DEAR DIARY......

diary??do i hve any??
heee....
hah i hve one...
bt not a daily diary ....
its a 'seasonal' diary hahaha...
wen i do feel lke writing sumtink
then only d diary wl b on my lap ;)

ermmm ever feel stupid x...
we hardly n eagerly tex sumone,..
we keep waitin like stupid but
dey dun even bother
to rep our text at all.....

naaaa~~~
dats human.....

i oftenly askin 4 fgveness
even sumtimes i dunoe
wat are my mstkes
n whre i dd wrong....
bla..bla..bla..

turn back time??
hah...
keep wshin la....
i wish...i wish...i wish....
hehe....

grrr...
stil dn shops any for raye...
moneyless....
im an adult da..
so raye doesnt seems so exciting to me...
my lil sibs surely
wll b so dmn hepy n sronok....

haaa dey wil gt more dwet raye
rather than their sis hre huhu

hahaha....

erm dear diary,,,,
whspered to me....
dat u stil love me~~
(im nuts)
diary cant talks~~hehe
baka~~

Pesanan Untuk Orang Cantik | iLuvislam + discover the beauty of islam

Setiap orang adalah unik. Setiap orang ada kelebihan dan kekekurangannya yang tertentu. Tidak ada manusia yang sempurna kecuali Rasululluh s.a.w kerana baginda telah ditentukan maksum.

Selebihnya tidak terkecualai daripada sifat lemah, buruk, hina, sakit san bermacam-macam perkara lagi. Anda tidak perlu berasa susah hati lantaran gemuk, tidak menarik, terlalu rendah malah cacat.

Biar bagaimana keadaan anda, anda tetap unik dan tanpa anda alam ini tidak sempurna.

Memang Allah menjadikan manusia pelbagai rupa dan gaya. Disitulah berkuasanya Allah. Dia berhak dan mampu berbuat apa saja mengikut kehendak-Nya.

Kita memang tidak ada pilihan untuk mempersoal itu ini, mempertikai itu ini. Anda mungkin berasa rendah hati melihat kekurangan-kekurangan yang ada pada diri anda.

Nah, anggap ia satu kelebihan. Jika anda sangka anda buruk, ia satu kelebihan yang tiada pada orang cantik. Anda sangka kecantikan sentiasa membawa untung? Tidak, tidak selalunya begitu.

Kadang-kadang kecantikan memusnahkan. Setelah anda dikenali sebagai cantik, ketakutan anda terhadap keburukan lebih besar daripada jika anda semulajadinya buruk. Orang cantik fobia menjadi buruk.

Setiap kedutan di wajah akan dirawat dan setiap kedutan begitu menyusahkan dirinya. Saat menjadi buruk pasti tiba, bagaimanakah perasan si cantik meghadapi hari tua mereka? Bukankah rasa susah yang tiada kesudahan?

Kadang-kadang seekor semut diberikan sayap oleh Allah supaya dia boleh terbang dan menerjah api.

Samalah halnya, kadang-kadang seseorang manusia itu diberikan kecantikan supaya dengan kecantikan itu dia boleh berbuat sebanyak-banyak mungkar untuk diberikan balasan setimpal di Akhirat.

Tontonlah filem atau drama-drama di TV. Kisah hidup orang cantik selalunya penuh duri. Jika anda buruk setidak-tidaknya anda bebas rasa riak dan takbur.

Penghuni neraka kebanyakkannya wanita sebagaimana disabdakan Rasullah s.a.w wanita itu tentu yang cantik tapi gagal memahami untuk apa kecantikan itu diberikan Allah kepadanya.

Dan wanita itu tidak terkecuali juga yang buruk sebab dia berterus-terusan saja mempertikaikan kerja Tuhan.

Siapakah wanita penghuni syurga itu, barangkali yang cantik dan dia sentiasa faham kecantikan itu ukuran manusia . Cantik pada pandanagn Allah adalah ketaatannya terhadap semua perintah dan laragan Allah.

Barangkali juga yang buruk tapi dia faham Allah tidak memandang rupa paras tapi apa yang ada di dalam hatinya. Wahai orang cantik, orang buruk, orang rendah, orang cacat, semuanya itu hanyalah ukuran manusia dan ukuran manuisa selalunya sasar.

Hargai diri anda sebab kewujudan anda mambuktikan kekuasaan Allah!

im not myself~~

i like kiddo
n oso babies....
heee....
im a freak wen wth them
hehe
dey're cute.....
wohooooo....
my mom beby sits
2kiddo n 1 beby...
ucop n hs sister dhea
n oso syafeera d beby...
hehe

feel lke bitting them hehe....
dey're so demn kiut...
i cant imagine if i owned
a nursery....
i'll b like totally crazy hehe...
im carzy over kids n babies...

haaa
enough la.....~~
(^-^)

okairi....

im home...
heeee...

i dun think much hre...
sleep...sleep...n sleep...

thnking of goin to pDN...
donates blood...
ermmm...

later kot...
last tme donating
was las year..
heeee...

ever feel....

do u ever feel like
kickin sumone a**

do u ever feel like
slammed ur fist into sumone face

do u ever feel like
cursing sumone to death

do u ever feel like
slapping a bitch til
she begging u to stops....

do u ever feel like
kilin urself wen evrytink seems
useless to u....

do u ever feel lke
ur alone
wen everyone is around u....

do u ever feel lke ur
efforts are useless wen u aready
tried ur best....

do u ever feel hates
by sumone u loves...

do u ever feel like
notink on this earth worths
ur smiles...

do u ever feel like
bursting into tears
wen sumone told ur
"hey?! ur attitude annoyed''

do u ever feel like
evrytink is stil useless
no matter hw hard u try...

do u ever feel like
im gud been btrayed
by my bff....

do u ever feel lke
stil loves sumbody
even they hurted u so much....

do u ever feel lke
ouh im desperates in gettin
ur attntion...
LOOK AT ME!!

do u ever feel lke
ALLAH IS WATCHING EVERY OF UR STEPS
but u stil dare to mke sins n act
like haaaa~notink~

do u ever feel like
yeeling out so dat others
can hears ur voices....

do u ever feel lke
living wth lies its juz notink...

do u ever feel lke
ur heart been stabbed
wen u noe d truth but dey keep denying...

do u ever feel lke...
wlking on t streets n yell
"hey dude,ur jerk"

do u ever feel lke
walking onto sumone
n hug them n whspered "i love u"....

do u ever feel lke
slepink whole ur life
so dat u dn hve to think much...

do u ever feel like
more hatred surrounds u
day by day....

do u ever feel d heat
lving wth sumone dat
u dn askd for..

WATEVER,,,
NO MATTER HOW MUCH HATES
OR ANGER IN UR HEART...
U DSERVED TO B MAD N ANGRY
BUT RMMBER ITS DOESNT GVES U D RIGHT
FOR BEING CRUEL....

APPRECIATE ALL D PEOPLE SURROUNDS U...
LOVES THEM..RESPECT THEM...
SO DAT ONE DAY WEN U LOSING THEM
U HVE NOTINK TO REGRET WITH....

ACCEPT ALL D BEST N BAD ABOUT THEM....
KEEP D RLATIONSHIP "CLEAN"
LIES ARE NEEDED BUT ITS NOT COMPULSORY...
LIES 4 D SAKE OF HEPYNESS...
DUN LIES 4 D SAKE OF URSELF...

ALLAH IS WATCHING U..ME..THEY...
ask 4 HIS 4gveness bfore its too late...

~~~~~
i think i had enough hre....
heee...
random sayin from me....

slammed into my face....

adoiii,,,,
hurts,,,pain,,,
ermmm

dunoe wt to say a'more...
i'll go wth ur style...
im gttin used wth it...
im gud ;)
iALLAH..

nw wat worried me is...
tests aiyoo...
fnance...surely failed...
ermmm....

nex eco...whch really put me into fire,,,
aiyooo....
sob..sob...!-!

i hving fever...
cought....flu....headache...
wat a cmbination....duhh,,,,

ja..
wana sleep~~

IM A MESS....

wel same thing occured...
im a freak i used to hurts myself wen
i get mad...
i dn hve d strentgh to hurts others
so i slaved my self s my "vctims"
im freak = weirdo...
naaa...
s long others dn gt hurts by me...
im gud =)
(im sicks)

heee...bla bla bla....
hermmm wats u gona do?
wen sumone in d past cme back
n wnted to mke up bck wth u?
ermmm after those lies?
enough is enough...
MISTAKE!!!
im not a kiddo...
i can think...

new bginning...
dun let me burn into tears...
im sicks of that...
n im sicks seing others hurts...

duhh...
juz hurts me its enough...
juz keep away from those i loves...
stops hurting thm...
im suffering too....

hops thing gona b btter....
~~~~~~

ease me....

again my ptptn applcation
ds time d third...
TIDAK DILULUSKAN....
emmm
ds ting really interrupting me...
haaa....~~
n more...
my batch....
goin to grad in dngun....
4th decembre.....

i hve d tot of nt attnding d cremony....
cost....
n more
its far poor my ma n ayah....
but if i dn attnd d cremony
im goin to lose my dip bes mmory...
duhh....
i'll rethink bout it later....

naaaa....
i've been cheated...
haaa....
i noe d truth da....
its does hurt...
i try not to think but...
its hard....
i act kool....
but i dunoe til wen im goin to live like ds....
ALLAH bless me...
jst keep them away from harms...

ermmm...
wen smtime i do tink lke
goin to commit suicide...haha
bulls***
im not goin to do dat,,,,,
HARAM!!!!
jz let them be..
biala....
i noe im juz notink....
with o wthout me...
thngs stil d same....

(-_-")

d moment dat i miss so freakin bad......

JELAJAH SELASIH HMD5HC/D duhh...
really wana turns back time...
heeee dis DNGUN ever blast memory wth them...
ouh grlfrens loves all of u dmn much...
we had so much fun thre rite...
and all d fruits heeee......


GAMBANG WATERPARK....
weeeee hre we are....
haahaha.....so much fun...
so much memory...
1 car= 6ppl hahaha...
left my favrite tdung thre...

but siyesly guys..i enjoyed evry mins wth all of u ;)
thnks all of u cuz being a part of my life ;)

keep frnship til death INSYAALLAH(^_^)

welcome back heeee~~~

wlcome back NURUL NADIAH @along...

heee....

she cme back afta 2 weeks leave due to her

dad's death(12ogos2010)

al-fatihah...amin...


i gt my rmmte back heee...

so my room wont be so 'empty'

=)

hve sumone to argue n lepak wth in room

oso study with ;)

-rougehepy-

dis is wat we kol qada' n qadar.....

duhh i tink had enough....
myb i shud juz let it go...
ermmmm tant pis!!!
huh...
im surely n confrmly wil not get my
ptptn loan 4 ds smester...
huuu~~`
T-T
yes...
it does burdening me...
wen comes to okane~~
haih...
i noe it useless if keep
cmplaining hre...
but i juz wana ease a bit my emo
heee~~~
(it works smtimes)

ouh ptptn...
please in fture....
wel organized ur webste...
dn keep mking d sme mstakes...
lke i have to faced~~
i hve to b patient....
ouh GOD put strength in me..
i need more ds time ;)
amin....

blue.blue..i love u haha~~

heeeee~~~

haaaa just done wth srvce test~~~
erm....
tourism test postponed weeeee~~~~
mdm ad hal~~ hehe....
quite a relieved ....
i havent covred al d chap yet ngeeee...
SAFE~~~~
hahaha....
erm nx test tcketin but...
syukur cuz it an open book test..
fufu~~

later on nex wik....
finance test aiyooo....
chap3..4..6 aduh....
CALCULATION=FORMULAs.....
duhh....
im dead meat =(

eco test wl b on 3rd sept~~
haaa...
erm...
im so not into eco n fnance...
duhh...
y i have to study those sbjects
grrrrr~~~

haaa hops things gona b juz fine heee~~

grrrr 2 clas CANCEL!!!!!

all of us were so damn ready for d presntation...
erm suddnly afta 1/2 hr waitin....
rceived a tex...
"guys clas cncel,,my car breaks down"
ok...
c u in nex clas....~~~

huuu...clas sppsed to begin at 11.30...
again a tex "class wil starts at 12"
ermm keep on waitin..until...
"guys class cncel"

yoshh.....
all of them were lke
""yooo wat de laaa""
aish....

misery bsness~~

ermmm.....i have 3 tests ds week...
erm..
strting wth service (wed)
fllwed by tourism (thur)
end wth ticketin(fri)
yoshhh....

luckily la....
BEL assmnt postponed to d flowing week huuu~~~
~rlief~

i wana b home...
fasting wth them huhu...
bt wen??~thinking~

haaa..nx wik..
finance test n eco test waitin huuu...
both subject grrrr...
really really really mke me cuak....
haaaaa....im not gud in calculation n drawing
curve...
i dun even undrstands wat is eco??
how sad i am....
pathetic~~~

hops i can b prforms well
ds smester...
iALLAH...
guys supports me heee~~
*cheer*

duhh....really hops im doin fine....~~
(-_-")

its shah alam time...~~sukidessu....

SALAM RAMADHAN~~

salam ramadhan to all muslims on d earth ;)
a month full wth blessings ;)

my bff juz lost her dad on d 2nd day of fasting....
-al-fatihah-
for NUrul NaDIAH dad.....

sorrow sank deep inside me~~

haih....
my rommate aready move out....
hermm...
i dun feel rite...
im sad...yup so sad....
evrything in d room
rminds me of her...

duhh...
im not strong enough to face ds....
oso evrywhre i go pon..
rminds me of her...
how~~~

deep insde my heart..
haaa....
i miss her....

but fams comes frst....
prayin d bes 4 her n her fams....
dats d only i can do here...
keep on prayin n keep faith in ALLAH.....

really i feel deep lost....
i have to b strong...
i need time....
really plenty of time.....
to gt used wth it...
bt i juz dunoe til wen...
seems lke i cant~~~

;(

off to class~~

keep on prayin....

i'll keep on prayin...
i noe HE'll listens to my prayers~~~
juz wan things to b btter......

PAIN KILLER~~~

haaaa.....
pain killer....welll sooon gona kill me in silent
if i tke it oftenly~~~

it causes gstrik an stomach ulser~~
duhhh~~~

dowan to dpends on dat pontalon~~~

ermm...
i have to b more calm n
think wisely later....

cant get mad easily....
really have to cntrol my temp
n oso my emotions
so dat my headache cn b rduces~~~
hops sooo.....

avoids sunshine (candle prncess =P)
crwded places~~
oso noisy places.....
all dat wll cause mgrain..
o mybe im a bit pmperd?
heee...
dats d truth la...
i cant stand d hots weather....
n oso crowded places...
it makes me dizzy~~~
duhhh~~~

hops im goin to b juz fine....
---------> tetttt...

ABACUS......

grrrr...im gettin misery laaaa~~~
i cant memorize al d idntifier al d code
erghhh~~~
its hard to do so.....
bt i'll try n keep on tryin....
encode? decode?
haaaa~~~
all d items ......
i wish i have enough memory to fills all d data~~
heee...
iALLAH=)

im hoping n praying d best for ds semstr...
im hoping dat things are goin to b juz fine
IALLAH.....

wat la...

talkin bout bla...bla..bla...

juz b urself....

erghh,,,

i wsh i can b prfect for evyrone....

really hops i can be one...

but i noe...

no one's prfect....

haaaa~~~~

gettin dizzy lokin at ds thing...

daaa~~

things gona b diff......

ok..im not wel...
dats not my poin hre...
huh....

i hate chnges...
siyesly...
im freak in adapting nw "chnges"
duh...

wat if dat ting really hppen?

hows im goin to b fine?
things are not goin to b d same a'more...

no "u" wl care bout me..
no "u' wil mad o argue wth me...
i hve no "u", to b annoy...
i hve no "u" to gt sulking wth...
eating wth?
walking wth?
lepaking wth?
hahaha wth?
no "u" to tease wth?
no "u" to pray tghter?
erm....

duhhh..
im a freak...
were close...
yes it does effecting me...
surely...its effecting me...

duhh i wish i can be heartless
like i used to be bfore...
so dat i wil nt b as ds sad...
huuu~~~ T-T

bt i cant....
ALLAH bless me...
gves me strength...
really need dat...~~~

juz hopes things gona b juz fine ...
amin..:')