holla ^_^

its been a while i din post anyting thru dis blog...
i've been busy n  also lazy bit to update anytink heee....
well....
life's geting hard...
yeah hard...
as time passes by...
t age getin "btmbah"
heee...
too many things need to be plan ahead...
family....finance....hmmm...
ptptn loan..
continuing stdy...
love life.huh... ~_~ 
-NIL-
 wel its hard liking o loving sumone dt doesnt really
care bout ur exstence......
its painful...

haih...
new outlet wil b opening soon...
kuantan n kerteh...
heuheuehue...
t mgt are looking fr any applicants dt willing to b trnsfer....
hmmm...
thnking of >-<

=_="
dowan to think...

smehow thse kiddo mke my day wen i thougt i cant smile a'more...

STRONGER....

im nt lying wen i said i miss u...
o i love u....

its hard to keep lying...
feelings...emotions...

others hearts need to b cnsdered

i'll b strong til t end ;')

myotherstory :

i dn really care bout ur exstence....
ppl keep teling me stories bout U
n i wish im nt hearing thse rubbish...
u bein w this guy...
holding hands w this guy...
u do this n u do that...
u mean nothing to me...
but do plz....
respect t one dt love u...
t prson dt really2 trusts u...
-,-"


n i do really love u....
even i noe...im nt goin to hve u.
i prmise dt i'll nve leave u...
as long as u need me..i'll b thre...
i  care more bout ur hppness ;)
even evryting i did were  useless to u..
let me be...
i'll leave when im totally ready 
wen im totally strong enough ;)
huh im such a mess *_*

ALLAH menguji umatNYA setimpal dengan kemampuan mereka utk mghadapinya...

IT'S OKAY...IT'S FINE......
ALHAMDULILAH....
YA ALLAH....PLEASE BLESS MY FAMILY....
;')
KEEP US AWAY FROM THOSE HARMS....
amin.....

اُللّهٌمَّ إِنِّي أعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ عَذَابِ الْقَبْرِ، وَمِنْ عَذَابِ جَهَنَّمَ، وَمِنْ فِتْنَةِ الْمَحْيَا وَ الْمَمَاتِ، وَمِنْ شَرِّ فِتْنَةِ الْمَسِيحِ الْدَّجَّالِ

Maksud: Ya Allah, Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada-Mu daripada seksaan kubur, seksa neraka Jahannam, fitnah kehidupan dan setelah mati serta dari kejahatan fitnah Almasih Dajjal.(3)

too hard to b true....

nah silly me rite...
stil keep t faith w me....
i just dunoe hw to hates..
i cared too much....
wen i tink dt im totally ready...
t tears dropping on my cheek
proven IM NOT!!!!!

i might b t strong among others....
haaa physcally.....
bt innerly im not...indeed...
i easily cry...
easily gt hurt...
but sriusly i noe...
no one cares!!!!!
haaaaaaa....

til nw i still cry in my sleep....
silently ;)
keepin smthing dt nt really awsome...
to myslf...
n keep teling my self...
i'll b fine....
those were LIES!!!
i lied to myslf
almost evryday ;)

if it doesnt kil u it mkes u stronger...
nah...i feels weak day by day...
sriusly....im no longer my self....
a cold hearted prson...

NO ONE CARES.....

bear in mind ;')

my choc cheese cake.......muahahhahaha

this is my cake...my cheese cake......

choc cheese cke w hershey's + choc rice topping....

Lies......

deep in my heart..

i jus wana b  happy...

i jus wan to be secure.....

i jus wana b fine.....

thre's a time o times....

we mke mistakes.....

im human...

yeap i did....

once we call it as mstakes...

but wen keep doin it...

i chose dat to b dt way...... -_-"

telling myself dat i'll b fine....

blerghhh -_-"

things might gt worsennnn....

heuheuheu...

i'll b ready bt how....

life's geting harder...

i need job...

then thinkng of leaving...

pasport frst.....

im old enuff to mke my own dcision...

bt am i ready?? hmmmmm....

i wish u t best n hapiness....

really...

=')

to whom it may concern -_-"

one day you're going to miss her chasing you....
you're going to miss her annoyingness....
and...
you're going to miss how much she cared...

SALAM RAMADHAN to ALL MUSLIMS ^_^

its not over.....

i wish to have evrything on my wsihing lists *keepwishing....

one week after done wth my degree....

im stil home...jobless..heeeee

so hard to make a dcision....

too many things to be consider....

too many things to b think about...

really wanna do smthing fr my fams...

really...

im nt like lucky persons otthre...

who get anythng dt dey want easily...

with all t siblings that mostly stil stdying...

heuheueheu....

i really wana cont study ..

dowan to think bout seeking job...

but wenever i think of cont study...

it was like im burdening my parent again -_-"

yeah..

we wil nt always gt wat we want....

i dowan to be so slfsh....

c'mon ain...this life aint bout u..

its about evrybody...ur parent...ur siblings...

put them as priority...

find a job 4 them..

4 btter life....

dont repeat what already hppnd...

chnge it!!!

u noe urself.....

b strong....

really 4 t fmily....

im ready 4 travelling...

living all by myself..

out there...

iALLAH...if there's any chnce after this 

i'll go fr it....

i'll b like t hops of t fmily....

haih...

its hard ae...

t respnsibilities as t elder....

i hops dt im strong enuff to face t world...

t reality....

i hops dt i hve enuff time to proud my parent...

hmmm...hmmm..hmmmm....

i'd rather see u happy than telling thngs dt gona hurts u

i dunoe either im bein selfish o dowan u to gt hurt...

but all i can do is keep praying...

heard too many things.....

too many... from others...

my trustable sources....

i wish dat i can juz tel u evrything...

it's hurt n killing me insde

noe u've been treated n cheated dt way...

but im scared by telling u evrything...

and watching ur sad face...dat's gona b

more hurting me....

so im keepin it..

if u happy dat way...

keep bein happy then..

its a syhhhhhhh....

 

memories.....i'll b missing u guys...really....

wen t time is here

its been two years....
my degree's life...
2 years with thousand memories...
too many things happnd....
too many things to keep with...


2years change me lots....
yeah lots.....


keep telin my self i'll b fine....
"u'll be fine"
keep faith....
faith in?? 
sigh....


no matter wat's going to hppn nex in my life..
i'll bring all t memories n pain along...
nevertheless i'll nver regret any moments
with u..u..u.. and u...


far away....far away....
maybe we will b like strngers soon...
t feeling of unwanted always wth me..
i'll be fine..
i'll be ready fr any unexpected o expcted things ^_^...


live t life to the fullest....
guys....
be happy 
be smbody...
be smone who worth to fght fr...
dn let smone treat u like rubbish...throw u wenever they dowan
n at a momnt pick u back ~.~
be wise..
be mature enough to "read" n "understand" life...
we're nt t same....
bckground...lifestyles..attitudes....
learnt from others point of view...
this life ain't always bout u....
be aware cause smtym
t others sees more than wat u noe...
yeah...
truth is pain..
bt live with it.....
b strong....


#cancer....i hate t feeling of rejection BUT i learn to live with it.... =')


I'LL BE FINE!!!I PROMISE ^_^

red shoes!!!!!

uncertainty

stil thinking.....

always....

i think i deserve btter...

erm who know...

i wish i have t courage to tel u...

haih...

all i wanted is u....

nah...

wel dont hve to b so slfish...

i'll b fine ;')

t hardest thing to do is walkaway....

pretndng lke i dn really care...

its hard..really killin  me insde...

acting lyk dunoe you?? haih its like killing u

wth my own hands....

whch is t last ting on earth i would do...

i'd rather kil myself dulu kot..

learning that..

we wil not always get wt we want....

i noe dat i'll be like forever alone..sigh..

wel i chose ds way of life...

ds is t price i hve to pay...

~.~"

 frevr alone?

hw bad its gona be?

ermm....

erm....live fr t presnt dear...

b fine 4 t present...

apprciate all....

b happy 4 t present...

b thnkful....

its gona be t best memories...

letting go of smthing nt bcuz of i've had enough...

its just i noe i dn worth enuff...

so hard to walkaway...

walkaway,,,,

i let smone b my priority even i noe im jus an option to them..

this is life...

my chosen life....

-_-"

 

t cake....its mine ^_^

MY CAKE (28TH JUNE 2012) THNKS TO U GUYS...

 

the sisters

they're fun...

they're crazy...

they're hillarious...

they're annoying...

heee no matter wat..they're stil t best...

heee i loves my sibs..

j'aime mes soeurs ^_^

NEW PETER PARKER!!! U AMAZED ME ^_^

he's awesome...

t new Peter Parker really awesome...

im amazed... ^_^ 

he's full wit emotions....

he's cute...

he's cool...

haih...i juz like him..

t movie was great...

really...

ANDREW GARFIELD....u juz awesome as SPIDERMAN  ^_^

 

well here are some of t  pictures dat been taken during our meeting session on last 11thMAY 2012

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feels like being used.....

wel its alright.....
i'd rather die than saying its over.....
sigh.....
i guess that evryting goin to be juz fine.....
i've been holding 4 too long....
till i cant hold a'more...
but i hve to...
its hard to letting go...
really hard...
im nt strong enough....
i'll go wth t flow....
idk untill when...
but i promised myself that i'll b patiently
go through all this...
with o without u noticing it...
(=

meeting session ^_^ hotel system

this is t first lucky group i guess ;) from L-R : Diana, iznur,dhiya, kak nadiah, ain, fariza and kelly...thnks guys..all of u did a really good job ^_^

this is the 2nd group with their GM syafiq, tiqah(yellow), L-R : cikjah,bella,kak fizah,nora and nabilah....

the last grup...t hunks wth one n only lil tiny secretary sarah khadijah

L-R :(sit) khai + hadi, (stand) haris,haziq,hafiz,adzim n haikal... 

all of you looks gojes and hndsome in this corporate attire ^_^

applaus to us HM2206B (2012)

i just adore her voices ^_^

ADELE.......SET FIRE TO THE RAIN ^_^

penang......

haaaa this is penang remarkable item hahaha =P
i've been there for one fine day.....
my bus from klang sentral at 9.00 in t morning....
i arrved at butterworth station at 4p.m.....
t meeting wth t hR manager was arnd 5pm...
done wth work...
loitering arnd pcific mall which hve nothing =P haha...
then back to butterworth st...
bought ticket home...at 11pm...
went to jetty..we took ferry to t land(frst time on ferry) so sad....
i mean to padang kota 4 eating ;)
ermmm
char kuey teow RM8....heuheueheu....
with big size of prawns (i dn eat them)
kerang bakar(frgot t price) + pasembor (RM17)
all been paid by my tour guide =P
later we went surround the land....
queensbay,jerejak,t factory -_-" haih....
auto city....shop in t park....
erm...quite boring....
limited time fr any other places...
wel t intention is fr doin work so its okay...
bus at 11pm...home...home...
arrved at klang sentral at 5 in t morning....
exhausted.....
insyaALLAH i'll b there again...for holiday mybe not a day trip..hehe...

lie..lying..lied...

being lied....been fooled....
which part of its sounds nice.....
learning hw to build again trusts is nt
easy as to crush it....
its killing deep inside...
t fragile heart wil cry over n over...
t pain is juz thre...n always thre....
fake a smile then face t world...
acting lyk noting hppned...
wen i was bout to forget...
its hppned again...
in a glimpse....
makin fun of my friendship....
there's a reason o reasons of my existnce..
i can stil sit next to u n smiles...laughing...
bt u wil never noe how my heart really broke wen im wth u..
~.~''
just dont lie....if u nt good enuff in lying...
i noe things better...
i listens more....
if u dun really need me o want me...
tell me....
i'll walk away...
i'll...i'll...
i dun really noe o hve t idea about t future....
juz for once...
i wana be happy....=') plz...

this is MELAKA!!!!! ^_^

again...melaka.....

ds time....juz 4 of us....

n ofcoz for doin assignment.....

"sustainable tourism"

i just wanna be happy....cant i??

did u ever feel alone....
im not afraid bein alone...
i just hate t lonely feelink.....


its hard 4 ppl to really undrstnd me...
i just miss smeone dt really care n understand bout me...


idk whether im a gud fren or not....
bt
evrytime....most of t time...wenver a fren needs me...
i'll b thre....
thru laughters n tears....
i just dowan them to feel alone....


i smiles evry each tym with them....
even sumtym i annoyed n making faces...
blieves me dats only wen im tired o im sad...


i used to say "im good"
"im fine"
"i dun mind"
bt actually i do mind.....
herm...
im a human afterall....
our needs....same...


i wish i was born wth strong heart...
really strong heart....
sadly im not...
i owned a fragile heart...really fragile...
i do stupids things...
i follwed my emotion...

all because...im just tired bein me....
hates me i dserved it....
its so hard for anther confession...
i'll keep to myself...
iALLAH forever....=')


just b happy guys.....
i noe some of u just need me 4 sumtink....n 
just rmmber me wen things happnd....
for a reason o smtym reasons....
its okay... =) ain wl aways thre 4 u guys....
im used wth it..
really....
i've learnt dat its keep going..going and going...
*smiles.......

did u know?

Did you know that the people that seem the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know that the people who exhibit the most kindness are usually the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones that need it the most? Did you know the 3 hardest things to say are: I love you, I’m sorry and Help me? Did you know about all that? Did you?

it's a bad idea ~~,

hve u ever scroll down reading t old texts or email.......
and ended up wth tears?? ...
tears of happiness?
o for t pain?
somtimes those old messages mkes me juz happy....
but smtimes its reminds me bout hw bad a stuation was.....
back to those memries...which sad me more than ease me... and believes me smtime t old texts dt was sent by someone dt we know might "sounds" really different from them nw....
and its kinda weird...
herm.....
well usually...wen i read o scroll back t old messages sent by smone..i end up wet the keyboard n t phone....heuheuheu...
and then it took me some moment to really recover back .....even t real "scenes" happend long tym ago but the pain is juz thre.....and i'll never deleted them....bcause i wan to remember t date...t day dt UUUUUUU hurts me....... and rmmber t date wen im bein soooo freakin freak n cry like a baby... ~.~

heads up.stay strong.Fake a smile. move on ^_^

my wordless day...... -_-"