im not myself~~

i like kiddo
n oso babies....
heee....
im a freak wen wth them
hehe
dey're cute.....
wohooooo....
my mom beby sits
2kiddo n 1 beby...
ucop n hs sister dhea
n oso syafeera d beby...
hehe

feel lke bitting them hehe....
dey're so demn kiut...
i cant imagine if i owned
a nursery....
i'll b like totally crazy hehe...
im carzy over kids n babies...

haaa
enough la.....~~
(^-^)

okairi....

im home...
heeee...

i dun think much hre...
sleep...sleep...n sleep...

thnking of goin to pDN...
donates blood...
ermmm...

later kot...
last tme donating
was las year..
heeee...

ever feel....

do u ever feel like
kickin sumone a**

do u ever feel like
slammed ur fist into sumone face

do u ever feel like
cursing sumone to death

do u ever feel like
slapping a bitch til
she begging u to stops....

do u ever feel like
kilin urself wen evrytink seems
useless to u....

do u ever feel lke
ur alone
wen everyone is around u....

do u ever feel lke ur
efforts are useless wen u aready
tried ur best....

do u ever feel hates
by sumone u loves...

do u ever feel like
notink on this earth worths
ur smiles...

do u ever feel like
bursting into tears
wen sumone told ur
"hey?! ur attitude annoyed''

do u ever feel like
evrytink is stil useless
no matter hw hard u try...

do u ever feel like
im gud been btrayed
by my bff....

do u ever feel lke
stil loves sumbody
even they hurted u so much....

do u ever feel lke
ouh im desperates in gettin
ur attntion...
LOOK AT ME!!

do u ever feel lke
ALLAH IS WATCHING EVERY OF UR STEPS
but u stil dare to mke sins n act
like haaaa~notink~

do u ever feel like
yeeling out so dat others
can hears ur voices....

do u ever feel lke
living wth lies its juz notink...

do u ever feel lke
ur heart been stabbed
wen u noe d truth but dey keep denying...

do u ever feel lke...
wlking on t streets n yell
"hey dude,ur jerk"

do u ever feel lke
walking onto sumone
n hug them n whspered "i love u"....

do u ever feel lke
slepink whole ur life
so dat u dn hve to think much...

do u ever feel like
more hatred surrounds u
day by day....

do u ever feel d heat
lving wth sumone dat
u dn askd for..

WATEVER,,,
NO MATTER HOW MUCH HATES
OR ANGER IN UR HEART...
U DSERVED TO B MAD N ANGRY
BUT RMMBER ITS DOESNT GVES U D RIGHT
FOR BEING CRUEL....

APPRECIATE ALL D PEOPLE SURROUNDS U...
LOVES THEM..RESPECT THEM...
SO DAT ONE DAY WEN U LOSING THEM
U HVE NOTINK TO REGRET WITH....

ACCEPT ALL D BEST N BAD ABOUT THEM....
KEEP D RLATIONSHIP "CLEAN"
LIES ARE NEEDED BUT ITS NOT COMPULSORY...
LIES 4 D SAKE OF HEPYNESS...
DUN LIES 4 D SAKE OF URSELF...

ALLAH IS WATCHING U..ME..THEY...
ask 4 HIS 4gveness bfore its too late...

~~~~~
i think i had enough hre....
heee...
random sayin from me....

slammed into my face....

adoiii,,,,
hurts,,,pain,,,
ermmm

dunoe wt to say a'more...
i'll go wth ur style...
im gttin used wth it...
im gud ;)
iALLAH..

nw wat worried me is...
tests aiyoo...
fnance...surely failed...
ermmm....

nex eco...whch really put me into fire,,,
aiyooo....
sob..sob...!-!

i hving fever...
cought....flu....headache...
wat a cmbination....duhh,,,,

ja..
wana sleep~~

IM A MESS....

wel same thing occured...
im a freak i used to hurts myself wen
i get mad...
i dn hve d strentgh to hurts others
so i slaved my self s my "vctims"
im freak = weirdo...
naaa...
s long others dn gt hurts by me...
im gud =)
(im sicks)

heee...bla bla bla....
hermmm wats u gona do?
wen sumone in d past cme back
n wnted to mke up bck wth u?
ermmm after those lies?
enough is enough...
MISTAKE!!!
im not a kiddo...
i can think...

new bginning...
dun let me burn into tears...
im sicks of that...
n im sicks seing others hurts...

duhh...
juz hurts me its enough...
juz keep away from those i loves...
stops hurting thm...
im suffering too....

hops thing gona b btter....
~~~~~~

ease me....

again my ptptn applcation
ds time d third...
TIDAK DILULUSKAN....
emmm
ds ting really interrupting me...
haaa....~~
n more...
my batch....
goin to grad in dngun....
4th decembre.....

i hve d tot of nt attnding d cremony....
cost....
n more
its far poor my ma n ayah....
but if i dn attnd d cremony
im goin to lose my dip bes mmory...
duhh....
i'll rethink bout it later....

naaaa....
i've been cheated...
haaa....
i noe d truth da....
its does hurt...
i try not to think but...
its hard....
i act kool....
but i dunoe til wen im goin to live like ds....
ALLAH bless me...
jst keep them away from harms...

ermmm...
wen smtime i do tink lke
goin to commit suicide...haha
bulls***
im not goin to do dat,,,,,
HARAM!!!!
jz let them be..
biala....
i noe im juz notink....
with o wthout me...
thngs stil d same....

(-_-")

d moment dat i miss so freakin bad......

JELAJAH SELASIH HMD5HC/D duhh...
really wana turns back time...
heeee dis DNGUN ever blast memory wth them...
ouh grlfrens loves all of u dmn much...
we had so much fun thre rite...
and all d fruits heeee......


GAMBANG WATERPARK....
weeeee hre we are....
haahaha.....so much fun...
so much memory...
1 car= 6ppl hahaha...
left my favrite tdung thre...

but siyesly guys..i enjoyed evry mins wth all of u ;)
thnks all of u cuz being a part of my life ;)

keep frnship til death INSYAALLAH(^_^)