keep on waitin~~~

wel jz filled up new application 4 ptptn...
erm dey said...
dey're nt goin to process my
pvious applcation..
$#!+....
misery glerrr....
grrrr...

no matter wat la kan...
stil HAVE to apply jgak...

shah alam...so damn borink...
d envrnment~~~
mis dngun much hehe...
n oso d frens..~~~

stil keep in touch wth amal thre....
hahaha....hamala..sengalll...~~~
d other one thre?
ermmm...~~~
hops she doin juz fine~~

study stuffs~~
ok!!! im not gud into figures~~~
so i shud b sayin here dat....
d finance n eco are killin mee~~~
(''-)

..........

gettin so misery wen entred d class....
ouh...
im pretnding kewl...
duhh...
bt NOT SO FINE!!!!

i hate figuresss~~~~
n oso al d wat curve2...
wth!!!

haish...

im tryin to let myself free from
'anyone'
stops!!!
hah..
surrounding by LIARS!!!
k im fine wth it....
jz i hd enough!!!
k..
my heart stil cn bears wth all d lies...
ALLAH is wth me.....
aminnn ;)

duhhh..
i juz wana b free...
juz wana b hepy wth al my besties n frens....
~~~
let me b ~~

migraine..~~
heee...
mine?gettin worst~~~
SO???
as expected.....
ermm...

heeee~~
so bla..bla..bla..

im gud wth it...
ds mgraine so nt goin to kil me
IALLAH ;')

~~~~~
assgnments~~~
ermmm...
-finance~~
-BEL
-service
-Tourism
lalalalala~~~

(^_^)

lite n easy....

wel c'mon....haih...
b in my shoes...
fix my stuation hre....~~
i juz cant get rid easily.....
i wish i can....
i wish i noe d way...
i wish i noe how....
thnks cuz listning dear...
thnks lots...
at least i noe i stil hve sumone
to share with ;)

ooohhh...
i hve to finds sumone here
dat can mix with my prangai....
can ponteng toghther...
gile2 tgther...we're crazy...
haha....
dmn girl....imy....
myb i'll find sumone at d library??
hahaha~~ xp

really hve to finds sumtink dat can
mke my self buzy n buzier so dat i
dn really hve d time
to think bout d loussy stuffs dat mke h
but i cant stop thnking laaa.....
hard to do so....

i used to b really tough n tougher
than ds before...
bt now im fragile...
really...im nt strong a'more...
losing d old me...
slowly....

haaaa....
lil miss hypo back to town
=P

im kinda lose my
excitement...
losing my spirits....
im easily gt dstracted...
dush..dush..
evrytink bcme a problm to me now...

lite n easy life....
all i ever wanted....

~~~
need a shoulder to lean on...

imprfect me...

im nobody...
taking 4 granted.....

sadly to say...
yes im sad....~~
pathetic i am....

ALLAH bless me ;)

ptptn erghhh....

fufu...
barriers tol...
keep on waitin.....

kesabaran je....
ermm hve to pay d tourism buk...

lorh..~~~
misery....

DEaD SoUL......

haaaaaa..


so borinkkkk~~~~

CHANGES~~~

kinda weird.....
lately la kn,,,,
wat i dowan to noe...
awaysssss bothering me...

truth is pain....
n it sucks.....

haaa,,,,,
im no longer me....

thre's
no hepynes in my heart....
dey build up
a wall of lies in my heart...

haaaaa....
~redha je~

i keep bothering
my bestie bout ds....
sory juz need sumone to shre wth....

haaa...
hops al ds matters
not goin to diz my study =(
haaaa...
im a mess n easily gt dstrcted...
fuhhh....

haaaaa~~~

dun really hve t heart...
to write a'more....

thnking of dleting my fb acc...

hah,,,bcuz of dat fb...
d truth revealed....

i wish i neve noe....
bt ALLAH is Great...

haih.....
keep me breathing wth honesty.....
dn cmfrt me wth lies....
whcn can drowned me....

d ptptn stil xcnfrm lagi....~~

~yet...dat guy from klana resort..
stil bothering me....
hah...
wteve....
i juz cant accept anyone
at ds momnt....~~
let me b alone,,,,

im nt so dsperate in gettin a bf...
so plez....
dun simply said u love me...
cuz i dowan to noe wat's d love mean...
haa..i dn gve a dmn in ds love matter...

iALLAH....
.GOD wll dcdes 4 me....
HE noe wats bttr 4 me....
amin...~~

im stil breathing
cuz of d reasons...
my fams n frens ;)

lalalalala~~

sore throat...~~ -_-"

naaaa....
my cough stil not cure yet....
heee~~
my mom thought i went
4 karaoke....
haha~~
funny ma...
hehe...

orite...
things jux fine here in sA...
(think sooo)

herm...
lonely is it??
walllaaaaahhhh...
surrounding by bff bt stil
smtimes do feel lonesome.....~~

lost some exicetmnt mybe..
haaa...
lately...
while at nite....
aways n aways...
im hving stmchache...

duhhh~~~
hate it....

haaa~~
im so not into figuring~~
duhh...
ystrday fnance class...
feel lke cryin....
ermmm stuck hre n thre..

fufu...~~
-_-"
im a mess...

but...
siyesly....
im getting really down wen faced
al those figures ting...
errrghhh!!!!

feel lke cursing..but to whom??
haih...
no use kan...
i need a tutor..
n at ds time i miss my x-crsemate hee...
she was soooo very patient wth me..
while teach me acc ;)
she's a gud tutor n ful wth patient
j-chan ;)
miss u ...
come here n teach me all ths
figures haha =P

n more eco class....
haha...
babe....teach me....
duhh,,,,

ds degree subject are tough...
~~~
fufu...

hops i'll b jux fine ~~

n more...
my lappy broke down...
n ds time 4 gud!!!!

;(

orite...
hve to spent more time in cc..
(assgnmnt xbyk lg)
n oso hve to mke sure i hve enough cash
grrrr ;$

more my ptptn loan...stil
under process~~~

YA ALLAH....
im hoping 4 d bes..
n i noe YOU hve bttr plan 4 me...
iALLAH =)

~~redha je~~

-_-"

haaaaa...i misss herrrr....

duhhh..
misss ds girl so damn bad...
herm...
really wana meet her n lepak2 wth her....
wana do some grls stuffs wth her haha....
gossiping.... =P
heee...
wen la we can meet ermm...
miss u aways tika ;)

gosh....

erghh....
dunoe wat to do...
aiyoo....
most of d subject quite tough......
haihhh....

hops i can mke it ds semestr....
hops wil b juz fine....

lalalaa...
i miss my besties in dngun..
yeah babe its u ;)
hehe.....
diam la!!! =P

hermm...my rmmate doin gud...
my jiran oso gud hehe....

LOL...
bout d bntuan zakat dat i askd from
MAJLIS AGAMA ISLAM W.P....
d process tke 3mth...
b4 dey lluskan my applcation...

erm....
keep on waitin...
felin awkward wen brrowing from others,,,,
i noe dey dun mind lend me but...
im a bit guilt ;(
n felt like im burdening them...
sory ;(
i dowan ds to b hppnd...
erm n "dude"
im owing u...soon i'll pay u back ;)
gomen ne....
im RM less ;P

hops ptptn wil pass my applction..

erm....

thnks bff....
stay wth me ;)

o great ....
my lappy again....
broke down...
ds time 4 gud..
sooooooo sad laaaa =(

~redha jela~

suuuuiiinggggg meeeee???

las day rceived kol from ptptn...
erghh...
from law dprtmnt..
dey said dey goin to sue me....
wth??!!!!

erm las week...
i went to d cntre to sbmit d pengguhan paymnt,,,,
grrrr.....
im sicks of d system.....
now im moneyless...

grrr...
livin in shah alam...
evrywhere need money...
to class...afta class...
ermmm~~~
4 fuds more n 4 buks~~~

ha...
again my lappy...
duhhh...
im lappyless now...
im moneyless....
n im hoplesss....

haih..
im a mess....
so dmn miserable....

~~~~~

SHAH ALAM~KL~

wel,,,,wel,,,,
gettin over care bout sumone....
smtimes hurts me so bad...
feel lke im notink...
feel lke im a loser sometimes....

haih,,,,
wats life,,,

tel me d real meaning of a rlationship...
ermm...
d real meaning of frenship~~~

im big enough to understand...
throw me lke im a garbage,,,
dn need me juz tel me..

juz rmmber i wont step back...
s long u need me...
i'll b ur fren....
i can b ur worst enemy bt i choose not to b....
cuz my heart fll wth love...

ALLAH noe wats btter 4 me...
in ds life,,,,
hops HE will hold me n bless me....
aways....

i aways care...
frenship means a lots to me...
yeah...it does affectig my moOd n my lfestyle....''~

believin........

im so heartless nw...

im sicks of waitn....

im sicks of believin....

wel...

i juz hate it...

im stupid ....

lorh...

soon..iALLAH...i'll b juz fine..

as long my besties wth me...

;)

ouh snap!!!

germany lost 1-nil to spain...
erghhhh....
im dsspointed a bit...
but..germny ur d best ;)

huh....

so dats mean afte dis....
4 d final...
i'll b back supporting my villa hehe...
(so xtetp pndrian)
heehee...
like i care?

so wat kan =P

best team win...
all d besh=)

heeee~~~

gtg~~
class.....

wuteva it is...
i wil aways luv u kaka hehe...

~~~~

exhausted

uitm shah alam....
is such a huge place to "travel"
huhu...
from hostel to fac....
aishhh....
takin crowded rapid....
huuhuu...
dungun we only hve to walk a dstance to reach
classes n other plces...
bt here in shah alam....
weeeeuhhh.....
have to tke bus to go smwhre....
ermm...
money..money..money...
heeee.....
tot gona buy d rapid pass...
but soon iALLAH...
if i pass d applction of PTPTN...

ptptn extnding d applction date
whch oso mean dat.....
d process wl b long...
aiyooo....
then til dat hve to "tbalkn" muke
asks my kakk hehe ;P

one of my fren quit study
cuz of hr fams matter....
money matter...
so sad....pity her...
i wsh i can help her...
=(
bt me oso facing d poblem too...

orite.....
study stuffs...
ermmm ds weeks juz intrdction classes....

hops i'll b juz fine wth all d
new "coursemates"
=)

lalalalalala~~~~~

fuhhh......

SWEETSSS......its bitter in hre....

heart-ache to sing.......

if im so wrong......

hw cant u listen all nite long....

nw will matter if im gone

bcuz u neve learn a gd dmn ting.....

u juz a sad song.....

wth notink to say....

~one of my fav song by myChem~

i away rminds my self....

truth is pain....

n i aways wsh i dunoe d truth.....

guys juz cmfrt me wth a lie....

fine....i can accept it...

but dun mstreat me...

i dunoe hw to b mad...

hw to curses others....

how to hates....

i only wana learn bout loving others....

juz let me wth loves u guys.....

i aways do..

im d kind of prson dat wil

frget how u guys hurts me

but i wil aways

rmmberd ur kindness n how u guys mke

me hepy =)

wel dis is me.......

sadly...people aways tke me 4 grnted...

im soo unlucky....haish... ;/

juz dun tke my bff.....

loves thm all....

strngth + weakness....

frenship frever ;)

mke me hepy =)

kewL......

haih....dis is life kan....

ermm....

im in shah alam....

tot tings gona b btter but...

sumtink worst juz hppend.....

orite....

myb my bad....

i was toooooo stupid....

put al d trusts n i found out

i hve been btrayed....

hah....

life's sucks n so unxpcted....

KEWL!!!!!

im juz stupid......

ermmm.....

ds is wat ALLAH destined 4 me....

;')

truth....im sad.....

but i'll b strong....

n i noe n aways noe.....

ALLAH aways wth me....

n HE neve leaves me ;)

iALLAH....

i'll b gud here....

i pomise to my mom n my dad....

they scrifced so much 4 me ds time....

im tooo stubborn to cont ds degree....

my dad hve to tke loan....

yeah mom told me....

sory ayah;'(

iALLAH....i'll do my besh...

i'll neve btrayed their trust....

luv both of u much ;')

haih,,,,

im bg girl nw....

hehe.....

life's notink o sumtink mybe....

juz let ALLAH dcdes =)

i wana study...wthout any poblem....

luv my bff ;)

here wth me....along n bam....

yes...

mish manje,tika n nely damn much....

huhu~~~

n am toooooo....

its weird im here wthout them heeee.....

hops gona b jux fine....

;)

new beginning,,,,,

wel im a part of SA nw.....fufu...

degree studnt...of hotel&toursm faculty...

huuu...

im prayin 4 d besh....

hops dat i cn go through ds whole new life....

aish...

im so damn nervous....

oh ALLAH please bless n guide me
to d rite path...

besties....
wake me if i lost....
dun leave me...

huuu...

iALLAH ;)

okane mo nai~~~~

no money no talk haha...

wuteva.....

now hve to pay $420 for hostel plak

dey gve a week to sttle

wweeeeuhhhh....

~~~~~

i noe d truth....haih...

so dmn funny....
im such a jerk....
i've been fooled....

haha....
im 'blind'

ths is d time whre i blve dat
ALLAH is GREAT!!!

wen HE wanted sumtink to b hppn
it wont tke a sec 4 us to b ready....
its all thre....

sriously....
im jz shocked....

my instict aways rite....

ermmm...

im so unLucky....
*sigh*

bt i do blive one day i'll find my way...

my prior wl neve chnge...

my fams n my frens are my strentgh...
loves dem mre than myself...
dun dare me...

i might be sumone u'll regret to noe...
my silent is thnking...
~~~~~

baaa baaaa black sheepppp
have u any wooLLL....
YES SIR,,,YES SIR,,,
*lalalala*

heeee~~~

2007208974 tooooo 2010893754~~~

from dungun to shah alam.....

ermmm...
alhamdulilah....

NUR AIN AHMAD.....
wil b d same??

heee...im prayin 4 dat...
aways...
neve chnged...

erm innerly la...
physically??
haih...4 sure wl b chnges haha....
gettin "CUTE"
gettin"stylish"
haaaa...

im gettin over plak......

k my real intention is to study ok!!!

i'll b in shah alam wth bam n along
oso dhya...
d one dat close to me laaaa...
amal?nely?
taken by dngun ;(
haha..surely gona mish them....
tika n am not goin to cont their degree
ds intake...
mybe nex intake....

weeeeuhhhh...
im hopin 4 d bes....
really hops 4 dat....

hops d envronment will
matured me...
(i think im matured enough)
*lalalalalalalala*

heee....
haih..
hops i'll b juz fine...
erm myb....
if stil dn get any house o room to rent....
i'll stay at my home...
whch mean i have to
"ulang-alik"
KL-SHAH ALAM.....
hahaha =D

ok2...
hops d study wont b so tough laaaa =P

iALLAH ;)