5th-7th September 2009

wel as i mntioned before in my previous posts dat im goin to kuantn rite... wel jux cme back la... kuantn..erm wat can i say here... quite a bz town la... d weather erm hot... ok2..as we arrived at d trminal mkmur... we directly to OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE interviewing d mnager kak lilys... she's nice prson... later we go jln2 at dat area... then moves to manje home by cab..

dat day we break our fast at manje house... wargh so many people la huhu segannn :P at d sme nite we went to klink cus nely sicks shes not felink well.... kind of funny gak la... a few minutes check up then d doc gves mdcine trnscript... total up she hve to paid RM46 afta disc la... me,bam, n manje keep on laughing till reached home..hehe
ok... d nex day... we went to berjaya megamall n east coast mall... then walk here n thre... bought few things.... hehe....at nite..we hve to cooks our own fuds 4 break d fast snce tok nt at home huhu... we cooks fried ktiaw,tomyam,tlur dadar,fried chic,fried fshball n fries crab sticks hehe


on 7th 09 we took bus at 3pm go back to Dungun... then planned to breask fast at balai tomyam again.... 8 of us, me,mnje,bam,nely,am,dhiya,ami n azha.... i found a kiut lil guy there haha.. he so damn kiut... wen he wanna leave he gave me a flying kiss haha... met puan ina,ck saiful, miss fad n ck syaquif thre... few chat then leaves hehe

beautifool....

woke up dis monink..
feel lke notink...
last nite cant really sleep...
headache sucks...
feel lke throwing away my head
(if possible la haha)
las day one of my bestie demam..
quite dsspointed la...
she din lt me noe...
c'mon..we're frens rite..
dn b ashmed wth me...
i'll tke gud cre of u...
n dun wory i din asks any in return pon...
juz hopes u get bettr...
ok...
anther bestie...
stil wth her unpredctable style
aiyooo funny sumtimes...
i'll b totally patient(^_^)
(tell me if anytink ok)
manje las day mybe her crazy day kot...
whole day been laughing
while bam,i found her burts into tears in her room...
tkah nw in KL...
leaving alone...
she kind of upset cuz im not goin back wth her...
tkah sory i cant....
sumting,sumone,sumbody stop me...
no matter wat la...
u guys stil my bestie...
loves u guys damn much...
knowing u guys is my
biggest apprciates in life...
hopes dat our frenship wil last for etrnity...
mira sent me a raya card...
she just left d card on my table huu
so sad..its been arnd 2month dn see her..
sorry mira...
ok...
beautifool me...
i dunnoe why it is so damn hard 4 me
to xpress my real emotion....
wen im mad
really wana yell at sumone face
but hve no strentgh....
wen im sad
really wana share n cry wth sumone
but wth whom?
wen im wrong
really wana xplains
but no one really care o wana lstens
wen im lost
really hopes 4 guidance
hell no...
dey juz leave me....
IM such a fool...
hoping 4 so many tings...
juz wana b undrstnds n rspects...
im sick of making faces la...
sick of being 'plastic'
laugh...joking...
but in my heart...
only sorrow surrounds...
i'll try my bes to keep my mouth silent
hopes dat i'll b patient...
i noe words might hurts...
silent is bettr..

wel im goin to kuantn wth manje,nely n bam
for our assgnmnt la 4 sure..
goin to stay at manje home...
at d sme day along is going to KT
for her grup event...
all d bes along n tc as well...

(^_^)

expressing......

wel snce skewl i'd love writing so much...

evrytime wen im dpressed,sad o frustrated

i'll writes...

before dis i used to writes on my table...

on d wall...

sumtimes on d tree....

on d beach sand hehe...

hehe..i used to writes on a piece a paper

later i throw it away

feel relieved wen doin dat...

mish d moment...

den i begin creating my own diary....

but my diary is nt a daily diary...

it's been used wen im not so fine...

i'll write ebrytink dat unstssfy me...

i din lie wth my 'besfren'.....

wen i enter uitm (dungun 4sure)

my 3bestie gave a diary...

strwberry diary huu....

loves it damn much2...

since pat 1 i din stops writng...

wel totally bout pain n hw hurts i am...

bt did a few hepy moments la...

but mostly its all bout pain...

bt no ones wll realise my real moods o emotion...

even my bestie...dey dun really noe o

undrstands me till today...

wel i neve hopes 4 dat cuz i noe..

dey won really care....

ermmmm....

but i'll try to b their bsfren....

laughter..laughter...laughter...

tears?let it b mine ok....

ok2...

now d tchnology prgress quite gud...

n now i hve my own blogs....

blogs?

i hve two hehe....

ok...blogging...

its bcame my shotway in xpressing my moods

n anytink bigs dat happened in my life...

wel i don care if u guys goin to view o not...

cuz wen i rview back all my old posts...

i felt satssfy huuhuu...

even sumtimes its reminds me back sum bad tings

but after all...

i stil can mke me laughs while reviewing thm back...

hehe (^_^)

frens,fun,tears,pain,anger...

erm last day wen to bazar
wth sum frens...
raining..raining..raining...
wel d journey begin wth fun..
fun..fun...and fun...
laughter surrounds all of us...
even it was raining...
i felt hepy cuz all my bestie was thre...
along,manje,tkah,nely n bam....
ermmm ALHAMDULILAH...
hopes dat we can hang out tghther again..
hopes too....
bought lots of fuds...
ktiaw dat's a MUST ok hehe...
popia basah,roti bom,kopok lekor,rgka ayam,cendol,tauhu fa....
ermmmm...
my frens oso bought their own feveret foods...
later wen to pOK eNG tIN...
bouGHT a boz of soya bean huhu...
surrounds with fuds :P
ok here comes d pain....
nely fuds found missing....
erm actually been accidenttally chnged by
other ppl...
we starts look around...
hopes can find it back...
erm failed...
offer to her to get sumtink at d bazar...
she rfused...erm...
asked her to buy anytink at d market...
stil rfused...
sokay....
asked her to cme eat at my room
n share fuds snce i bought lots...
she stil rfused...
she trying my patient level ermmm...
den she stat crying...
i cant see my bestie tears...
again asks her if she wana antyink...
stil rfused...
ds time my patient lvel totally
out huhu...
my voices turn into hgh note (nt really high la)
i scolded her...
ermmmm...
we tried ebrytink..but stil rfused
so we juz gt back into bus n rturn back to uitm...
whle in d bus...
im not even look at her face
(snce she sit bhind me wth along)
im stting alone....
wel im stil mad dat time...
kind of saying few bad tings la to d
prson dat xchnged d fuds...
not even talks wth others on d bus
ok...
reached uitm...
omos break fast time...
wen to nely room...
stil rfused to eat...
aiyoo...
im getin worry plak...
gve her a box of soya...
aks her to break d fast...
she stil din stop cry....
aiyoo felt guilt n sorry to her...
rturn back to room bring her sum fuds...
ask her to eat..
she said later....
ok..jz leave d fuds thre..

i brek my fast wth manje,tkah,miza,k.eza n kak yin...
along eat in her room..
sokay...
after solat..erm...
guess wat...
d headache again...
ok dcides to tke bath n sleep.....
then along came....
haha do mish her...
later nely came....
asked her whter aready eat o not?
she say not yet...
she asks whter im sick ke?
hah im not sick la...
jz d headache je...
asks her to leave n eat...
ok now dey leave...
ate d p.killer....
then sleep til sahur time.....

gOin To B mine.....

wel....
my dremon stuffs will increase
soon...
my bsfren sent dis snapped to me
hehe(^_^)
at first wen she asks me
'ko nk doremon x'
i was juz like mlu2 hehe
she asks wen im goin back
she wana gves them to me hehe
asks her to post je..
bt she refused to do so hehe....
thanks a lot bsfren....
u noe hw to chill me wen im dpressed huhu

mish her lots.....

how im goin to say dis....

im no gud....

huargh(!_!)

miss my mom lots....

rceived kol from her

mnaged to cntrol my voice

d tears was bout to burst dat time

huhu...really damn mish her....

luv u mom.. :)

~wondering~

so much i need to say juz...

aiyoooo...

d more i speaks

d worst it wil b.............

silent is better

sumtimes!!!

but nw bcuz of my words

again...again...again...again....

i skipped klas today....

dun hve d courage to wke up

and faced my frens wth dull looks....

im selfish...

notink gud bout me....

i dun even noe hw to mke tings rite...

but mke it worsts.....

sorry guys....

i am me....

trial in life so damn much chnged mw...

sumtimes,

me either dunnoe who am i....

tex to my sis...

she din rep back...

mybe in her klas...

wana go home....

assgnmnt blocking my way....

d tings dat i dowan to b hppens

and hates

goin to happens

need strength now....

please..please...