nt qualified!!!!

so unwell....
so nt cool...
so nt fine....
frst time ever in my life's...
im nt qualified o pass 4 donating blood...
='(

quite depressing...
d nurse said...
d iron in my blood nt enuff...
ermm...

i've been waiting omos 4 one year
to donates...
but wen hve d chnces...
ermm...
health stops me!!!

aishh... ;(

speak no evil,see no evil, hear no evil...

envy me........
i've to learn to curse sometimes...
i can learn...
but dats wasnt me... 
dat wasnt my style...
 

im not an angle in making...
im not a statue..
im not a wax monument....
im not...
im just me...
aint perfect....

cursed me i'll gt hurt...
hit me i'll gt hurt...
i'll cry wen in pain...
al wat hppend...
i juz hopes dat at t end of d day..
i awke n its juz my "nightmare"
my perfect nghtmre...

world aint so prfect....

d aftrlife is waiting thre...

shudn't regret over sumtink...

juz i aint prfect n aint strong enuff to protect....

nt enough....

words might hurts...

yes it does hurts...

i stil cn smiles bt in awkwrdly...

i stil can talks bt in silent...

i stil can see beyond...

evry sngle things dt hppned...

open my eyes...

and proven.....

I AIN'T PERFECT....

IM JUZ A SLAVES TO ALLAH S.W.T.

IM A SINNER....

IM BAD GIRL...

wat makes a GIRLs!!!! (^_^)

• Girls are not a very deep thinker, they are observant. A smart guy can make them believe of anything by telling lies.

• Don't share secrets with the girls. They are chatter box and always tell your secrets to its friends.

• Girls don't like the guys who reacting too nice to them.

• They don't like the guys who trying to convince them to like them

• Some girls laughed at all the jokes. People think that she is sexier, but it's not. These girls are dumb. The girl who laughs at your genuinely funny jokes is good to make a relationship. These types of girls can be found on the internet or any novelty stores.

• It's a famous statement that "A woman never forgets her first love". The girls who get breakup are of two types. One are those who want to take their boyfriend back and again want to involve in him and the second one are those who make new friends and tried to forget the guy.

• There are some girls who just care about their career. These girls are so mean. They always stay connected with intelligent guys. These look like they are jolly, but instead they are looking for some help.

!!!!!O!!!!

Blood type O

People with blood type O usually have a big role in motivating the passion of their groups and stimulating the harmonious relationship among the group members. They look like people who accept and do something calmly.

They are smart to cover up their feelings, so they look like people who are always cheerful, peaceful, and do not have problem at all. But, if they cannot bear it, they will surely find out a place or someone to talk.

They are kind, often do kindness, and are not reluctant to get out of their money to other people. They are actually stubborn too and have their own opinions about anything in confidence, but they are also flexible and easily accept new things. No wonder that they lean to be influenced easily by other people. Look like people who are temperate and believable, but they also often make big mistakes because of their careless characteristic. However, their characteristics make them lovable.

here comes d pain -_-"

28th aPRil 2o11 - ctu 553

30th APril 2011 -hth 565 (dsgn & layout)

3rd MAy 2011 - QMT 554 (DATA ANALYSIS -_-")

5TH MAY 2011- HTT454 (TRAVEL & TOUR)

7TH MAy 2011- HTT 537 (EVENT MGT)

8TH MAY 2011 - HTH 575 (ROOM DIV)

10TH MAY 2011 - HTH 551 (SERVICE)

-_-''

“They can't hurt you unless you let them.”

“The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.”

“Love means exposing yourself to the pain of being hurt, deeply hurt by someone you trust.”

“There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It is caused by the absence of you.”

“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.”

“I cannot stand being awake, the pain is too much”

“Pain is deeper than all thought; laughter is higher than all pain”

this is true

i am me.... fragile me..... yell to me.... saying harsh to me.... isolated me..... im notink to worth.... TRUTH..... i never felt ds way before.... never thought ds worst..... n TRUTH.... i am SCARED..... i noe dat i wil nt gona mke any chnges a'more..... i just cant.... never again.. to accept me.... never again..... NEVER.... d hardest pain..... I AM.... easily dstracted... easily hurts.... easily bursts into tears.... d more i keep... d more often i'll cry... wil not say a ting... im running n hide.... dunoe til wen.... i just cant face d TRUTH!!! TRUTH IS PAIN to bear wth.... dstance....dstance.... wasnt really calm me... its mke me thnking n suffering all alone... -_-"

push me....hates me....mke me ill......

im running out...

running over sumtink...

im nt failed...

i juz dn finds d right ways....

looking down...

looking up...

all seems nt helping....

~~~~~~

o please...please....please...

tke away my anxiety....

building up inside me......

i neve thought of dis ......

nt even a sngle words to STOPS me....

haaaa.....

it's in me....

it's in me...

totally been hated....

totally been thrown away...

.no more.

im building up inside me...

so hard...so tough...

t mask is on my fce....

im cool otsde....

darn

im fragile insde.......

just so u know....

i'll leave as u insists....

i'll leave 4 u to b free from pain...

i'll leave 4 u to b hepy...

i'll leave,as u wish to b back w her....

i'll leave 4 u nt to b sicks...

.......................................................

just t wishes n hopes 4 u...

i'll blows them wth t winds..

be apart...

separated....

for guds.....

i've never hve t thought cross on my mind....

...................................................................

~kicked out~

big eyes...

im looking beyond...

still....

no silver lines....

i keep waiting....

i failed to mke a moves....

i juz dunoe...

quotation!!!!!! (-_-)

No enemy is so annoying as one who was a friend, or still is a friend, and there are many more of these than one would suspect.” “If life gives you a bowl of lemons, go find an annoying guy with paper cuts” The fellow who thinks he knows it all is especially annoying to those of us who do.” Red is the ultimate cure for sadness. Better by far you should forget and smile than that you should remember and be sad. The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go, and knowing when to say goodbye. I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me... Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go. If you die in an elevator, be sure to push the Up button. Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings. Girls are like phones. We love to be held, talked too but if you press the wrong button you'll be disconnected!

(-__-)

An onion can make people cry but there's never been a vegetable that can make people laugh.

Comedy is much more difficult than tragedy-and a much better training, I think. It's much easier to make people cry than to make them laugh.

For me, painting is a way to forget life. It is a cry in the night, a strangled laugh.

I always knew looking back on my tears would bring me laughter, but I never knew looking back on my laughter would make me cry.

I love movies that make me cry, because they're tapping into a real emotion in me, and I always think afterwards: how did they do that?

I often want to cry. That is the only advantage women have over men - at least they can cry.

I'm worth more dead than alive. Don't cry for me after I'm gone; cry for me now.

If you cry over a guy, then your friends can't date him. It can't even be considered.

Like I can't cry for myself so I will let this song take all of the things inside I can't let anyone else see and offer it up, as if the sound were some kind of god, and my pain is some kind of sacrifice.

Nobody deserves your tears, but whoever deserves them will not make you cry.

People can cry much easier than they can change.
Sometimes guys need to cry. Some hockey players think they're too tough to cry.

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will make me go in a corner and cry by myself for hours.

black..black heart....oopps!!BROKEN!!!

well its all combining lyrics from some of my favs songs

Look in my eyes You're killing me, killing me All I wanted was you I tried to be someone else But nothing seemed to change I know now, this is who I really am inside Finally found myself Fighting for a chance

Love is the red the rose on your coffin door What's life like, bleeding on the floor, the floor, the floor You'll never make me leave I wear this on my sleeve Give me a reason to believe You're running after something That you'll never kill If this is what you want Then fire at will

Building up inside of me A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free Don't mourn for me, You're not the one to place the blame As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight Sorrow sank deep inside my blood All the ones around me I cared for and most of all I loved But I can't see myself that way Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away
I try to read I go to work I'm laughing with my friends But I can't stop to keep myself From thinking I wonder how I wonder why I wonder where they are The days we had, the songs we sang together

it just ain't living And I just hope you know That if you say Goodbye today I'd ask you to be true 'Cause the hardest part of this Is leaving you 'Cause the hardest part of this Is leaving you

So, if you're mad, get mad Don't hold it all inside Come on and talk to me now Hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too Well I'm a lot like you When you're standing at the crossroads And don't know which path to choose Let me come along 'Cause even if you're wrong

i don't know why I'm feelin sorry for myself I spend all my time wishin that I was someone else Senior class president She must be heaven sent She was never the last one standing A backseat debutante Everything that you want Never to harsh or too demanding Maybe I'll admit it I'm a little bitter Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

If I'm so wrong How can you listen all night long? How will it matter after I'm gone? Because you never learned a goddamned thing You're just a sad song with nothing to say About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay And if you think that I'm wrong This never meant nothing to you I spent my high school career Spit on and shoved to agree So I could watch all my heroes Sell a car on TV We've got the obvious team We'll show 'em what we all mean

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead So complicated, look happy, you'll make it! Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game It's enough! I've done all I can think of Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing You're f*ckin' perfect to me

You could be my unintended Choice to live my life extended You could be the one I'll always love You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions You could be the one I'll always love I'll be there as soon as I can But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before First there was the one who challenged All my dreams and all my balance She could never be as good as you

I hope you know, I hope you know That this has nothing to do with you It's personal, myself and I We've got some straightenin' out to do And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket But I've got to get a move on with my life It's time to be a big girl now And big girls don't cry Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry The path that I'm walkin', I must go alone I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they? And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

kiddo....(^_^)

pretty girl rock!!!!

a song by keri hilson...

kinda cool song...

but aint d vids...

i dun really lke d vids...

bt dats nt d point here...

bla...bla....bla....

lets fly......

erm....

i dunoe y n wat mkes me can "see" more than other does...

i "see" wt others din......

wat i trying to says here

i see things through d hearts...

i see beyond....

im nt d type...

dat will trusts wt my eyes totally...

n dat mkes me...annoying..

n unacccptble....

i only sees chronic things....

i will nt easily say yes...

o agreed.....

but apparently...

i only see sad things....

i only see pain nw....

afterall....

evrytink seems rdiculous...

im getting far from HIM....

dat mkes me "lost"

i tink i shud stops blabbering nw...~~,

i wont see u tonight.....

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

It's building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

gt rid!!!!

she sayS she's fine,

but she's going insane...

she says she feels good

but she's in a lot of pain..

she says its nothing

but its really a lot..

she says she's okay..

but really she's not....

more o less.....

im looking back....
staring at d stars,moon and d sun.....
d world stil moving...
d air stil thre....
evrytink seems nrmal....

i realized...
only me.....
"nt moving"
"freezing hre all alone"
looks up d ceiling....
d wall...
nex to me....
juz d pllows to cmpany..
d blanket keeps me warm....

sumtink wrong wth my brain
n inner self

bla...bla....bla....
so much hatred....
i tink i've done wt i could....

myb nt enough...
to err is human...

noe those gona effects me much...
d studies...
d result.....
d decision...
d "drugs"....

BUT!!!!!

i barely care...

(~~,)
difficulties...
crcumstnces...
barriers...

all caused pain!!!!

~off to bed~

alhamdulilah...

alhamdulilah...

im stil here...

stil breathing...

fuhhh....~~

ALLAH swt stil wan me to walk on t earth...

IT'S A CALL!!!!

i shudnt "tmenung"

on d road...

too much ting too bears wth.....

im losing too much focus...

ALMOST KILLED!!!!

wke up ain!!!!

ur risking ur life's!!!

haaa....

bt im gud nw..

not even a scars on my body lalalalalala

iALLAH...

b fine....

visits CM..... (-_-)

language......

MIND t WORDS!!!!!

it's hard......

to cntrol our emotions....

esp.wen we're in really nt in a gud mood...

wenever we feel evrytink nt in our way....

o wenever wt we planned faced poblem...

watever....

ppl do cursing to show their anger....

including me...

bt sriously..im nt gud in "accepting"

those words....

SILENT IS BETTER,,,,

rather than mke thing worst...

erm......-_-

prying 4 d slver lininng......

wil aways b my fav place ;')

grief

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM,

Im nt YOU...

Nt strong....

Can’t pretend lke nothing....

Can’t act like noting....

Im gving my self time out...

*whchisidunoetilwen*

D words

*GIVING UP*

Is here wth me......

*heart wont stops*

Wth unwilling heart....

Hve to “let u go”

It’s hard....really hard....

BUT...

You seem dun care at all......

And all of sudden i realized....

*dd u ever loves me?*

QUESTION MARK on my forehead!!!

Naaaa....

Im juz an empty seat....

U regret everything bout me...

Im sorry for that.....

Sorry...

For being d reasons...

Of ur pain...

Of ur loss of bsfren....

Of ur patient....

And everything dat hurts you...

Im sorry...

My existence disguises you...

I’m ego...

I loves smone bt i wont say......

Is nt easy....

Looks d blood running cold...

Im sorry...

Im not gud in handling stress...

Running away is all i cn do...

Being hates toooo much....

Really ....unaccptble to me...

Never feel like im wasting my time wen wth u..

In ur shoe...

I shud b hates...

I’ll b d blamed....

I tke that...

But stil...

Aways rmmber....

Im nt regretting any (-_-)

I noe i shudnt b worry...

u doin fine wth me...

i noe...u can...

u strong enough....

to hates me...

unlike me...

im a cry beby...

im weak...

ppl’s said...

“sabar separuh dri iman”

Bt im nt strong enough to

Accept all...

im laughing w my frens....

bt i cant stop to keep myself ffm thnking....

~out~

the one hurt.....ARE YOU AND ME!!!!

we're done....

i guess ds is d end.....

well u over thre...

WE'RE DONE!!!!

i noe u gona smiles selfishly thre...

well guys...all of u....

all those ppl dat really hops we to be apart...

bg claps nw all of u...

cuz we're done....

she's insists me to leave....

nah i've been thrown away...

sucks ok...

really pain...

in pain....

haaaa....

i juz cant~~,

begging 4 mercy....

-_-'

not regretting any...

isnt aways rouge....isnt aways me...

gaze into her killing jar....

she even poke d holes so i can breathe.....

blindside...darkside..

no one left...

hve to find d cure on my own....

tke d voices out from my head...

"im loveable"???

dang...dang...dang...

learning to live half alive...

i am nw.....

listens to my heart....

im begging you.....

sorrowness sank deep inside my cold blood...

meaningless...

useless....

abandoned......

................................................