overcome it!!!

hahahaha...
funny..
im 22 nw..but my fears to hospy
neve dssapears....
imma freak...
im not scared of piercing or any sharp tings...
jz i dun like d
hospy envrnment....
i hate seeing ppl sicks o b around sicks ppl...
im scared -_-"
i dn like n nt really wana noe d result bout my health...
its scared me...
lst tym i wen....
alone...
T-T
doc said..i hve t mgrain n gastrik...ergh...
n some kind of allergic...
avoids seafoods...
he said soo..
n nw...
yep i do admits dat my health wasnt gud enuff...
i often gt attck of d mgrain n it last a bit longer
than i used to sffered...
puking out...ermm dats normal da to me...
n smetimes at night...
stomchache...
on d left side of my tummy...
erm...
myb my eating schedule caused that...
one day..
wen i do really hve
d courage i'll go
to face d fate ha3..
(cm p je)
herm...im stil waiting for a job call ha3...
ermmm...
waiting at home..mke me
make me...erm..
ermm... =P heee...

well...well...well..well...

all ends wel..
think soo...
erm...
u wlked out of my life..
haaa...
broken hearted...

haaaa...
i bcme a stalker..
huhu
n yep i do admits hre...
"KNOWING TOO MUCH PUT U IN PAIN"
bein too busy body...
served me rite ;(

imperfect me... =(

if i hve d "Power" to says NO...

in my life.....
my daily life....
my student's life....
my frenship life's...
any of thing dat hppend to me...
i barely says NO....
i often saying yes....
YES to evryting....
YES to evryone....
YES to all...

i hve t fobia in saying NO....
o shud i say i've no guts in saying NO....
i hve to cnsider bout too many hearts...
ppl taking their frens 4 granted....
i tried not to say no to them...
i tried to tc of them
but i tried to hard n i lose them
dis is so sad...
i aways think dt im d best....
but at last
i realized
IM NO GOOD!!!

but evry frens dat i have...
hve their own part in my heart,,,
hve their own roles...
hve their own spcialty to me...
im taking frens with benefits
NOT FOR BENEFITS...
im d type act diff from wats in my heart...
no one wil do really undrstnds me...
ppl aways mstaken my act,,,,

sumtimes i stops o refuse to do sumtink
bcuz of a reason....
sumtime for reasons....
im nt doin on prposes...

btween us thre's aways a gap...
used to b as hidden...
unhidden nw mkes us strngers...

NO..NO..NO...
i wsh i hve t guts in saying NO
to all those things hppned...
i shudnt say yes at frst!!!
its killin my soul at t end of d road...
the road nt taken...
i shud take d road.....
~sigh....

those ppl arounds...
stops pretending...
u guys annoyed me much...
i shud yell loud to ur face
NO!!! Ur nt gud enuff to fooled me....
i see things more than juz a things...
im glad tht i was born ds way (lady gg)
even im right...ppl wont realized...
pomised me wth such a full sugar words
bt at last stab me at d bck...darn..

Y DO I NEED AN ENEMY WHEN
I AREADY HVE A FRENs THAT STABBED ME FROM D BACK!!!

*karma guys...
thnks lots 4 mking it worsen 4 us...
myb in my afterlife guys..
pays bck...

(=.=)bck off...

no more......

it's pathetic so really pathetic.....
trying to win bck d heart
dats nt belongs to us....
no more....
its d hardest part...
wen ppl doesnt really care...
they're not careless but juz care- Less...
pathetic acting...
i dun really care bout those dat hurts me....
i jux n only care bout those ppl dat i hurted...
they're meant so much to me compared
to those dat hurts me...

those dat hurts me...
u aint so perfect to judge me...
u aint so prfect to kidding arond me...
plying wt sumtink "illegal"
naaaaa....im nt scared...
juz be a bit matured....
nop..b matured enuff...
b4 saying sumtink o do smtink...
i used to be rebel in my bck lifes...
trying to play dirt wth me...
thnk bck...
cuz i'll be soo much demm wel prepared
*sigh

bt dat wat i used to be....
used to be..
n i hve no intntion to b bck lke used to be..
enuff.....
i am me nw...
im 22....
no kids gmes a'more...
mybe im still acting lke a kids...
often w tears...
plying arnd too much...
yeah ds is me...
im not prfect...n
i aint prfectionist...
evry rlations wil faces d hards times....

to b strong enuff...
myb i failed...
acting lke i dun care...
im gud in that.....
but deepning in my heart n soul..
d pain is thre....
aways....

i juz wana b sumbody else...~~,

"'HEY YOU"

PLEASE!!!!!!

u gt me annoyed....
sriously...
i hve no probs wth u pon...
sriously....
but y...u mke it hards..
n i juz..
ermm....
u chnged...
YA ALLAH....
its so recently...
=(

wen d devil's speaks.....

examination babe....
everyone's showed d real colors....
haahahahaha funny...
SELFISH...
it's kinda mean rite...
but yeah...
selfish dats d word..
d only word....
its funny....whre's ppl doesnt
really care bout one' said about
"SHARING IS CARING"
ur nt goin to risks anyting if sharing w others...
but dat's human....
away wth own attitude...
keeps blaming others
BUT making d sme mstakes??wth??
enuff la wth nt sharing bt...
y telling lies?erghh...T-T
funny....
haha....
yep....humans being...
who dowan to gt success??
who doesn want fame??
who doesn wanna b THE BEST??
it's too wide to talk bout WANTS hre....

i dn really care.....
haaaa...
so nt into my conderations...
but wtever it is...
im d type who tke ting easy..
so wat...
its ur life...u chose d path...
u chose d ppl to loves u...

u influence others o
gt influencd by others...
its two diff ting...
only u urslf noe btter...

and i noe myself better...
i wil nt hates...
anger o hates wil nt last long in my heart...
even i said i hates...
bt nt in my heart....
thre's aways a reason...reAlly strong reason to mke
me hates sumone...

im looking frward for sumtink nw ;')

almost at the enD.....

3more to go....
erghh....
d hardest paper in my part was
QMT...
ermm....
i leaves all to fate....
i did my best...
i tink =P
yep i did tried.....
but i juz nt into d clculation type =(
erm...
i dowan to put in my record
carry any paper.... =(
really dowan to....
ds sem kinda a bit mess here and thre 4 me....
yep..
my worsts...
i cant hndle stress well..
erm...
im hoping and praying 4 d best...
even wat i saw nw only hates...
ignorant...
pmanently deleted...
haih...
wke up girl...
no used...
its useless try to puts on any hopes...
..................................
im stil waiting 4 d result..
whter to cont o not to....
-_-"
so nt in me nw...
i cant fgured it out...
haaaaaa....
wke up...wke up....

ALL D BESH DEARs ;)