afta raya olidae...

okairiiiii...
back to dungun... by bus s usual....
ermmm..back to dungun...
assgnmnts waitin....
tests waitin....
DEPRESSION!!!!
haiyakkkk......
more..
presentation....
CS talk plak....
aiyooo......
all stuffs mke me miserable oooooooo....
frens?
juz fine....
dey gud :)
thnks guys :D

SLAMAT HARI RAYA....

wel 20092009 raya time... lets view some of my raya pics....

18th September 2009

is d date....
comin back to KL
for eid....
goin home with tika n along...
bus on time dats great....
wat sucks is...
our seat in d bus...
all sparately...damn!!!!
i seat alone till reached KL
tika sit wth along....
on d bus read mssage from sumone...
then burst into tears...
damn...
arrved at Gmbang stop
prform solah n cont journey...
called ayah to pick me up...
act pick my luggage je hehe...
it's raining huhu
introduced apek n ecah to tika n along....
accmpany along till her sis arrved...
hug n kisses den separates...
break pur fast at mcd....
yummy....
later sent tika to KTM station....
then our journey begin...
me,ecah,apek n jaja....
went to sogo...
aiya met some old frens thre...
hehe
then move to JLN TAR...
soooo damn packed wth ppl
huhu
we were moving lke penguin haha
done wth shopink.....
called ayah to pick up...
wel its aready 1 am...
no bus no LRT o wt so eve la kn...
kene bebel jap huhu
arrved home..
need to pack up plak yela nk blek kg plak
huhu fenattttt~

BERBUKE BERSAME2....

wel break our fast toghter hehe.. wel dis time is special bcuz... we break our fast toghtr wth en.fazli musa@en.dd haha so much fun la.. n he was so sporting n funny mlot bley than gak dye tu hehe... here some snaps we ate at BaLai BEsar tomyam... our total prices for eating thre around RM 400++ h but despite d pricela cuz we have so much fun and its prceless
orite guys here some snaps oso while break our fast at
GADONG...
it's our time...
and it could b d last for us...
really goin to miss d moment huhu

090909

wel guys 090909 a date to b rmmbr
wats u been doin?
any special ocassions
o sumting crazy?
sumting dat u not gonna forget?
erm....
wel my day begin wth class
at 9am event class til 10am
later class at 11-12 maketing...
afta class,few snaps with classmate
wel not all of them la...
juz a few of them...



12-2pm sleep in d room
hehe
later at 230 pm
went to library with manje....
stay thre till 4.30pm...
then moves to bazar with manje n tikah along....
tex along bt she refused..
hah ok...
then go to kafe...
tkah bought some fuds hre...
i bought few kuih(4 returning pnkish tperware)
hehe...

later turn back at library...
left our umbrella thre...
aiyooo...
on d way back from librry...
manje gve out suggstion...
y don we lepaking at pntai snce it stil early kan...
at pntai we did some sketch haha...
so much fun...
n only both of us:D

we having such a gud time hehe
later go back to kapas...
went upstairs met along...
gave her a small petite beg
d one i bought from kuantn
n oso some kuih 4 them hehe
she said she like d bag...
hopefully la...
hehe
later met d-san, lend him d brdband...
then hve a such bored n9...
xdpt on9 huhu
on d sme date
my bfsren ain.
caught a flu...
poor her...

5th-7th September 2009

wel as i mntioned before in my previous posts dat im goin to kuantn rite... wel jux cme back la... kuantn..erm wat can i say here... quite a bz town la... d weather erm hot... ok2..as we arrived at d trminal mkmur... we directly to OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE interviewing d mnager kak lilys... she's nice prson... later we go jln2 at dat area... then moves to manje home by cab..

dat day we break our fast at manje house... wargh so many people la huhu segannn :P at d sme nite we went to klink cus nely sicks shes not felink well.... kind of funny gak la... a few minutes check up then d doc gves mdcine trnscript... total up she hve to paid RM46 afta disc la... me,bam, n manje keep on laughing till reached home..hehe
ok... d nex day... we went to berjaya megamall n east coast mall... then walk here n thre... bought few things.... hehe....at nite..we hve to cooks our own fuds 4 break d fast snce tok nt at home huhu... we cooks fried ktiaw,tomyam,tlur dadar,fried chic,fried fshball n fries crab sticks hehe


on 7th 09 we took bus at 3pm go back to Dungun... then planned to breask fast at balai tomyam again.... 8 of us, me,mnje,bam,nely,am,dhiya,ami n azha.... i found a kiut lil guy there haha.. he so damn kiut... wen he wanna leave he gave me a flying kiss haha... met puan ina,ck saiful, miss fad n ck syaquif thre... few chat then leaves hehe

beautifool....

woke up dis monink..
feel lke notink...
last nite cant really sleep...
headache sucks...
feel lke throwing away my head
(if possible la haha)
las day one of my bestie demam..
quite dsspointed la...
she din lt me noe...
c'mon..we're frens rite..
dn b ashmed wth me...
i'll tke gud cre of u...
n dun wory i din asks any in return pon...
juz hopes u get bettr...
ok...
anther bestie...
stil wth her unpredctable style
aiyooo funny sumtimes...
i'll b totally patient(^_^)
(tell me if anytink ok)
manje las day mybe her crazy day kot...
whole day been laughing
while bam,i found her burts into tears in her room...
tkah nw in KL...
leaving alone...
she kind of upset cuz im not goin back wth her...
tkah sory i cant....
sumting,sumone,sumbody stop me...
no matter wat la...
u guys stil my bestie...
loves u guys damn much...
knowing u guys is my
biggest apprciates in life...
hopes dat our frenship wil last for etrnity...
mira sent me a raya card...
she just left d card on my table huu
so sad..its been arnd 2month dn see her..
sorry mira...
ok...
beautifool me...
i dunnoe why it is so damn hard 4 me
to xpress my real emotion....
wen im mad
really wana yell at sumone face
but hve no strentgh....
wen im sad
really wana share n cry wth sumone
but wth whom?
wen im wrong
really wana xplains
but no one really care o wana lstens
wen im lost
really hopes 4 guidance
hell no...
dey juz leave me....
IM such a fool...
hoping 4 so many tings...
juz wana b undrstnds n rspects...
im sick of making faces la...
sick of being 'plastic'
laugh...joking...
but in my heart...
only sorrow surrounds...
i'll try my bes to keep my mouth silent
hopes dat i'll b patient...
i noe words might hurts...
silent is bettr..

wel im goin to kuantn wth manje,nely n bam
for our assgnmnt la 4 sure..
goin to stay at manje home...
at d sme day along is going to KT
for her grup event...
all d bes along n tc as well...

(^_^)

expressing......

wel snce skewl i'd love writing so much...

evrytime wen im dpressed,sad o frustrated

i'll writes...

before dis i used to writes on my table...

on d wall...

sumtimes on d tree....

on d beach sand hehe...

hehe..i used to writes on a piece a paper

later i throw it away

feel relieved wen doin dat...

mish d moment...

den i begin creating my own diary....

but my diary is nt a daily diary...

it's been used wen im not so fine...

i'll write ebrytink dat unstssfy me...

i din lie wth my 'besfren'.....

wen i enter uitm (dungun 4sure)

my 3bestie gave a diary...

strwberry diary huu....

loves it damn much2...

since pat 1 i din stops writng...

wel totally bout pain n hw hurts i am...

bt did a few hepy moments la...

but mostly its all bout pain...

bt no ones wll realise my real moods o emotion...

even my bestie...dey dun really noe o

undrstands me till today...

wel i neve hopes 4 dat cuz i noe..

dey won really care....

ermmmm....

but i'll try to b their bsfren....

laughter..laughter...laughter...

tears?let it b mine ok....

ok2...

now d tchnology prgress quite gud...

n now i hve my own blogs....

blogs?

i hve two hehe....

ok...blogging...

its bcame my shotway in xpressing my moods

n anytink bigs dat happened in my life...

wel i don care if u guys goin to view o not...

cuz wen i rview back all my old posts...

i felt satssfy huuhuu...

even sumtimes its reminds me back sum bad tings

but after all...

i stil can mke me laughs while reviewing thm back...

hehe (^_^)

frens,fun,tears,pain,anger...

erm last day wen to bazar
wth sum frens...
raining..raining..raining...
wel d journey begin wth fun..
fun..fun...and fun...
laughter surrounds all of us...
even it was raining...
i felt hepy cuz all my bestie was thre...
along,manje,tkah,nely n bam....
ermmm ALHAMDULILAH...
hopes dat we can hang out tghther again..
hopes too....
bought lots of fuds...
ktiaw dat's a MUST ok hehe...
popia basah,roti bom,kopok lekor,rgka ayam,cendol,tauhu fa....
ermmmm...
my frens oso bought their own feveret foods...
later wen to pOK eNG tIN...
bouGHT a boz of soya bean huhu...
surrounds with fuds :P
ok here comes d pain....
nely fuds found missing....
erm actually been accidenttally chnged by
other ppl...
we starts look around...
hopes can find it back...
erm failed...
offer to her to get sumtink at d bazar...
she rfused...erm...
asked her to buy anytink at d market...
stil rfused...
sokay....
asked her to cme eat at my room
n share fuds snce i bought lots...
she stil rfused...
she trying my patient level ermmm...
den she stat crying...
i cant see my bestie tears...
again asks her if she wana antyink...
stil rfused...
ds time my patient lvel totally
out huhu...
my voices turn into hgh note (nt really high la)
i scolded her...
ermmmm...
we tried ebrytink..but stil rfused
so we juz gt back into bus n rturn back to uitm...
whle in d bus...
im not even look at her face
(snce she sit bhind me wth along)
im stting alone....
wel im stil mad dat time...
kind of saying few bad tings la to d
prson dat xchnged d fuds...
not even talks wth others on d bus
ok...
reached uitm...
omos break fast time...
wen to nely room...
stil rfused to eat...
aiyoo...
im getin worry plak...
gve her a box of soya...
aks her to break d fast...
she stil din stop cry....
aiyoo felt guilt n sorry to her...
rturn back to room bring her sum fuds...
ask her to eat..
she said later....
ok..jz leave d fuds thre..

i brek my fast wth manje,tkah,miza,k.eza n kak yin...
along eat in her room..
sokay...
after solat..erm...
guess wat...
d headache again...
ok dcides to tke bath n sleep.....
then along came....
haha do mish her...
later nely came....
asked her whter aready eat o not?
she say not yet...
she asks whter im sick ke?
hah im not sick la...
jz d headache je...
asks her to leave n eat...
ok now dey leave...
ate d p.killer....
then sleep til sahur time.....

gOin To B mine.....

wel....
my dremon stuffs will increase
soon...
my bsfren sent dis snapped to me
hehe(^_^)
at first wen she asks me
'ko nk doremon x'
i was juz like mlu2 hehe
she asks wen im goin back
she wana gves them to me hehe
asks her to post je..
bt she refused to do so hehe....
thanks a lot bsfren....
u noe hw to chill me wen im dpressed huhu

mish her lots.....

how im goin to say dis....

im no gud....

huargh(!_!)

miss my mom lots....

rceived kol from her

mnaged to cntrol my voice

d tears was bout to burst dat time

huhu...really damn mish her....

luv u mom.. :)

~wondering~

so much i need to say juz...

aiyoooo...

d more i speaks

d worst it wil b.............

silent is better

sumtimes!!!

but nw bcuz of my words

again...again...again...again....

i skipped klas today....

dun hve d courage to wke up

and faced my frens wth dull looks....

im selfish...

notink gud bout me....

i dun even noe hw to mke tings rite...

but mke it worsts.....

sorry guys....

i am me....

trial in life so damn much chnged mw...

sumtimes,

me either dunnoe who am i....

tex to my sis...

she din rep back...

mybe in her klas...

wana go home....

assgnmnt blocking my way....

d tings dat i dowan to b hppens

and hates

goin to happens

need strength now....

please..please...