TRUTH!!!!

wel truth is pain...
need painkiller hre...
orite..
wel i do admits dat...
things chnged...
people chnged...
time,of coz la...
n i noe dat im chnged too....
wel its hard 4 me to accept chnges
need time...
plenty of time....
ignore me....
if u tink i hurts ur felink....
myb im not aware..
o mybe i dowan tooooooooooooooooo..
i din mean to hurts
sumtimes
stuation frced me..
sory..
im nt prfect...
n u noe dat im no good at all....
juz sory..dats all i can say...
bt stil...
hoping d bes...
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EXAMINATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATES EXAM.....
WHY DO I HATES EXAM...
ERMM TOO MUCH TO LISTS HERE...
CONC.I JUZ HATES EXAM....

one paper ends suck
erm
maketink...
i can answer all d questions
BUT....
cant guarantee dat all crrects...
wel
i leave d hall
befre d examntion end....
cant stands d air-cond
so damn cold
n oso my mind was blank...
so i dcided to leave d hall...

nex on d list is inkeepers law...
aiyooooooooooo...
dats killer paper 4 me i tink...
erm...
need tu study
from nw on...
(^^~)

drowning in d ocean of laziness!!!!!

wel i noe n i realised dat d final exam
juz around d corner...
but stil dn gt enough mood 4 studyin
aiyooo...
need sumone to pushed me...
need sumone to guide me...
but till wenn....
i am a lazy person...
jealous wth others dat studyin hard
bt me sitting n realxing in my room
reading novel,comic then listen to mp3...
all d notes n buks juz
as 'accessories'on my tble...
erm...
why dat i am so lazy...
i need study frens...
erm...
shud i?
cant say any la...
i am me...
d laziness girl eve...
huarghhhhh!!!!!!!
talk to me i'll lsten...
teach me til i understnd
lazy..lazy...lazy....
ignore me
let me drowned...

''''ANNOYING STUFFS''''

wel u outhre...
i mean all of u.....
those dat rename frenship=gay status
those dat act like
dey are likeable n loveable person
those dat filled frenship wth hypocrite tings
those dat laugh for sumone pain
those dat showed stupidness
those dat slaved for a frens dat hve no bnefits
those dat looking for frens
juz for bnefits
those dat hiding d true color beyond pretty face
(some aren't beauty pon)
those dat trying hard seeking 4 guys attention
those dat dun really understnds dat they're annoyed
those dat act lke an angel for all
those dat influences others wth 'filthy mouth'
those dat really like gossipping
spreads stupid news to others....
OMG....
juz feel so damn sory 4 all of u...
u dn gt d chnce to noe
d unique n beauty of frenship...
u dn hve d chnce to scrifices for frens
u dn hve d chnce to feel d frenship loves
wellll...
u din realize dat u r actually
lower ur dgnity wen
u mingle wth those kinds of people...
o actually ur too stupid to undrstnds...
erm....
U GUYS JUZ ANNOYING LA....
U'VE NO GOOD O U AIN'T
ENOUGH GOOD TO ADVICES ME...
WELL EVEN IM NOT GRADUATES FROM'SEKOLAH AGAMA'
BOTH MY PARENTS TAUGHT ME D REAL WAY OK!!!
DUN JUDGE ME BEFORE U REALLY NOE
NUR AIN BT AHMAD....
IF I WAN I CAN SLAPS U FRONTS OF D PEOPLE
BUT....IM NOT D TYPES DAT USING VIOLENCE TOWARDS
OTHERS...
ALHAMDULILAH...
I STILL MANAGED TO CNTROL MY TEMPER....
THRE'S NO USE HURTING 'SHIT N RUBBISH' LIKE U GUYS
CUZ U WON FEEL ANY CUZ U'RE RUBBISH N SHIT
DAT HVE NO FEELING!!!!!

MON AMIES!!!!

FRENSHIP......
ONE SIMPLE WORD.....
DEEP MEANING......
PRECIOUS...
PRICELESS...
ONE TING DAT I ADORE MORE...
ONE TING DAT AFFECTS ME MOST...
ONE TING DAT IM WILLING SCRIFCE FOR...
NUM ONE AFTER MY FAMILY....
'PEYTON'S SAID'
FRIENDS WTH BENEFITS...
FROM ONE TREE HILL
ERM WELL...
I ACCEPT ALL MY FRENS
THE WAY THEY ARE...
D REAL COLOR OF THEM
BUT WEN DEY LIED...
IT'S HARD 4 ME TO
PUT TRUSTS AGAIN...
ONCE IS ENOUGH...
ONCE U BROKE MY TRUSTS
DATS IT...
NO MORE...
SICK OF BEING LIL MIS HYPOCRITE
O MISS DRAMA QUEEN...
I DUN NEED ANY PRINCE CHRMING IN MY LIFE
AS LONG I HVE MY FRENS WTH ME...
SO WAT..
LOVER=IS IT LONG LASTING??
FRENS= TILL DIE I'LL KEEP IT!!!!

FRENSHIP,,,,,
KEEP IT FOR REAL...
FILLED IT WTH TRUSTS...
FILLED IT WTH CARES....
FILLED IT WITH LAUGHTER....
SHARING EVRYTINK....
SHARING ALL D PAIN....
KEEPING D DARK SECRETS....
STANDS FOR FRENS.....

MORON!!!!!!!!

wel las nite afta test...
i drectly go back to room
then go to librry
for returning some novels
( i hve no time to read pon huhu)
then do some blogging thre...
then rceived one mssge from one of my gfren
ermmm..
askin whr am i?
she said she gt sumtink to talk bout...
wondering what....
then leave librry n head back to room then
go to her room
well...kind of shocked la...
they told me bout
TWO MORON GUYS
yelled at them n calling them
'adk bradik smpah' n smell like shit!!!!
i was so damn piss off....
wat d pupose of those guys said lke dat???
dey were soooo immatured n childish...
one of my gf omost wana cry....
wat n why????
dey hve no rite saying dat harsh words to my frens...
actually both them dat act like rubish n shit!!!!
dey attitude so damn rude n arrogant!!!!
hey u please juz wke up n
realize dat no one really care bout ur existence...
wel u juz a person dat fooling urself around
by showing ur stupid attitude!!!
dun hve to act lke ur a hero bt
actually u've notink to proud of....

matured la..ur aready 20
bt stil
act lke a kiddo...
haha...shame2...
act lke a matured guy!!!
u goin to b a husbnd n oso a daddy soon...
oooooo i fell sory 4 'them'
if u stil nt chnging ur attitude in fture....
n bout ur fren...
ur easily gt influenced....
erm well try to b indepndent....
dun simply hates others bcuz of
ur fren ok...
sorry 4 u..hve to fllow all of his act...
erm...

ok...now....
im so damn pissed off wen i read
one of my fren posts
in her blog...
again bout
her assgnmnt 'fren'
i thought dat she's chnged but
dis sem she gettin more annoyed n her attitude sucks
wel wake up.....
u hve no spcialty...
n i cant blieve dat we used to b bsfren before...
but i neve regret dat i kicked u out of d lists....
but ur hurting my lil sis...
whch is so damn not gud....
i feel lke going to speaks out 4 her
bt lke she said she dun lke conflict
so i juz yelled at 'her' bsfren asks her to
advising dat 'annoying stuff'...
wel it juz left 3 more weeks to go...
hopes dat im not goin to faced dat
'annoying stuff'again!!!!

wel u outthre...
all d moron....
dun gt too arrogant wth wat u hve...
dun 4get whre u stands
cuz one fine day u'll realize dat
u all alone facing u stupidness n selfishness....
b a frens dat stands for others
not a frens dat stabbing others!!!
dun b such hypocrite o drama queen...
wel u juz sucks la!!!!

hurting my frens its lke hurting me too...
i dowan to hates but if u wanna b hates...
im juz ok wth dat!!!!
hate me.i'll hate u back!!!

(''~)

say watever!!!!!

erm well again last minute study..
woke up dis monink then rushed to librry
for making some CS notes...
huhu
did felt miserable dat time cuz...
i din study any yet
so hw am i goin to sit 4 d test at nite...
OMG!!!!!
afta lunch at byu grill...
back to librry....
dis time cant focused
cuz too fulled
then leave them...
go back to room
lying on d bed n suddenly fall asleep
haha..
woke up around 6.15pm
den only i can focused
test at 8pm....

ALHAMDULILAH...
i mnage to answers those questions
xcept 4 part D...
essay..huhu
Damn...frgt d explanation
i only mmrze d key points
dats it!!!!
d test is over
juz wait for d result huhu....

erm my spervision test....
soooo damn dpressed larrrr...
only got 10/15
wat d fsh huh...
i admits dat i've no plenty time for stdyng
dats sbject....
snce lots of tasks to b sttle...
bt i did tried to answers all
questions....
n dats d result huhu....
but 4 T/F part i got 15/15
hehe :)
ALHAMDULILAH...

orite...snce my lappy brokedown....
and its amost two weeks i guess...
most of d time i spent at library....
wth some fellows....
sumtimes we studyin...
sumtimes we juz gossiping....


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YELL IT OUT!!!!!!

welllllll.....
again...again....and again...
its all about my emotion herm...
stil bout d combine assgnmnt...
evrytink nw sttle...
welllll...
stil nt stssfied la...
i did tried my besh 4
d tasks...
bt stil faced some poblems..
but dis time...
my KP he's so damn kind la...
'smiley face'
no matter wat hppned
he stil can smiles...
i am so respect him
n juz wana b like him haha...
sgt2 penyabar orgnye...
thanks dude...

DISSAPOINTED!!!!!!!!!!
wel it kind of obvious
bt stil dey cant undrstand...
wel wat eve...
wat d fish ngeeeee....
caught in d rain...
rushing hre n thre...
argue wth ppl....
faced those faces....
pick up d rubish...
aiyooooo...
my migrain cme back......
wel i need rest too..
i need to study too...
i hve my own poblem too..
bt stil i din ignore 'dat tasks'
did tried d bes bt stil
some felt unsatssfied wth me...
yyyyy?
wel u goin to get d same marks as mine..
dun wory
u dn hve to condemn my job
sice u did notink...
so back off!!!!
u hve no right!!!!
so wat dun b too arrogant dear....
u learnt notink!!!!
i learnt a lots....
dats good enough 4 me!!!!

so u out thre...
b sorry 4 urself cuz
ur fooling urself
by showing ur stupid n rude attitude!!!

dear GOD!!!

im hoping dat dis sem wll end up quickly..
too much tings to bear wth lately...
gettin sicks wth all of thse...
really wnna graduates...
fnd good job....
collects money n moving....
i wanna live all alone...
whre ppl doent noe me....
i dowan ppl to cre bout my exstence...
wanna ppl juz ignore me...
hw am i goin to faced it...
im weak....
sick of cryin la...
bt still ermmmm....
i acted lke im kewl..bt truth im not la....
arghhhh!!!!

u know dat im no good

wel d time's proven dat
no one's really understand
me...
no one's really truly my colour...
no one's......
kept blamin me
wthout askin why?
is it fair...
so unfair....
i am me...
deep inside my heart
im stil d sme person...
i've got my own felink...
dn need to b so outspoken....
i cry wen its hurt...
my aunt once said
'once u gt d truth u gt hurt'
yup dats so damn true...
but no one seems really care...
lil mis faking!!!

attention seekers??
im not dat type of prson...
wat u xpects from me....
i gt my anger too...
bt most of d tme i keep it to maself
whch is so damn sucks!!!
if u were in my shoes...
u'll know hw much pain i'd carried..
but i kept silent...
bt smtimes i dd nagged...

yeah need to xpressed my emo sumtime...
im stuck!!!
really....
too much heart to tke care of...
bt my heart...
so damn hurt!!!
jz one ting....
wanna confess here...
i loves all my bestie...
each one of u gt ur own beauty...
n it does effect me if one of u
sulking!!!

in memory

in d middle of....

lately geetin busy wth lots of tasks ....
soooooo damn fenatttt....
assgnments...tests....
n dinner stuffs...
aiyooo....
im editing few pics for pat5 montaj...
actually im not willing pon huhu...
bt whle editing thse pics...
wahhhhhhh..
those mmories cme bck to life
hehe
sad...hepy...
all in one....
but most thanks to D-san la....
arigato ne:)
frens..frens...frens...
notink much la...
juz i love u... :)

y is dat soooo.....

i dunnoe whre to begin....
life gettin worst...
ok...
last nite metink bout CS ws held
at karah10...
i've told d-san earlier dat im not goin....
bt he did few times
psuades me...
n i juz dowan to feel guilty
n dats y i cme...
n oso it cuz of my carry mark too....
n i dunnoe y i rgretted so much
for attending dat metink!!!
mybe im still in d mood of frustrating dats
y i said soooo....
damn!!!
i was early dat nite...
metink shud b starts a 8.30pm
then dragged to 8.50pm...
no one is stnding to lead d metink....
n i've told dat our grup only send
d reprsentative but i mnged to
psuades othres to come...
bout d others grup...
wasnt all of them were thre...
n i was like...
wat de....
damn i was piss off....

then i stnd up n starts lead d metink....
im not supposed to do dat act...
but no one's stnding to lead d metink....
y dun u guys lead d metink
since u guys dat too eager n xcited bout d metink!!!!
i stood up...
i dunnoe whre i gt d strength..
i faced dis stuation b4...
i noe im not strong...
but dat nite i mnaged to cntrolled my emotion...
i lead d metink n
thre was no sncerity in my heart dat time!!!
all of them were bsying chatting hre n thre...
wel kind of sucks...
im talking to d wind?
to d dust mybe...
y showed me faces....
i f u guys nt so stssfy wth dat...
y dun u guys lead....
d coopertaion...
i knew it goin to hppened
dats is y i dowan to attends d metink
again..
i bcame d NKP...
seyes i dowan toooo
i stil can hold my tears dat time....
bt wen i heard voices dat not really
stssfy wth my NKP status...
i walked away...
i need my bestie dat tme...
my tears burst inside...

y? if u guys wan it...
grabbed it la...
me either dun need it...
im totally sad
so damn sad n felt lke a dumb...
stnding infront all of them...
jz imagine if im not in d metink...
who's goin to lead d metink...
i regretted so much la...
y dey treated me lke dat....
wel sory to oppa...
im not wllingly actually
pick u s d S/U
but d stuation
sorrry....gomen ne....

guys showed some respects..
if u were stnding at my plce
las nite...
u goin to b really pssed off..
bt ALHAMDULILAH...
i turned my anger into smiles
(no sncerity)
i try to jokes around...
damn..i hate metink!!!
i hate those peoples...
i hate it...
wanna b lke i used to b...
cold wth ebryones..
live in my ownworld...
wanna be heartless
wanna b rude to others...
but i noe i cant...

que sera sera...
wat wil b wil b.....
ap yg trjadi
trjadila.....

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