my muvees...

all my pictures

evrytink...

GONE!!!!!

my muvees maker dat i created for my frens

oso gone...

really2 disturbing my holiday mood....

now looking at my lptop???

it's showed me sorrowness...

wargh(!_!)

super duper dull days....

aiyaaa....
got job at jj but suddenly quit...
d rules make me sick...
'ni xboley tu xboley'
wat d fish....
like ur mall was super duper famous....
well halooo...
im juz goin to work ok...
not a fashion stage...
damn....
then some weird faces thre really
mke me uncmfortable....
d staffs kind of rude....
'blagak siut'
dun really care at all....
feel lke spending my whole holiday at home....
at dis condition
i hve to cnfess dat
I MISS DUNGUN....
i mean my student life la....
so do miss my frens thre....
my mom nagged hehe...
my dad juz kewl wth dat...
my sis nagged too....
i fought wth my lil sis huhu...
sory... ;(
told my bsfren ain bout dis...
she's juz like...
'its up to u.dowan to influence ur dcision a'more'
hehe ;p
stil waitin for my fren to calls....
i gves her 2days
hopes she goin to call tmrw...
o else...i'll go my own way...
dun stop me..
i'll do wat i wan....
not flowing my heart juz...
i cant wait fo u any longer....
feel like packing up n go back to mlacca...
then wat?
huhu...
dunnoe lah...

13th may 2009

erm my sem break begin totally suck..

starting wth my laptop poblem...

then my hndphone poblem...

damn...

totally miserable now.....

went out to loyat juz now wth my bsfren....

went surround loyat looking for best shop...

totally hopeless la....

wargh!!!!

repairing my lptop so my hndphone...

la monnaie???

really need to find a job huhu..

even i was so lazy but stil hve to find one....

miss dungun...

hah i cant believe i said dat huhu...

but suddenly feel like goin back to dgun now...

wargh!!!

why my life recently gone so bad....

felt like gving up lar....

hopefully dat my life will be back to normal again!!!

really wanna smiles and laugh as i used to....

really wanna all d burden dissapeared....

really wanna b free....

expression!!!

erm shud i say im grateful
shud i say ALHAMDULILAH...
shud i say thank.....
shud i say arigatoooo....
shud i say merci...

Ermmmm dunnoe act how to xpress ma feeling...
felt totally exhausted dis sem....
felt totally miserable dis sem...
got hurt too much dis sem...
cried too much dis sem....
felt like an outcast dis sem...
felt stupid dis sem...

too much to bear...
too much conflicts...
too much pain...
too much suffered...
too much madness...
too much to condemn....
too much to confess...
too much to see..
too much to listen
too much to share...
erm juz too much to say...

but some hepy things did happened to me....
got new 'sibbliings' (J-C loves dis words ;p)
i got along,angah,alang n adik....
thyre wth me...
hehe...
thanks a lot for making up my days...
thanks for concerned bout me....
thanks for brigthen ma life....
thanks for being patient wth me...
thanks....
loves u guys...

HOPES!!!!
hoping dat i'll be back nex sem...
hoping dat i'll b like i used to be....
hoping dat i'll be good towards others...
hoping dat i'll b nice...
hoping dat i'll b tougher than before...
hoping dat there's no pain nex sem...
hoping dat all d shit dissapeared...
hoping dat ALLAH will bless me...
hoping dat ma life wll b good n fine...

LOVES...
had a crushed early dis sem....
10th january 09...
a date to remember...
he's too cute for me...
he's juz cute larr...
end up dis sem wthout xpressing my feeling....
'cinte dalm hati'
me n love?
haha too funny larrr...

sem break!!!!

sem break?
wat shud i dooooo...

sem break?
whre shud i goooo...

sem break?
how im goin too spend it.....

sem break?
goin to miss them?

sem break?
all bout family....

sem break?
all bout earning money......

sem break?
out of frens.....

sem break?
out from dgun environment....

sem break?
it's bout wat?

serves u right!!!!

went to seri dgun dis monink...
thought dat goin to tke my muet...
but failed....
too many peoples on d line....
hah...
juz gave up n return back to college..
on my way back...
d snior books send me an sms...
askin for d money...
damn...
i dun hve enough amt...
i asks from my along last nite..
he said goin to bank in bt dunnoe wen...
i hve to paid 15o to her....
totally out of money lar...
again need to use money for my laptop repairing...
then money for tckect...
im totally hopeless now...
she's too pushy..
hate it!!!
no consideration at all...
im not a rich prson...
im really wooried bout my fudcost ppr now...
d 'repeat' word again cross my mind...
huhu...
(!_!)

KP 132 2009

we had dinner together last 4th may... at seri molek restaurant... ermmm... last sem oso we had our room dinner at d same place but.... wth diff rommtes... last sem wth apai but dis sem wth new junior... really miss apai... want u back ;p back to our dinner la.... we wlked tghtr to d hotel... unfortunately... d hotel have funtions to sttle so.... we have to waits for a moment before can entering d restaurant... so we decded to snap some pictures hehe... it's pictures time....


ok2 done with snapping pctures now eating time....

ermmm...
two of my rmmates ate chick.chop dat nite...
erm anthr one ate oxtail soup wth white rice...
me?
ermmmm i ate...
french fries wth tartar sauce,chili sauce n oso smbl blacn sauce
hehehe ;p
and i ate spaghetti bolognese
as for d dessrts...
i ate 'ice cream' goreng...
was about to but blueberry cheesecake...
huhuhu but dun hve lar...
dat nite juz left n.york cheesecke kot...
nt sure lar ;p

gve me a break!!!

last nite cant really close my eyes...
i was bout to sleep
suddenly received an sms from
'KP'dinner....
he was askin bout postmotem...
i was juz like damn..
why asked me??
he can even come out wth his dcision...
erm really mad at dat time...
cuz i really dowan to tink bout dat ting...
to others once d dinner done
they done too..
bt not for me..
d post motem ting still bothering me...
ysterday wen to see mr S...
ermmm...he oso cant dcides...
OMG....
felt sory to my 'PR' fren
she need to tinks bout dis damn ting too...
sory to say but 'KP' doesnt helps a lot...
he juz like passing all to us...
o gve me a break..
really wanna free from all of these stuffs..
one more...
d dcoration fren send me an sms
at 2.30 am...
askin bout whre shud he placed all d dcorations stuffs...
y asks me?
asks d kp larrr...
im getting really sick of these tings...
y dun u juz drectly call d lects and asks them...
y asks me?
i dunnoe how to answer him...
juz ignored his mssge...
soryy...
gomen...
now need to tink bout my fudcost ppr...
really dun hve d heart to study...
miserable...
damn...
i told my bsfren that i felt like goin to quit study
im sick of study stuff...
she nagged at me huhu...
cant wait for d sem break....
really wanna get free from
dgun envrnment...

lay down...

im sooo done with study now....

dun feel like seeing o reading any notes ..

damn i hate dis part of me...

LAZYNESS...

act... my mood destroyed few day ago...

why?

my laptop is d major factor....

dunnoe why but its really affecting me ok...

damn.. im not ok!!!!

wen to have lunch at kafe kreatif

wth along of course...

met some frens thre...

ok2..

back to my laptop la....

i called azaz dungun dis noon...

askin whtr my lptop is done o not...

a female staff answer then she passed me to

another female staff...

im not even done my words wth her

she passed me to a men staff...

damn!!!

they rude!!

dat men said to me dat they need

to format my laptop...

FORMAT!!!once again...

i was juz like ...damn why?

i was asking him why?

but dat damn staff couldnt answered me..

i juz cut d line thre...

i was too mad...

on my way back to college...

i juz kept silent...

im totally damn mad dat time...

stop by at d koop...

went in n bought ice cream n chocolate...

my mind was totally miserable dat time...

i lay back on my chair n turn on my mp3...

it'takes almost one hour i sit thre...

dunnoe wat to do..

LOST!!!

told my bsfren bout dat...

she's too pstve...

she said dat ebrytink goin to b fine...

then i send mssge to my other fren...

later feel sleepy...

then one of my fren come...

she told me bout lot of stories...

i juz keep listens to her..

even im too sleppy dat time...

she told me bout her bf,

bout her fam.

bout her sster...

and even bout her niece..

hehe....

damn..

i cant even focus stdying now...

damn want my laptop back...

din tell my parents bout it ; p

juz told my ssters only....

i sent 3 sms to my frens...

neither one of them are replying me...

damn...

juz throw ur phone lar...

my words getting harsh lately..

hate myself recently....

i've changed a lot...

even my bsfren at KL noticed that; P

im in pain...

sumtimes i do feel like thrwing all of my frens

but i cant...

cuz i'll b nobody wthout them...

do feel hurt... juz dunnoe

how to xpress my emotion...

dun even noe hw to shares wth them..

really hate myself....

why?

went out dis monink....
to dungun town to sent my laptop..
once again my laptop broke down...
damn!!!
really destroyed my mood...
why?
in d middle of exam week...
totally destroyed my study mood...
really need my laptop huhu...
it really depressing me...
then...along got mad wth me huhu...
i went out alone...
juz go around dungun walk..
dunnoe whre to go...
dungun too bored...
nt much place to go..
so went to smat cc looking for gifts for my roomates...
failed....
so i went to anther shops...
finally got it..
i bought 4 red keychain...and oso a hair clips for along hehe...
told my sster bout my laptop...
she nagged at me huhu (!_!)

SHUD I ?????

erm juz done wth MKT paper.....

but dun really have

d confident in scoring dat paper...

bcuz?

ermmm..i havent

covered all d chpters...

d lazyness

surrounded me for few days...

promised my self to get up

early in the morning to

study but failed to do so...

huhu...

quite worried ;(

but no use regretting now...

but do felt guilty...

i am too lazyyyyyyyy .....

felt baddddddd.....