say watever!!!!!

erm well again last minute study..
woke up dis monink then rushed to librry
for making some CS notes...
huhu
did felt miserable dat time cuz...
i din study any yet
so hw am i goin to sit 4 d test at nite...
OMG!!!!!
afta lunch at byu grill...
back to librry....
dis time cant focused
cuz too fulled
then leave them...
go back to room
lying on d bed n suddenly fall asleep
haha..
woke up around 6.15pm
den only i can focused
test at 8pm....

ALHAMDULILAH...
i mnage to answers those questions
xcept 4 part D...
essay..huhu
Damn...frgt d explanation
i only mmrze d key points
dats it!!!!
d test is over
juz wait for d result huhu....

erm my spervision test....
soooo damn dpressed larrrr...
only got 10/15
wat d fsh huh...
i admits dat i've no plenty time for stdyng
dats sbject....
snce lots of tasks to b sttle...
bt i did tried to answers all
questions....
n dats d result huhu....
but 4 T/F part i got 15/15
hehe :)
ALHAMDULILAH...

orite...snce my lappy brokedown....
and its amost two weeks i guess...
most of d time i spent at library....
wth some fellows....
sumtimes we studyin...
sumtimes we juz gossiping....


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YELL IT OUT!!!!!!

welllllll.....
again...again....and again...
its all about my emotion herm...
stil bout d combine assgnmnt...
evrytink nw sttle...
welllll...
stil nt stssfied la...
i did tried my besh 4
d tasks...
bt stil faced some poblems..
but dis time...
my KP he's so damn kind la...
'smiley face'
no matter wat hppned
he stil can smiles...
i am so respect him
n juz wana b like him haha...
sgt2 penyabar orgnye...
thanks dude...

DISSAPOINTED!!!!!!!!!!
wel it kind of obvious
bt stil dey cant undrstand...
wel wat eve...
wat d fish ngeeeee....
caught in d rain...
rushing hre n thre...
argue wth ppl....
faced those faces....
pick up d rubish...
aiyooooo...
my migrain cme back......
wel i need rest too..
i need to study too...
i hve my own poblem too..
bt stil i din ignore 'dat tasks'
did tried d bes bt stil
some felt unsatssfied wth me...
yyyyy?
wel u goin to get d same marks as mine..
dun wory
u dn hve to condemn my job
sice u did notink...
so back off!!!!
u hve no right!!!!
so wat dun b too arrogant dear....
u learnt notink!!!!
i learnt a lots....
dats good enough 4 me!!!!

so u out thre...
b sorry 4 urself cuz
ur fooling urself
by showing ur stupid n rude attitude!!!

dear GOD!!!

im hoping dat dis sem wll end up quickly..
too much tings to bear wth lately...
gettin sicks wth all of thse...
really wnna graduates...
fnd good job....
collects money n moving....
i wanna live all alone...
whre ppl doent noe me....
i dowan ppl to cre bout my exstence...
wanna ppl juz ignore me...
hw am i goin to faced it...
im weak....
sick of cryin la...
bt still ermmmm....
i acted lke im kewl..bt truth im not la....
arghhhh!!!!

u know dat im no good

wel d time's proven dat
no one's really understand
me...
no one's really truly my colour...
no one's......
kept blamin me
wthout askin why?
is it fair...
so unfair....
i am me...
deep inside my heart
im stil d sme person...
i've got my own felink...
dn need to b so outspoken....
i cry wen its hurt...
my aunt once said
'once u gt d truth u gt hurt'
yup dats so damn true...
but no one seems really care...
lil mis faking!!!

attention seekers??
im not dat type of prson...
wat u xpects from me....
i gt my anger too...
bt most of d tme i keep it to maself
whch is so damn sucks!!!
if u were in my shoes...
u'll know hw much pain i'd carried..
but i kept silent...
bt smtimes i dd nagged...

yeah need to xpressed my emo sumtime...
im stuck!!!
really....
too much heart to tke care of...
bt my heart...
so damn hurt!!!
jz one ting....
wanna confess here...
i loves all my bestie...
each one of u gt ur own beauty...
n it does effect me if one of u
sulking!!!

in memory

in d middle of....

lately geetin busy wth lots of tasks ....
soooooo damn fenatttt....
assgnments...tests....
n dinner stuffs...
aiyooo....
im editing few pics for pat5 montaj...
actually im not willing pon huhu...
bt whle editing thse pics...
wahhhhhhh..
those mmories cme bck to life
hehe
sad...hepy...
all in one....
but most thanks to D-san la....
arigato ne:)
frens..frens...frens...
notink much la...
juz i love u... :)

y is dat soooo.....

i dunnoe whre to begin....
life gettin worst...
ok...
last nite metink bout CS ws held
at karah10...
i've told d-san earlier dat im not goin....
bt he did few times
psuades me...
n i juz dowan to feel guilty
n dats y i cme...
n oso it cuz of my carry mark too....
n i dunnoe y i rgretted so much
for attending dat metink!!!
mybe im still in d mood of frustrating dats
y i said soooo....
damn!!!
i was early dat nite...
metink shud b starts a 8.30pm
then dragged to 8.50pm...
no one is stnding to lead d metink....
n i've told dat our grup only send
d reprsentative but i mnged to
psuades othres to come...
bout d others grup...
wasnt all of them were thre...
n i was like...
wat de....
damn i was piss off....

then i stnd up n starts lead d metink....
im not supposed to do dat act...
but no one's stnding to lead d metink....
y dun u guys lead d metink
since u guys dat too eager n xcited bout d metink!!!!
i stood up...
i dunnoe whre i gt d strength..
i faced dis stuation b4...
i noe im not strong...
but dat nite i mnaged to cntrolled my emotion...
i lead d metink n
thre was no sncerity in my heart dat time!!!
all of them were bsying chatting hre n thre...
wel kind of sucks...
im talking to d wind?
to d dust mybe...
y showed me faces....
i f u guys nt so stssfy wth dat...
y dun u guys lead....
d coopertaion...
i knew it goin to hppened
dats is y i dowan to attends d metink
again..
i bcame d NKP...
seyes i dowan toooo
i stil can hold my tears dat time....
bt wen i heard voices dat not really
stssfy wth my NKP status...
i walked away...
i need my bestie dat tme...
my tears burst inside...

y? if u guys wan it...
grabbed it la...
me either dun need it...
im totally sad
so damn sad n felt lke a dumb...
stnding infront all of them...
jz imagine if im not in d metink...
who's goin to lead d metink...
i regretted so much la...
y dey treated me lke dat....
wel sory to oppa...
im not wllingly actually
pick u s d S/U
but d stuation
sorrry....gomen ne....

guys showed some respects..
if u were stnding at my plce
las nite...
u goin to b really pssed off..
bt ALHAMDULILAH...
i turned my anger into smiles
(no sncerity)
i try to jokes around...
damn..i hate metink!!!
i hate those peoples...
i hate it...
wanna b lke i used to b...
cold wth ebryones..
live in my ownworld...
wanna be heartless
wanna b rude to others...
but i noe i cant...

que sera sera...
wat wil b wil b.....
ap yg trjadi
trjadila.....

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