return~~

im facing my hard times dis fews days....
whole day slepink n crying in my room...

mgade2 kn...
one of my fren said dat la....

huhu....
wat to do....
i cant tink of any...
LOST!!!

i din go to d intrview...
my headache ruined my mood....
n more i've no heart to go...

so i dcided to stay at home
n sleep je....

whole day hearing my atok
screaming....
he's sick....
funny....
he tot my ayah was dead....
nyanyok tol....

he tot he stayin in hotel...
he askd my nurse(my kakak)
bpe gji kje cni??
hahahaha~~
adoiyaiiii.....

my ayah n ma...
very patient wth my atok prangai....

ok...
nw im jobless....
since i runaway from pgkor huhu~~

homesicks....
my flu gettin worsts thre....
huhu~~

so i dcided to leave pgkor....
more d envirnmnt thre...
scared me...
too many weirdo...
mat rmpit...
huh..countless....
even d resort drver pon scared me...
dat pkcik..loves staring at ppl....

dat place was nice...
juz im nt so ready to work...
mybe...
more....
account dprtmnt...
huhu...
im so not into figuring....
aiyarkkk....

rather than i suffring thre...
so i runaway...
thnks dear cuz support me..
tika n mokna...
so sad leavng them....

bt i want to leave...
i dn care a'more...
i juz wana b home...

wen i arrved...
my mom n dad quite shocked la...
huhu~~

bt i act norm =P
my sis noe d story...

its hard~~

its hard 4 me....
thing stil fresh n clear in mind....
evryting hpnnd...
at one shot....
i cant think...
really cant think....
pangkor taught me...
dat im not ready to b far
from those i loves n cared most....
deep inside my heart
im hoping dat thing wil b juz fine....
insyaALLAH...
dt wl b my bggest regret...
frndship....
i cared d most ...
down to lose it....
frenship to me...is
prcious.... i juz cant think a'more...

cry aLONe~~i,ve been thrown away~~

thing dat i scared d most in my life
~losing sumone dat i loved~
and it hppned again~~
cuz im losing my besfren~~
because of my own mstake...
i din tex to her informed dat im hre...
aready hre~~
my bad....
juz wana create srprise to her....
but smone aready told her....
one of them is her scndal~~

i din blamed them...
wen dis thing hppend.......
it shocked me really deep....
she using harsh words to me....
bt i pt it aside..
keep on aplgzing to her...
im so not ready for another lost...
i tel her d real stuation...
hopes she'll undrstnds...
bt my efforts seems useless....
she dn even care at all...
she shouted n yell at me...
(in tex la)
~im a crying beby~

feeling like my decision cme back to KL
is a mstake...
its create dssater to me....
im sorry...
you are one of the reason y im here
again in KL.....
bt u din see dat...
u wth ur anger....
n ur emotion...
i dowan to blamed u..
cause i love u so much....
i admit dat i love u more than
others n oso more than my self...
i never said i hates u...
i never said "go to hell'' to u...
i never ask u to ''go brmbos''

i din tex u~~
i din infrmed whre am i....
if cmpared wth u...
i tink ds is my frst time did dat~~
bt totally dsaster....
wut bout u?
i blievd lots of times u din tel me....
u go out wtchng mv wth skinny spec guys....
u go out dinner wth bos..
u go visits kB few times...
u told me u only been thre 2 times....
bt i juz keep it to myself....
cause of wat?
cause i love u....

las year on 1st august~~
u left me....
u went eating wth skinny spec guys.....
i was so sad dt time....
riot at msjd india.....
wat i 've been doin thre??
i wnted to buy bngle 4 u..
bt i was so unlucky dat time...
i was alone dat time...
bt u said..sokay meet up at tS...
i feel such a rlieved....
i waited omos 2hr thre...
thn u tex me u goin out wth him...
i feel like a dumb dat time...
wait 4 ur tex..NIL...
i dcided to leave dt place...
tot u gona asks me to wait..but u said
ok..juz dat...
~enough wth d past~

then wen u said u hates me...
thnking of leaving da...
bt i dint...
cause i loves ds frenship...
ur my bg sis....
so i kept it aside....
n act nrmal.....

Ya ALLAH,,,,,,
d only thing i asked...
is to hold her wen im nt around...
i noe..n deep inside me felt dat...
dstime...
we will neve b d same.....
loso
our frnship omos 2yrs....
end in a day.....

u said so....

i dowan n uwilling too....
i hates d part of losing bstie....

juz wan u to noe dat...
every momnt we shared...
every smiles n every tears....
i really apprciated it....
n...
i neve regret i noe u....
u aways my kind bestie...
u knew it urself...

hopes u wll do jz fine
wthout me...
tkecare of ur health...
gt nw pstol....
rduces ice taking....

im fine wth evry name u kol me....
evry ur harsh words....
ur temper n ur anger...
im juz fine wth al of it....

t.cre~~
sory bout my exstence in ur life...
i neve regret i noe u...

~my paus drowned wth tears~

okairi~~~

guys im back to KL 4 GUD~~~~
soon im goin to yell out
d story here~~
wel im juz hepy
dat im here now~~
missh all d besties =)
n fams =)

bienvenue~~~PANGKOR~~

arrved~~stiawan at 1.30am~~
mak pck up~tka n me~
arved home~~
sleep...
bt cant sleep pon~~
FLU~~~
bes part i left my vicks dem~~
huhu~~
3hr in aircond~~fufu~~
so damn cold~~
sleep wth my sweater on~~
fuhhh~~
at 6am....
wke up~~
tke shower then gt ready ~~
wait 4 pkcik then grak to Lumut JEtty~~
so many things~~
bought d feri tcket~~RM10~~~
time to sleep~~
all t way to pgkor jetty~~
i sleep~~my head was so spinning n more~~
im on d water huhu~~
CRAPPPP~~~=P

reached jetty then kak lia(pson inchrged)
pck up~~
bye mak n pakcik~~
drect to meet t HR mnger~~
MR aDIb(he using bd romance rgtone)
huh!!!

k wuteva~~
lalala~~
otw to hostel ~~
mokna askd kak lia~~
bout d poin in ds resort~~~
sadly la kan~~
they rceivd RM80/point las mth~~
erkkk~~~
(tkesima sketika)
huhu~~~

arrved at hostel~~~
ermmm d room juz nice~~
i got my own bed~~heee~~~
juz bring one dremon pillow je~~
then went to shops kt bwah~~
ouh~~
i syesly hve to really limit my xpnses here~~
(more after noe bout d salary)
gulp~~ =(

wat to do~~
my choice kan~~
so so so~~
sdey gak la~~
arghhhhh~~~

migrain~~
huhu~~

but d hosmate ok la~~
kak lia n one trainee~~yan~~
all d staffs ermm~~
hotel ppl kan~~
huhu~
time to act cold hee
ouh im so not pramah
cmpared to mokna n tika
silent is btter hee~

~out~

OUHHH MY GUCCI..MY DIORR... huh wuteva!!!

wutso eva lalalala~~

adoiiii~~~

wen suddnly my ayah~~~

suh cont degree~~~

weeeuhhhh~~~

i aredy gt t job.....

n so soon goin to pgkor~~

weeeeuhhh~~

then my mom plak~~~

kawin??

aiyoooo~~

maaaaaa~~

im juz 21 (dis 28th june)

LOL.....

mai2 spe nk msok mminang haha~~

wat laaaa~~~

i noe my bestie,,,tika,,

muz b so damn piss off

if i told her i dowan to go to pgkor~~~

erkkk~~~

she warned me....

dat im goin to b regret

if i din go wth her~~~

huhu~~~

wat de~~~

ugutan ituuu~~~

ermmmm....

wat to do heh~~

then my sis~~~

d nurse~~~

she oso keep askin me~~~

y??

Y??

adoiiii~~~

ngungkit~~

y i din go for spa~~

dats 2 years ago~~

nw i hve done wth my dip lorhh~~~

ishhh~~~

gram3....

wat can i say kan~~

weirdo...im a freak k??

huhu~~~

so dem misery niii~~~

me again~~

at frst al jz fine~~
then bcuz of a post...
evrytng screwed up~~
then ~~
all d blamed on me....
cooL huh....
wel im juz me....
hates argument....
dun like it~~
cuz at last d pain wth me~~
its hard to be me....
i think i am simple...
bt truth im not...
my life full wth probs~~
lots to thnks~~
huh~~
wteve it is....
life hve to move on rite....
hopes i'll b strong thre....
far from fams....
far from all that i loved....
myb a week o two i'll be totally
sad thre~~
bt hopes aftr dat i'll b gud...
or else....
KL im comin to ur hug....

*sigh*
sorrow sank deep in my blood nw....
i noe...
wen i pick pgkor~~
evrytnng gona b chnges....
n i noe dat.....
i cant simply cme back to KL
huh....
far away~~
so far away~~

hopes my fams wl b juz fine...
so do al my besties....
along,nely,bum,~~
tika is wth me~~
hopes i can ngam wth her~~huhu
really gona mish all of u ladies ;)

new journey....
new chapter of my life....
soon....
GOOD GIRL GONE BAD??
OR STAY GOOD??
heee~~juz wait~~
i'll updates to al of u here~~ =)